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If Only in My Dreams
'Tis the season to … be freshly divorced at twenty-six and moving back into your parents' house?
Because that’s my reality this Christmas. As if it isn’t bad enough that my entire hometown is buzzing with the news of my failed marriage, who is the first person I bump into at the grocery store? The guy who treated me like his personal booty call in high school just happens to be looking at spices while I’m trying to pick up cinnamon for my mother.
And get this; Porter Kelly, the broody, mysterious recluse who exposed his own secrets to the world by writing a book about his family years ago, is the one who acts like I wronged him. His rude remarks on aisle nine are the final straw as my exhausted unhappiness breaks, and I’m officially calling off the most wonderful time of the year.
Too bad it’s literally impossible for the woman whose parents own a railroad that specializes in Christmas train rides to ignore the holiday season. Because I’m back under their roof, it’s mandatory to work in the middle of the red and green merriment, Santa himself, and wait for it …
Porter serenading us with the greatest festive hits of all time. That’s right, apparently my teenage heartthrob turned nemesis not only works for my parents, but can strum a guitar like he’s trying to get every soccer mom on board pregnant. As we’re forced to spend more time together than ever, his past baggage and my marital rejection make their way to the surface, bonding us in ways neither of us knew possible.
I thought I was heartbroken about my ex-husband wanting to end our marriage, but that pain is nothing compared to what Porter could inflict. He seems like a changed man, one on the precipice of a new chapter, which is exactly where I find myself. Would it be crazy to think we could turn the page together?
Returning home was the only option I had. But as I come dangerously close to counting on the first man who broke my heart, I wonder if all of my future dreams are too good to be true.
Because that’s my reality this Christmas. As if it isn’t bad enough that my entire hometown is buzzing with the news of my failed marriage, who is the first person I bump into at the grocery store? The guy who treated me like his personal booty call in high school just happens to be looking at spices while I’m trying to pick up cinnamon for my mother.
And get this; Porter Kelly, the broody, mysterious recluse who exposed his own secrets to the world by writing a book about his family years ago, is the one who acts like I wronged him. His rude remarks on aisle nine are the final straw as my exhausted unhappiness breaks, and I’m officially calling off the most wonderful time of the year.
Too bad it’s literally impossible for the woman whose parents own a railroad that specializes in Christmas train rides to ignore the holiday season. Because I’m back under their roof, it’s mandatory to work in the middle of the red and green merriment, Santa himself, and wait for it …
Porter serenading us with the greatest festive hits of all time. That’s right, apparently my teenage heartthrob turned nemesis not only works for my parents, but can strum a guitar like he’s trying to get every soccer mom on board pregnant. As we’re forced to spend more time together than ever, his past baggage and my marital rejection make their way to the surface, bonding us in ways neither of us knew possible.
I thought I was heartbroken about my ex-husband wanting to end our marriage, but that pain is nothing compared to what Porter could inflict. He seems like a changed man, one on the precipice of a new chapter, which is exactly where I find myself. Would it be crazy to think we could turn the page together?
Returning home was the only option I had. But as I come dangerously close to counting on the first man who broke my heart, I wonder if all of my future dreams are too good to be true.
264 pages, Paperback
First published November 30, 2021
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Carrie Aarons
63 books2,993 followersAuthor of romance novels such as Fleeting and Love at First Fight, Carrie Aarons writes books that are just as swoon-worthy as they are sarcastic. Her stories are fueled by vanilla lattes, meloncholy music, and copious amounts of candles.
When she isn't writing, Carrie is busy binging reality TV, having a love/hate relationship with cardio, and trying not to burn dinner. She lives in farm country with her husband, two children and ninety-pound rescue pup.
When she isn't writing, Carrie is busy binging reality TV, having a love/hate relationship with cardio, and trying not to burn dinner. She lives in farm country with her husband, two children and ninety-pound rescue pup.
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December 3, 2021
For me, this was way more than just a Christmas story. This was an emotional journey that just happened to be set in December. There was so much depth to this story, that to call it a sweet holiday story does it a disservice.
Madison is back home after her husband of two years has divorced her for no discernible reason. While she is helping out in the family business and licking her wounds, Porter, her high school flame, is there to pour salt into them. Wow! There is so much animosity between them, you can just feel the passion in their words. You have to care strongly about someone to spar like this. When they stop fighting, that emotion certainly translates in the bedroom.
I really enjoyed the banter between Madison and Porter. I really liked how only he was allowed to be mean to her, and would defend her in every way when someone else was, or even she got down on herself.
It was so wonderful how Porter helped Madison see her own strengths and potential that, like him, she’d been hiding. And I loved how supportive Madison was of Porter’s dreams too.
But man, there was a lot of unpack in this book and I really enjoyed the growth of the characters and their relationship. Oh, and the Christmas theme was fun too.
The epilogue was swoon city!
I received an advance copy of this book from Greys Promotion and these are my honest opinions.
Madison is back home after her husband of two years has divorced her for no discernible reason. While she is helping out in the family business and licking her wounds, Porter, her high school flame, is there to pour salt into them. Wow! There is so much animosity between them, you can just feel the passion in their words. You have to care strongly about someone to spar like this. When they stop fighting, that emotion certainly translates in the bedroom.
I really enjoyed the banter between Madison and Porter. I really liked how only he was allowed to be mean to her, and would defend her in every way when someone else was, or even she got down on herself.
It was so wonderful how Porter helped Madison see her own strengths and potential that, like him, she’d been hiding. And I loved how supportive Madison was of Porter’s dreams too.
But man, there was a lot of unpack in this book and I really enjoyed the growth of the characters and their relationship. Oh, and the Christmas theme was fun too.
The epilogue was swoon city!
I received an advance copy of this book from Greys Promotion and these are my honest opinions.
