Spoilers *Long Review*
This has an interesting day for me because I just read a book that was originally released on Wattpad and not gonna lie, I got instantly hooked by its plot and premise along with the darker themes that the story has and decided to buy the version of Amazon Kindle. Now, the Wattpad version was excusable because it has a lot of spelling errors, but when I saw the novel version in its fullest, I suddenly found myself more frustrated in ways that I couldn't begin to understand despite the interesting premise that is both heartbreaking and resilient.
The characters, especially the main cast in Aubry and Aiden are written okay and had motivations of their own along with the depth that feels earned. As a matter of fact, I've rooted for Aubry to prevail along with Aiden because her story is painful, and relatable and I got my wish when it happened when Aiden stepped in to defeat the bad guys in her life, but not before she put up a good fight regardless and the 'happy ending' was pretty nice, to say the least. In addition, the supporting cast in Tommy, Brianna, and Brandon also moved the plot along very well and even the drug lord Demetri had some depth despite not liking him in the beginning.
But one of my biggest gripes is how the characters were handled overall and how much of a chore the characters can truly be. For example, on the main villains are in its hatable characters in Daniel (the psycho brother of Demetri) Sunny, Ronnie and how they dragged the story. Now don't get me wrong, they're supposed to be hatable and ignite emotions from the reader. And I respect that because not every villain can love to hate or be charismatic as they just need to be well-written enough to become a more interesting character than the hero, in my opinion.
However, for the main villains like Daniel, I beg to differ because they're so over-the-top (and not Dio Brando-levels of hilarity) that the irritation I got is that they are written so poorly that it made me not want to physically read it. Instead of feeling absolutely tense, I felt a sense of dread, anger, and annoyance of how they ended up grating on my nerves because they all felt like a chore to sit through rather than a threat to be feared like he should've been if he was written much better. Instead, he's not a threatening villain at all because he doesn't have enough depth to be a fully-realized character.
In my opinion, I wish there were a lot of character moments because Daniel could've been a great foil for Aiden and Demetri could've been a great foil for Aubry and more importantly, Daniel should've been killed off halfway through the story and being defeated by both Aubry and Aiden for Demetri to emerge as the final boss. Across hundreds of page of how much of a horrible being Daniel is from Aubry's POV, that narrative loses all elements of surprise because we all know that Daniel is going to do something horrible to Aubry and was the same just like in the very first chapter. And for a story that was originally released on Wattpad, this is completely evident in its tropes.
However, that doesn't extend my frustration on the main villains as I also have gripes on the main characters as well despite their interesting story of a 'bad boy and abused girl' angst trope that I completely gave in and was rewarded by their ending. The main and supporting characters themselves are cringy at times (that includes Aiden and Aubry's circle of friends) and I found myself completely rolling my eyes and facepalming whenever scenes they have conflict in because it can be annoying at times.
Because they both fall into the typical Wattpad tropes, the main characters in Aiden and Aubry also have their character arcs suffer at times as well despite their good character development. Aiden, especially whom, was an unlikable prick in the beginning but managed to become likable in the end when he managed to forgive Aubry giving the drugs to his dad by saving her life. Of course, there are times where Aiden suddenly stagnates at times and his overall story suffers. Aubry's traumatic story was great in the beginning because we caught a glimpse of her life and it's rather easy to be invested in.
But there were times where Aubry's story arc feels unrealistic and grating to the point where it would've been better if her situations involving constant trauma were significantly reduced and the trauma were more subtle than absolutely blatant, like it was at times. Besides, one thing I've noticed, is that with the amount of injuries that she had sustained from the physical abuse or how tiny Aubry is, it wouldn't make sense to have Aubry suddenly defy the odds by becoming an elite fighter just because she had a few weeks to train and all of a sudden, she won her fights against opponents to make it to the Final two with Aiden. And let's not forget, the consumption of her trauma can make her unintentionally selfish at times, even towards Aiden.
And what I don't really like about this book is how truly over-the-top can be dealing with the story's trauma as it felt like a plot device designed to shock readers at first read, but after re-reading several times, it basically falls apart because the plot became stagnated as a result. Not to mention, Their inner monologue can be cringy and repetitive at times ... And speaking of repetitiveness ...
This book was way too damn unnecessarily long because this was 900 pages on Kindle (and nearly 800 pages on paperback) and it had 63 Chapters and a 7-part Epilogue that I had to sit through in a couple hours that helped me commit the memory of reading this. The dual POVs in Aubry and Aiden was brilliant on paper, but in execution, it wasn't properly done right because all it did was make it repetitive instead of seeing the separate POVs that could've been easily interconnected or better yet, if it was in 3rd-person POV, then we could've had better tight writing than the one it had. But instead, the dual 1st-person POV was a back-and-forth of the same situation that made the overall story dragged down by its length.
For a story that was originally released on Wattpad in 2017, I shouldn't expect too much out of it because the story hooked me up straight away and the 2021 novel version had so much potential to improve and revise on its shortcomings. I also felt like the author has a chance to deviate the characters from the original while keeping elements the same. But instead, the writing remained unpolished and the characters remained the same as it was in the original. It would've been much better if the number of chapters and the length of its pages was significantly reduced to just 300-400 pages because the entire book felt long, meaning that the plot stagnated until the very end.
I truly can't hate this book at all because the plot is interesting and the author managed to hook her readers on the character's struggles and the darker premise. I understood why it's popular on Wattpad and I love how the author managed to publish the entire thing as a novel. Not anyone can do that and I appreciate her nonetheless. However, I can't deny its technical flaws and how it's lack of deviation from its original Wattpad tropes had made this book not a well-written story at all because it has so much content, yet so little to offer to the audience.
For the ranking, I'm going to give it 2/5. The book itself on Wattpad was a great read and it had a chance to become great once I heard it was released as a novel. It had so much potential because the beginning was good and the ending was okay. However, its cons outweighed the pros as the middle part it stagnated along with its repetitiveness that dragged the story down to the end. It was a missed opportunity to say the least because I ended up skimming the entire book because it was so long and repetitive and I only just go to the parts where it truly mattered. But by the end, I felt frustrated and disappointed because the execution was poor despite liking Aubry and Aiden as the main characters.
I may look like I'm being harsh and thinking way too much, in which I am, but it's never meant for me to bash author for her work because I think she's a great writer. But this book isn't for me because it left me disappointed and frustrated since the story is overshaowed by tropes that are acceptable in Wattpad, but in the finished product.
What a waste of potential.