This is Panda's first high fantasy story and when it comes to BL I don't really read a lot of high fantasy stories so I came in with 0 expectations, but once again Panda is here to wow the socks off me.
Habibi ni Kuchidzuke wo is about Zack, a blond and blue-eyed traveller passing through the desert country of Sandla. He meets Grace, a rich lord whose hugeass library attracts Zack and makes him more agreeable to work for Grace despite them getting off on the wrong foot (Grace's carriage crashed against Zack's desert bird).
Like in all of Panda's works I've read (which is everything in a tankoubon, minus the Haikyuu stuff), we start with some high tension and energetic meeting between the leads. The sex scene also pops in on the 3rd chapter, so we're beginning pretty early (there's a certain 'wow, foreigner!' kind of theme going on here, so Grace never actually hid his attraction to Zack and vice versa, but they still got things so wrong. I'm really impressed 😂)
Then we move on to the take your breath away scenes, and honestly I should have expected this because of how lovingly Panda had drawn Sandla, but the art really shines here and it's sort of ironic (?) how Panda manages to do this despite everything being in black and white.
So there are some important things in this story:
1, Zack is travelling all across the desert because he once read about a magical place where one can see a whale in the sky.
2, Zack's colouring makes him stand out among the locals because everyone else has dark hair and skin.
3, Grace's eyesight is bad. Tiit tells Zack about it and Grace admits he can't see colours when Zack asks him about it.
So when Tiit gets sick and an Auja flower from the desert is needed for the medicine, Zack offers to come with Grace to look for the flower because he knows Grace will have a harder time with his bad eyesight and a possible coming sandstorm.
After getting caught in a sandstorm, they do find what Zack assumes is the Auja flower, but Grace thinks it's not the flower they need because Auja is supposed to sparkle. Cue the clouds parting, the moon and the stars coming out, and everything starts to sparkle. It's so pretty! The manga is of course black and white, but Panda still manages to bring across the sparkly and the colours of the sky, I'm really impressed. The sky whale as it turns out is ... the swirl of a galaxy I assume? So they find the medicine and the whale Zack is looking for in one go!
But that night has changed something else aside from Zack and Grace's relationship, and it seems like Grace's eyesight got better? And I'm sorry to be spoiling it like this because the story makes it sound like Grace went completely blind instead before he admits that's not it, but I need to talk about the sex scene that happened afterwards.
You see, Grace keeps hearing things about Zack's looks and he's interested, but seeing as he can't see colour he can't really understand how shiny Zack is. When his eyesight returned, he avoided looking at Zack because it's too much.
Except he does end up looking while they are having sex and the way Panda cut between panels where Grace looks up at Zack and Zack looking up at the galaxy whale is just *chef's kiss*. Took my breath away tbh.
There's something about Panda's stories that make me think the pacing needs to be slower (the characters end up falling for each other really fast and the story is usually about them accepting their feelings) but it's moments like this where I know they know what they're doing.
Also I want to flex about how my copy is signed because pandemic made mail order signed books possible 😂
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.