December 5, 2021
My holiday romance books are just getting better and better 😍.
I didn't know that I will freaking like this book soo much.
Madison and Porter's story is a second chance romance. I didn't liked his behaviour towards Madison in the beginning of the book, but I enjoyed that she had a back bone and return the insults back, straight to its face 😂. After getting deeper in the book I've seen why he was like that. When he admitted to itself that he is actually still in love with her, Porter behaviour changed at 360 degrees.
I also understand her fears and doubts about everything when it came to Porter and I am glad she was able to overcome them and let herself be happy and in loved.
It was soo nice watching them how they came back to love each other and how they supported one another through the story. They were finally happy and very very in love (you can see that from the sexy steamy scenes within the book).
If you asked me couple of years ago If I like reading a book with both of the MC POV, I would say that I hated it. But not anymore, because I am already used to it by now 😅.
Through both Porter and Madison POV i managed to see their struggles, their love and their happiness.
I received an ARC for my honest opinion by Valentine PR.
I didn't know that I will freaking like this book soo much.
Madison and Porter's story is a second chance romance. I didn't liked his behaviour towards Madison in the beginning of the book, but I enjoyed that she had a back bone and return the insults back, straight to its face 😂. After getting deeper in the book I've seen why he was like that. When he admitted to itself that he is actually still in love with her, Porter behaviour changed at 360 degrees.
I also understand her fears and doubts about everything when it came to Porter and I am glad she was able to overcome them and let herself be happy and in loved.
It was soo nice watching them how they came back to love each other and how they supported one another through the story. They were finally happy and very very in love (you can see that from the sexy steamy scenes within the book).
If you asked me couple of years ago If I like reading a book with both of the MC POV, I would say that I hated it. But not anymore, because I am already used to it by now 😅.
Through both Porter and Madison POV i managed to see their struggles, their love and their happiness.
I received an ARC for my honest opinion by Valentine PR.
December 6, 2021
A fantastic enemies to lovers, perfect for the holidays.
At 26, Madison is back home living with her parents after her marriage of 2 years ended in divorce. The moment she arrives back home, she runs into Porter, the guy who trampled over her heart in high school. He's arrogant, smug and hot as heck and Madison can't stop thinking about him.
My favorite trope is enemies to lovers so I knew I was in for a treat. Told from alternating perspectives, I loved hearing the voices of Madison and Porter. The first half of the book has zero spice, the second half has a few scenes but it doesn't overshadow the story. I'd give it 🌶️ 🌶️ out of 5 peppers on the spice-o-meter.
It's a perfect blend of spice and swoon worthy romance that makes my heart skip a beat. Perfect for fans of enemies to lovers and second chance romances
At 26, Madison is back home living with her parents after her marriage of 2 years ended in divorce. The moment she arrives back home, she runs into Porter, the guy who trampled over her heart in high school. He's arrogant, smug and hot as heck and Madison can't stop thinking about him.
My favorite trope is enemies to lovers so I knew I was in for a treat. Told from alternating perspectives, I loved hearing the voices of Madison and Porter. The first half of the book has zero spice, the second half has a few scenes but it doesn't overshadow the story. I'd give it 🌶️ 🌶️ out of 5 peppers on the spice-o-meter.
It's a perfect blend of spice and swoon worthy romance that makes my heart skip a beat. Perfect for fans of enemies to lovers and second chance romances
November 29, 2021
If Only in My Dreams is a sweet and ultimately swoony Christmas romance chock full of banter, love-hate tension, small town charm, and feel good second chances.
Our story begins with a broken hearted Madison, unexpectedly divorced by her husband, she returns to her hometown to try to move on with her life and heal. A move that puts her back in the path of Porter- the broody ex hook-up she had from high school, and they clearly have some unresolved feelings. And suddenly Madison’s heart is in for another stomping, and this one feels even more painful because Porter is the first man who hurt her heart.
This definitely has strong enemies to lovers animosity- in fact, Porter is a big ole jerk at first, even though we can see his feelings and care for Madison seeping through the cracks. There is some great banter and chemistry between them, though the animosity felt a bit unfestive to me in a light hearted Christmas story. But, once these two start to get on the same page, and we get to a more swoony place, I really loved them. Their story felt substantial and sincere, and we have plenty of Christmas spirit (especially thanks to Madison’s family business) to keep it festive and bright. These two working through their baggage and finding some healing felt moving and sweet in places- what a lovely depiction of second chances, even if we have a bit of drama along the way and some hurtful angst. But the angst is worth the journey- as they fall together and find the life they’ve been dreaming off.
This is quick and heartfelt read with loads of feels, a bit of spice, and just enough Christmas cheer.
Our story begins with a broken hearted Madison, unexpectedly divorced by her husband, she returns to her hometown to try to move on with her life and heal. A move that puts her back in the path of Porter- the broody ex hook-up she had from high school, and they clearly have some unresolved feelings. And suddenly Madison’s heart is in for another stomping, and this one feels even more painful because Porter is the first man who hurt her heart.
This definitely has strong enemies to lovers animosity- in fact, Porter is a big ole jerk at first, even though we can see his feelings and care for Madison seeping through the cracks. There is some great banter and chemistry between them, though the animosity felt a bit unfestive to me in a light hearted Christmas story. But, once these two start to get on the same page, and we get to a more swoony place, I really loved them. Their story felt substantial and sincere, and we have plenty of Christmas spirit (especially thanks to Madison’s family business) to keep it festive and bright. These two working through their baggage and finding some healing felt moving and sweet in places- what a lovely depiction of second chances, even if we have a bit of drama along the way and some hurtful angst. But the angst is worth the journey- as they fall together and find the life they’ve been dreaming off.
This is quick and heartfelt read with loads of feels, a bit of spice, and just enough Christmas cheer.
