What do you think?
Rate this book


288 pages, Paperback
First published April 23, 2020
“By the end of next summer, before the kids go back to school, I will kill my family.”It's impossible to empathise with Des, although that's a plus point, however, I also found it difficult to empathise with Jenny, and maybe that's a more difficult position to accept. I believe the structure of the book should have been told either in the third person, or the first person with both Des and Jenny providing a voice, especially as Jenny is involved throughout the story and could provide the other perspective or a more accurate account of background and events. There is a moment when Des is recounting how Jenny’s father read to her as a child at Christmas, in an intonation that just wasn’t the same as her departed mother’s. How could he know? The ending of this book broke my heart and it was so well written that I need brain bleach to get rid of the images.
By the end of next summer, before the kids go back to school, I will kill my family.
When I read the aforementioned quote, I am astounded by the hypocrisy. And yet, he justifies his abuse of Jenny as disciplining, when it’s his insecurity and paranoia bringing out his true colours.
To this day I find it hard to reconcile the two disparate parts of my father, the solid strong man who could hurt my mother and the gentler more passive man who could only marvel at the love exhibited between any two animals, no matter how insignificant they were.
I still do not understand how a man that could possess such empathy for all creatures no matter how small could simultaneously reveal himself as being a coward capable of hurting his wife, my mother.
“By the end of next summer, before the kids go back to school, I will kill my family.”