August 1, 2023
DNF 29% Trigger warning: emotional/verbal abuse
I started this because of all the rave reviews I’ve seen of it all over Instagram, tic Tok and good reads. I understand it is an enemies to lovers troupe. To me this was so much more cruel then enemies to lovers. With enemies it’s someone you don’t like (but maybe crush on in secret), or a rival you love to fight. This was a selfish, emotionally broken man who was a complete and utter ahole to a sweet, innocent, kind girl. I know we all love to love the bad boy but him…. I could not stand this man.
The biggest and probably only reason is because of how emotionally and verbally abusive he was to Madison. From the first sentence he said to her till I stopped reading the book he was the text book definition of emotionally abusive
“verbal aggression, intimidation, manipulation, and humiliation, which most often unfolds as a pattern of behavior over time that aims to diminish another person’s sense of identity, dignity and self worth”
How is this a man to emulate or even empathize with. I get that he’s emotionally “broken” and hurt but that is NOT a reason to treat others like this. If he took it out on her physically everyone would have been up in arms. Instead bc he takes it out on her verbally it’s ok? I want nothing to do with a character like this.
I started this because of all the rave reviews I’ve seen of it all over Instagram, tic Tok and good reads. I understand it is an enemies to lovers troupe. To me this was so much more cruel then enemies to lovers. With enemies it’s someone you don’t like (but maybe crush on in secret), or a rival you love to fight. This was a selfish, emotionally broken man who was a complete and utter ahole to a sweet, innocent, kind girl. I know we all love to love the bad boy but him…. I could not stand this man.
The biggest and probably only reason is because of how emotionally and verbally abusive he was to Madison. From the first sentence he said to her till I stopped reading the book he was the text book definition of emotionally abusive
“verbal aggression, intimidation, manipulation, and humiliation, which most often unfolds as a pattern of behavior over time that aims to diminish another person’s sense of identity, dignity and self worth”
How is this a man to emulate or even empathize with. I get that he’s emotionally “broken” and hurt but that is NOT a reason to treat others like this. If he took it out on her physically everyone would have been up in arms. Instead bc he takes it out on her verbally it’s ok? I want nothing to do with a character like this.
December 5, 2021
Madison never thought she'd be in her mid-twenties, divorced & back living with her parents in her hometown, but here she was, just before Christmas, not sure how to pickup the pieces of her life. Madison doesn't expect to run into Porter, the guy who broke her heart in high school. He's just as much as jerk as ever. And (un)lucky for Madison, he's seasonally working for her parents, so she & Porter will be working together now, too.
Porter had a rough childhood and put his tragic story out there for the world to read as an adult, capitalizing on his sob story with a novel. And now that he's gained some notoriety, people are knocking on his door to make him a famous musician, too. But Porter is thrown for a loop when Madison comes back into town and low & behold, she's newly single and as gorgeous as ever.
It's not long before Porter realizes the mistake he made as a teen, unintentionally hurting Madison. And now that she's back, he wants to win her heart all over again. But the question is: will she be willing to open herself up to getting hurt yet again?
If Only In My Dreams by Carrie Aarons is an angsty, second-chance holiday romance. I enjoyed Porter & Madison's romance a lot and while the cover is rather festive, I don't think it was heavy on the Christmas vibes. Even without flashbacks to the past, Carrie established Porter & Madison's past well, which is what made their past relationship feel authentic and believable. Their chemistry was also great so overall I'd really recommend this one! 4/5 stars.
Porter had a rough childhood and put his tragic story out there for the world to read as an adult, capitalizing on his sob story with a novel. And now that he's gained some notoriety, people are knocking on his door to make him a famous musician, too. But Porter is thrown for a loop when Madison comes back into town and low & behold, she's newly single and as gorgeous as ever.
It's not long before Porter realizes the mistake he made as a teen, unintentionally hurting Madison. And now that she's back, he wants to win her heart all over again. But the question is: will she be willing to open herself up to getting hurt yet again?
If Only In My Dreams by Carrie Aarons is an angsty, second-chance holiday romance. I enjoyed Porter & Madison's romance a lot and while the cover is rather festive, I don't think it was heavy on the Christmas vibes. Even without flashbacks to the past, Carrie established Porter & Madison's past well, which is what made their past relationship feel authentic and believable. Their chemistry was also great so overall I'd really recommend this one! 4/5 stars.
November 30, 2021
If you follow my reviews you know I'm a sucker for second chance. This story was not an instant hit for me. Porter rubbed me the wrong way at the beginning. He was a giant A-hole and I wished that Madison would get her wits together and move on from him.
But as the story unfolds you get to understand just how damaged he was and what his actions caused to happen all those years ago. He did come through but it was a close call for a minute there.
This was not an easy read. It made me feel things I was not ready to feel and few struck home. But I'm glad I decided to read it because now I have a feeling that somethings might take time to heal but at the end if you can trust your heart, it will leave you with nothing but happiness in life.
*** Review copy requested and reviewed on behalf of the OMGReads Blog ***
But as the story unfolds you get to understand just how damaged he was and what his actions caused to happen all those years ago. He did come through but it was a close call for a minute there.
This was not an easy read. It made me feel things I was not ready to feel and few struck home. But I'm glad I decided to read it because now I have a feeling that somethings might take time to heal but at the end if you can trust your heart, it will leave you with nothing but happiness in life.
*** Review copy requested and reviewed on behalf of the OMGReads Blog ***
February 4, 2022
3.5 stars!
Carrie Aarons writes romance with the best of them, and then you throw in a winter wonderland setting and you have the perfect Christmas romance book. I read this back in December but have only just got round to writing a review, but other than the setting of her parents Christmas themed park and the timing of the book, I think the story of Madison and Porter could be read any time of year. It’s a story of mending a broken heart, and how second chances are sometimes in places you least expect them.
When Madison moves back to her hometown and in with her parents, she is recovering from a broken heart after her unexpected divorce from her college sweetheart. Returning home with her tail between her legs to lick her wounds, the last thing she expects is to be kicked when she’s down, when she runs into her first love, Porter, in the grocery store. This is the boy who kept her a secret and completely disregarded her feelings throughout high school, before throwing her away without a care. He makes a few sarcastic comments, and she vows to avoid him, until she learns he works for her parents, and is around a lot. They both think the other is a bad person, Madison for how he played with her feelings and Porter for thinking she had become a snob since marrying William. But when Porter finds out the marriage is over, he realises that maybe everything he assumed about Madison is slightly misplaced, and vice versa. Back in the same town, working in the same place, and the romance of Christmas all around them, will they be able to work through their separate and joint past trauma and have a happily ever after?
From Madison and Porter’s first meeting, it was clear they were right person wrong time. They both knew each other better than anyone else in high school but were too immature and young to realise what they had, and Porter had a lot of stuff to sort out in himself before he could realise what he had lost. He led a very private life in high school, so when everything came out after, a lot made sense to Madison, but in some ways, it made it worse because she realised how little he did tell her. But the more time they spent together, the more they realised that they both had grown up, and whilst they knew each other very well in their teens, they were both different people and were broken in different ways. It was also clear that they were both still undeniably in love with one another, but both had a lot to work through before their timing added up, and they were meant to be. I loved watching them both grow, and become better versions of themselves, not just for each other, but for themselves too.
Carrie Aarons writes romance with the best of them, and then you throw in a winter wonderland setting and you have the perfect Christmas romance book. I read this back in December but have only just got round to writing a review, but other than the setting of her parents Christmas themed park and the timing of the book, I think the story of Madison and Porter could be read any time of year. It’s a story of mending a broken heart, and how second chances are sometimes in places you least expect them.
When Madison moves back to her hometown and in with her parents, she is recovering from a broken heart after her unexpected divorce from her college sweetheart. Returning home with her tail between her legs to lick her wounds, the last thing she expects is to be kicked when she’s down, when she runs into her first love, Porter, in the grocery store. This is the boy who kept her a secret and completely disregarded her feelings throughout high school, before throwing her away without a care. He makes a few sarcastic comments, and she vows to avoid him, until she learns he works for her parents, and is around a lot. They both think the other is a bad person, Madison for how he played with her feelings and Porter for thinking she had become a snob since marrying William. But when Porter finds out the marriage is over, he realises that maybe everything he assumed about Madison is slightly misplaced, and vice versa. Back in the same town, working in the same place, and the romance of Christmas all around them, will they be able to work through their separate and joint past trauma and have a happily ever after?
From Madison and Porter’s first meeting, it was clear they were right person wrong time. They both knew each other better than anyone else in high school but were too immature and young to realise what they had, and Porter had a lot of stuff to sort out in himself before he could realise what he had lost. He led a very private life in high school, so when everything came out after, a lot made sense to Madison, but in some ways, it made it worse because she realised how little he did tell her. But the more time they spent together, the more they realised that they both had grown up, and whilst they knew each other very well in their teens, they were both different people and were broken in different ways. It was also clear that they were both still undeniably in love with one another, but both had a lot to work through before their timing added up, and they were meant to be. I loved watching them both grow, and become better versions of themselves, not just for each other, but for themselves too.
November 15, 2021
If Only In My Dreams is a super sweet, holiday romance from Carrie Aarons.
The blurb gives you just enough to give an idea of what's in store for readers. But the writing is what will capture readers and keep them engaged in this story.
I absolutely loved the pacing of this story. Carrie delivered not only a believable story but a very relatable one in so many ways.
Madison is back home after going through divorce and runs into the last person she ever expected.
Porter is quite the brooding male hero we all love. He's got his own issues and unfortunately, Madison was always the recipient of his hot/cold persona throughout high school. And now that she's back, it seems as much has changed except he's everywhere because he's also one of the nicest people to others. Just not Madison.
This book was an absolute joy to read. I loved so much about this book. It's got a lot of spice, sweetness and heat mixed in with the holiday spirit. Another amazing book from Carrie Aarons.
The blurb gives you just enough to give an idea of what's in store for readers. But the writing is what will capture readers and keep them engaged in this story.
I absolutely loved the pacing of this story. Carrie delivered not only a believable story but a very relatable one in so many ways.
Madison is back home after going through divorce and runs into the last person she ever expected.
Porter is quite the brooding male hero we all love. He's got his own issues and unfortunately, Madison was always the recipient of his hot/cold persona throughout high school. And now that she's back, it seems as much has changed except he's everywhere because he's also one of the nicest people to others. Just not Madison.
This book was an absolute joy to read. I loved so much about this book. It's got a lot of spice, sweetness and heat mixed in with the holiday spirit. Another amazing book from Carrie Aarons.
December 7, 2021
4.25 Wonderful STARS
This has all the feelings and festive fun of a holiday romance PLUS character depth and a really engaging story!
Madison and Porter have romantic history from high school, along with a lot of misunderstanding and hurt/confused feelings.
She’s back in their hometown feeling raw from her recent divorce.
The story has the fiery back and forth of enemies along with the pull of the undeniable chemistry between them.
It has the spark’s flying that made me feel the excitement for the romance to take off. That wonderful anticipation! Their chemistry is great.
The family relationships are both heartwarming and heart wrenching.
Both characters have some emotional healing and growth that happens. It’s believable and makes them so lovable. I was rooting for their happily ever after.
Wait! I need to mention Porter is a budding singer/songwriter… hot and swoony! He’s definitely the broody and sexy artist.
The steam and sex was hot! It’s not without some dirty talk and hot times.
It was a very full and satisfying romance. Like I said, I expected a cheery Christmas story and got that plus more.
I love the characters, the writing style and the journey the characters go on.
This has all the feelings and festive fun of a holiday romance PLUS character depth and a really engaging story!
Madison and Porter have romantic history from high school, along with a lot of misunderstanding and hurt/confused feelings.
She’s back in their hometown feeling raw from her recent divorce.
The story has the fiery back and forth of enemies along with the pull of the undeniable chemistry between them.
It has the spark’s flying that made me feel the excitement for the romance to take off. That wonderful anticipation! Their chemistry is great.
The family relationships are both heartwarming and heart wrenching.
Both characters have some emotional healing and growth that happens. It’s believable and makes them so lovable. I was rooting for their happily ever after.
Wait! I need to mention Porter is a budding singer/songwriter… hot and swoony! He’s definitely the broody and sexy artist.
The steam and sex was hot! It’s not without some dirty talk and hot times.
It was a very full and satisfying romance. Like I said, I expected a cheery Christmas story and got that plus more.
I love the characters, the writing style and the journey the characters go on.
to-revisit-later
November 17, 2024DNF AT 50%. Porter was awful yall. I like bully romance as much as the next person and I really wanted an enemies to lovers holiday read but what I got felt like bully. It was not what I was expecting. This poor girl has had enough heartache and this guy keeps stabbing her in her heart repeatedly and then we see how much he loves her in his pov. I literally cannot with this guy.
January 31, 2022
I loved this story. First time reading Carries books. I loved the concept of the train. They dated in high school . actually they slept together in high school. Porter was a player. Madison was in love with him. Then he was gone.Now she's back after a divorce. Porter says he's sorry about high school and he's changed.
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December 3, 2023
This was such a fun enemies to lovers, second chance romance. Porter and Maddison has such great chemistry and angst. I really loved the Polar express esk vibes!! Who wouldn't want their own personal train ride during the holidays. Super cute and a fun time.
December 8, 2021
I’m so happy this isn’t as light and Christmassy as I assumed. I mean I like a good holiday story but I’m against cheesy and this thankfully wasn’t. Porter and Madison were the perfect combo and made this story great
December 4, 2021
Porter and Madison were more like fling to enemies to lovers. They had a thing in high school but Porter broke Madison’s heart. They both moved on or tried to and fast forward couple years later and she moved back home. When they first see each other again they weren’t the nicest to each other; it was brutal the things they would say to each other at times. But it was inevitable they falling for each other again. Side note: everyone needs a bff like Gigi. Porter and Madison had their ups and very downs but they came full circle and realized that they are miserable without each other. Great story!!
December 3, 2021
Amazon
Madison's newly divorced and has come home to her small hometown, where everyone's in everyone else's business and the gossip is running rampant about her new marital status. Ugh! Then in the middle of the store who does she run into but the guy who broke her heart in high school, treating her like his own personal toy, then discarding her soon after. Could life get any worse this holiday season?!
Porter knows he did Madison wrong, and he can't seem to stop being angry at her, even knowing she was (is) the innocent party. Just as he can't seem to stop wanting her, loving her. Will she give him a second chance to prove he's not the villain she thinks he is?
If Only in My Dreams is a fun (mostly) holiday romance with snarky enemies like tension, and two lovable characters surrounded by the charm (sometimes) of a small town during Christmas. In the beginning I can't say I liked Porter, but I loved how much he and Madison sniped at each other. Their banter was masking obviously still strong feelings, and I knew when they gave in and got together it would be a spicy holiday treat, and it was. If you're in the mood for a good holiday romance, this is the one you've got to read.
ARC provided by Grey's Promotions for an honest review.
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December 3, 2021
RATING: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
STEAM: 🔥🔥🔥
What is it with me and holiday books that make me cry? I came for cheery, cheesy enemies-to-lovers holiday romance, and I get an emotional roller coaster about devastating secrets and life-changing decisions.
Madison is back in her hometown, licking her wounds after a surprise divorce from her husband. Dealing with this and small-town gossip, the last she needed is to deal with the other person who made lasting dents in her heart while they were in high school.
Porter just want to be left alone. Sure, he wrote a book that exposed who his father is, and he likes to post videos of him singing original songs on YouTube, but he just want to live in his cabin in peace with his dog Jenny. Is that too much to ask?
Apparently so, since these two keep crossing paths and slowly unraveling each other's secrets, and how that unfolds is fantastic. Porter is broody and can be cutting to Madison at the beginning, but his character's development arc throughout the book is fantastic to read. Madison is his perfect match with her own arc to overcome, and what I love about these two arcs is that while they as characters support each other through that journey, they independently make their own strides.
I don't know what it is with broody recluses, but they apparently make for the hottest bedmates. Those moments in this book were very steamy as their banter carries on between the sheets.
This book is well paced and just has fantastic storytelling. If you are trying to get into the holiday spirit (like me) but need extra feels with your romance, this is a great pick.
** I am voluntarily reviewing an advance copy of this book. **
STEAM: 🔥🔥🔥
What is it with me and holiday books that make me cry? I came for cheery, cheesy enemies-to-lovers holiday romance, and I get an emotional roller coaster about devastating secrets and life-changing decisions.
Madison is back in her hometown, licking her wounds after a surprise divorce from her husband. Dealing with this and small-town gossip, the last she needed is to deal with the other person who made lasting dents in her heart while they were in high school.
Porter just want to be left alone. Sure, he wrote a book that exposed who his father is, and he likes to post videos of him singing original songs on YouTube, but he just want to live in his cabin in peace with his dog Jenny. Is that too much to ask?
Apparently so, since these two keep crossing paths and slowly unraveling each other's secrets, and how that unfolds is fantastic. Porter is broody and can be cutting to Madison at the beginning, but his character's development arc throughout the book is fantastic to read. Madison is his perfect match with her own arc to overcome, and what I love about these two arcs is that while they as characters support each other through that journey, they independently make their own strides.
I don't know what it is with broody recluses, but they apparently make for the hottest bedmates. Those moments in this book were very steamy as their banter carries on between the sheets.
This book is well paced and just has fantastic storytelling. If you are trying to get into the holiday spirit (like me) but need extra feels with your romance, this is a great pick.
** I am voluntarily reviewing an advance copy of this book. **
December 3, 2021
Gorgeous, perfect read!
"Absolutely not will I acknowledge the sparks that zip up my arm, or the way his eyes dilate when our skin touches."
Madison Goldwin is back in town, living at her parents' house, with her tail between her legs. She escaped heartbreak when she went off to college and ended up marrying into wealth and living a few states away. She's now divorced and home to lick her wounds and begin again. The last person she expects to bump into is Porter Kelly - the first guy to ever break her heart. And, he's behaving as if she broke his heart and not the other way around. Worse, the chemistry that was always between them seems to be as alive as ever.
"This woman will be my undoing. She always got me the most, always saw me when I didn't even really want her to."
Porter can't help the hostility that rolls off him whenever Madison is near. After all these years, he still wants her but he resents the desire and deeper feelings he has for her. Working together for her parents' business has them in close proximity and finding new ground, yet he's holding on to so much baggage that it seems almost impossible that they will ever have a second chance.
”When I’m around you it’s like I both want to recreate the toxicity we had, but also blossom into this better version of myself.”
I just loved this story so much! There was so much spark between Madison and Porter. The connection and history between them was strong, alluring and undeniable. Porter was so resistant to his attraction for Madison – I felt his vulnerability, his doubts and his fear of never being able to measure up into a man worthy of Madison. He let his past hold him back for so long – I felt so sad for him when he had so much to give to others and talents worthy of wider recognition. Madison was a strong character. She might have been back in town and embarrassed about her new status, but once she let go of what other people might think of her, she was a very capable woman with a big heart. This story was a fabulous, festive read that was fiery, sexy and heartwarming, as well as a little bit angsty.
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"Absolutely not will I acknowledge the sparks that zip up my arm, or the way his eyes dilate when our skin touches."
Madison Goldwin is back in town, living at her parents' house, with her tail between her legs. She escaped heartbreak when she went off to college and ended up marrying into wealth and living a few states away. She's now divorced and home to lick her wounds and begin again. The last person she expects to bump into is Porter Kelly - the first guy to ever break her heart. And, he's behaving as if she broke his heart and not the other way around. Worse, the chemistry that was always between them seems to be as alive as ever.
"This woman will be my undoing. She always got me the most, always saw me when I didn't even really want her to."
Porter can't help the hostility that rolls off him whenever Madison is near. After all these years, he still wants her but he resents the desire and deeper feelings he has for her. Working together for her parents' business has them in close proximity and finding new ground, yet he's holding on to so much baggage that it seems almost impossible that they will ever have a second chance.
”When I’m around you it’s like I both want to recreate the toxicity we had, but also blossom into this better version of myself.”
I just loved this story so much! There was so much spark between Madison and Porter. The connection and history between them was strong, alluring and undeniable. Porter was so resistant to his attraction for Madison – I felt his vulnerability, his doubts and his fear of never being able to measure up into a man worthy of Madison. He let his past hold him back for so long – I felt so sad for him when he had so much to give to others and talents worthy of wider recognition. Madison was a strong character. She might have been back in town and embarrassed about her new status, but once she let go of what other people might think of her, she was a very capable woman with a big heart. This story was a fabulous, festive read that was fiery, sexy and heartwarming, as well as a little bit angsty.
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December 7, 2021
5 star Christmas read!
'Tis the season now that Turkey Day is done and I'm so excited to be getting into the Christmas season. I will say this... I was expecting a light and fluffy Christmas read, but this was so much more (and just happened to take place during Christmas!)
Madison heads back home to her New York town where she comes from a very wealthy family to lick her wounds after a very public divorce from her rich college sweetheart. After having her heart stomped on in high school and now this, she's feeling like something is wrong with her and she's not able to be loved. She is a romantic at heart and thought she would marry once and live happily ever after.
When she gets home she finds that the boy (Porter Kelly) who stomped on her heart in high school is all man--still living in the same town, still as broken and broody as before, but with clear growth including a dog and helping people for the sake of helping them. He works for his parents (because he wants to, not that he needs to), he shovels driveways... and so much more. While he's a jerk to her at first, almost offputtingly, it becomes clear he is mean because he likes her, a la kindergarten. He doesn't want to have the feelings that he does, because he thinks she deserves better than him, but she's always been the one who got away.
We get to watch Madison find herself again, and Porter help bring out the best in her. He's supportive, protective and pushes her to be great. I loved watching the two of them go from enemies to lovers, and blossom both separately and together.
Overall, I recommend this book. It had enough romance, Christmas cheer and plot to make anyone happy this time of year. As always, YMMV.
'Tis the season now that Turkey Day is done and I'm so excited to be getting into the Christmas season. I will say this... I was expecting a light and fluffy Christmas read, but this was so much more (and just happened to take place during Christmas!)
Madison heads back home to her New York town where she comes from a very wealthy family to lick her wounds after a very public divorce from her rich college sweetheart. After having her heart stomped on in high school and now this, she's feeling like something is wrong with her and she's not able to be loved. She is a romantic at heart and thought she would marry once and live happily ever after.
When she gets home she finds that the boy (Porter Kelly) who stomped on her heart in high school is all man--still living in the same town, still as broken and broody as before, but with clear growth including a dog and helping people for the sake of helping them. He works for his parents (because he wants to, not that he needs to), he shovels driveways... and so much more. While he's a jerk to her at first, almost offputtingly, it becomes clear he is mean because he likes her, a la kindergarten. He doesn't want to have the feelings that he does, because he thinks she deserves better than him, but she's always been the one who got away.
We get to watch Madison find herself again, and Porter help bring out the best in her. He's supportive, protective and pushes her to be great. I loved watching the two of them go from enemies to lovers, and blossom both separately and together.
Overall, I recommend this book. It had enough romance, Christmas cheer and plot to make anyone happy this time of year. As always, YMMV.
November 2, 2021
This is an enemies to lovers and a second chance romance, then add in a sexy musician and a small town, top it off with it taking place around Christmas, and voila...you’ve got the most perfect holiday romance!!
Still reeling from her divorce, Madison moves back home and has to endure the stares and whispers of the people in her hometown. But this wasn’t her first heartbreak because that honour went to Porter many years ago. So when she runs into him and it appears nothing has changed, he’s as rude as he was when he ended what they had, it just adds insult to injury.
There’s so much hate between them, but so much lust, plus a whole lot of push and pull. Their fights are fuelled by hateful words, ripping open old wounds over and over. My heart hurt for both of them!
An apology, a clean slate, and a second chance sounds like a dream come true, but when two people are dealing with the baggage that Madison and Porter are, it’s not that easy. Moving back home may have felt like defeat for Madison, but it ended up being the biggest win of all!
Still reeling from her divorce, Madison moves back home and has to endure the stares and whispers of the people in her hometown. But this wasn’t her first heartbreak because that honour went to Porter many years ago. So when she runs into him and it appears nothing has changed, he’s as rude as he was when he ended what they had, it just adds insult to injury.
There’s so much hate between them, but so much lust, plus a whole lot of push and pull. Their fights are fuelled by hateful words, ripping open old wounds over and over. My heart hurt for both of them!
An apology, a clean slate, and a second chance sounds like a dream come true, but when two people are dealing with the baggage that Madison and Porter are, it’s not that easy. Moving back home may have felt like defeat for Madison, but it ended up being the biggest win of all!
December 3, 2021
**3.5 stars**
If Only in My Dreams is a second chance, holiday romance set in a small town. The holiday parts of this were wonderful and truly get you in the mood for the holidays. I loved the idea the parents had in here for the Christmas train. It was so fun to read.
My problem was that I really struggled with the main characters. Porter had a chip on his shoulder from the beginning and I can’t say I ever warmed to him. He brought so much drama to the story and not necessarily in a good way. Madison was only slightly better. She is recently divorced but she’d lost her backbone during that marriage and was trying to get it back. I can say she definitely improved by the end of the book and you couldn’t help but root for her finally taking back her life. I liked the secondary characters a lot. They brought a lot to the story, especially Madison’s mom and best friend. I’m definitely in the minority but I didn’t love this one as much as I’d hoped.
*I voluntarily read and reviewed an advanced copy of this book. All thoughts and opinions are my own.
If Only in My Dreams is a second chance, holiday romance set in a small town. The holiday parts of this were wonderful and truly get you in the mood for the holidays. I loved the idea the parents had in here for the Christmas train. It was so fun to read.
My problem was that I really struggled with the main characters. Porter had a chip on his shoulder from the beginning and I can’t say I ever warmed to him. He brought so much drama to the story and not necessarily in a good way. Madison was only slightly better. She is recently divorced but she’d lost her backbone during that marriage and was trying to get it back. I can say she definitely improved by the end of the book and you couldn’t help but root for her finally taking back her life. I liked the secondary characters a lot. They brought a lot to the story, especially Madison’s mom and best friend. I’m definitely in the minority but I didn’t love this one as much as I’d hoped.
*I voluntarily read and reviewed an advanced copy of this book. All thoughts and opinions are my own.
December 4, 2021
I was really looking forward to this one, because who doesn't love a story set in December, but it turned out to be so much more than just your Christmassy romance book. It was an emotional journey and is now one of my favourite Carrie Aarons' books.
The female protagonist, Madison, is back home after her marriage of two years ended for no apparent reason. She starts helping out in the family business, trying to come to terms with things, until Porter, a broody ex-hook up, shows up. And boy, oh boy, there is tension in the air. At first Porter seems like an absolute jerk, but later reveals his true feelings bit by bit. There is some great banter and chemistry between them. It was great to see how Porter helped Madison see her own strengths and potential, and on the other hand, how supportive Madison was of Porter’s dreams. What put me off a bit in the beginning was Porter's behaviour towards Madison; which made me enjoy even more when she put on this bold attitude and stood up for herself. The individual character growth in this book, as well as how their relationship evolved, was so enjoyable to read. The Christmassy twist gave it a little extra on top.
"If Only in My Dreams" is a sweet, swoony romance with all the banter and spice, small town charm, and Christmas cheer you could want.
[I received an ARC of this book from Greys Promotion but this is my honest opinion.]
The female protagonist, Madison, is back home after her marriage of two years ended for no apparent reason. She starts helping out in the family business, trying to come to terms with things, until Porter, a broody ex-hook up, shows up. And boy, oh boy, there is tension in the air. At first Porter seems like an absolute jerk, but later reveals his true feelings bit by bit. There is some great banter and chemistry between them. It was great to see how Porter helped Madison see her own strengths and potential, and on the other hand, how supportive Madison was of Porter’s dreams. What put me off a bit in the beginning was Porter's behaviour towards Madison; which made me enjoy even more when she put on this bold attitude and stood up for herself. The individual character growth in this book, as well as how their relationship evolved, was so enjoyable to read. The Christmassy twist gave it a little extra on top.
"If Only in My Dreams" is a sweet, swoony romance with all the banter and spice, small town charm, and Christmas cheer you could want.
[I received an ARC of this book from Greys Promotion but this is my honest opinion.]
December 5, 2021
If Only in My Dreams is a holiday romance by Carrie Aarons.
This story is about Madison. She just moved back home after she got divorced. She is heartbroken because the divorce came out of nowhere but at the same time she is glad because it seems that they didn’t really love each other. In her hometown she runs into her highschool crush Porter who made her feel things nobody else ever did. And they are all coming rushing back to her…
I haven’t read a book by Carrie Aarons in a while and I wonder why?! Her writing is so beautiful and it keeps you wanting to read this book in one sitting. This story is an enemies to lovers romance which plays out in a small town. In the beginning I wasn’t a huge fan of Porter but I started to fall in love with that guy. How wonderful he is with Madison's parents and always helps them out and kinda considers them as a family. And he can sing like no other and put his listeners under a spell. He really made me swoon. I feel so sorry for Madison after her sudden divorce and I still would have that her ex would have given her an explanation. But I guess that’s life.
The sparks between Madison and Porter flew from the very first meeting after years. They don’t want to act on it. Especially Madison since he crushed her heart back then but Porter wants to show her that he changed and what his father did doesn’t affect him anymore and opens up to her.
This was such a wonderful read and definitely worth reading!
This story is about Madison. She just moved back home after she got divorced. She is heartbroken because the divorce came out of nowhere but at the same time she is glad because it seems that they didn’t really love each other. In her hometown she runs into her highschool crush Porter who made her feel things nobody else ever did. And they are all coming rushing back to her…
I haven’t read a book by Carrie Aarons in a while and I wonder why?! Her writing is so beautiful and it keeps you wanting to read this book in one sitting. This story is an enemies to lovers romance which plays out in a small town. In the beginning I wasn’t a huge fan of Porter but I started to fall in love with that guy. How wonderful he is with Madison's parents and always helps them out and kinda considers them as a family. And he can sing like no other and put his listeners under a spell. He really made me swoon. I feel so sorry for Madison after her sudden divorce and I still would have that her ex would have given her an explanation. But I guess that’s life.
The sparks between Madison and Porter flew from the very first meeting after years. They don’t want to act on it. Especially Madison since he crushed her heart back then but Porter wants to show her that he changed and what his father did doesn’t affect him anymore and opens up to her.
This was such a wonderful read and definitely worth reading!
November 7, 2021
If Only in My Dreams is a fantastic second chance holiday romance. You will love Porter and Madison so much. There is such tension that will keep you coming back for more. Madison is wonderful. I love how she stands up for herself as she is licking her wounds from her failed marriage. Porter will make you swoon with his ways. You are going to love the bickering banter between Madison and Porter. The chemistry just sizzles the more Porter and Madison are thrown together for all the holiday fun and traditions that Madison's family has. This is a sweet, hot read that will put a smile on your face as Porter and Madison stop living in the past and start moving on to a healing future. This is a must read holiday book that you will not be able to put down.
November 27, 2021
4.5 Stars ⭐️
What a way to get to know a new to me author! If Only In My Dreams is an emotionally jam packed, second chance, holiday romance read.
From page one, I was intrigued by Madison and Porter. There is so much going on in their lives that I was drawn into their story and could not put this book down. From their on again, off again, hookups in high school to their love to hate you, hate to love you reunion years later - their story was not always easy or pretty but it was touching and beautiful in it’s own special way. I was rooting for them from the very beginning and was over the moon with their happily ever after.
I’m giving If Only In My Dreams the judy.ann.loves.books stamp of approval, TBR and Enjoy!
What a way to get to know a new to me author! If Only In My Dreams is an emotionally jam packed, second chance, holiday romance read.
From page one, I was intrigued by Madison and Porter. There is so much going on in their lives that I was drawn into their story and could not put this book down. From their on again, off again, hookups in high school to their love to hate you, hate to love you reunion years later - their story was not always easy or pretty but it was touching and beautiful in it’s own special way. I was rooting for them from the very beginning and was over the moon with their happily ever after.
I’m giving If Only In My Dreams the judy.ann.loves.books stamp of approval, TBR and Enjoy!
November 30, 2021
A Christmas Miracle indeed...I swooned hard for Porter Kelly. A recluse, grumpy, famed writer and small time singer. Ok, Madison Goldwin just signing the divorce papers comes home in Ruteland NY to lick her wounds and figure out where to go from there. Anyways, she bumps into Porter Kelly the man who was her high school secret hook up. But, she had feelings for him and he never reciprocated his feelings for her. After 6 years from high school, Porter dealth with his problems from his youth with deep down resentment from his cruel father. I adored this Christmas wonderland book and I loved reading about Porter and his grumpiness and how he came to terms with his emotions and trying to fix the errors he made. Loved this..
Oh wait. wait.. this sentence should be in the beginning but screw it. the dedication of this book is spot on! To anyone wanting someone to sing "All I Want for Christmas" dare i say Michael Buble version is my jam and "Last Christmas" this book is for you.. I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas or special holiday whatever you celebrate.
Oh wait. wait.. this sentence should be in the beginning but screw it. the dedication of this book is spot on! To anyone wanting someone to sing "All I Want for Christmas" dare i say Michael Buble version is my jam and "Last Christmas" this book is for you.. I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas or special holiday whatever you celebrate.
October 20, 2021
If Only in My Dreams is a super cute Holiday themed romance! I was hooked from the first page and absolutely love the chemistry between Porter and Madison!
Madison is back in her hometown after a divorce and isn't really sure what to expect. When she comes home and runs into her secret ex-boyfriend from high school at the grocery store she isnt even sure if her hometown is where she wants to be.
Porter is a lonely guy. Raised my a single mom, his dad didn't want him, not very social, but he is the most handsome guy in town. Seeing Madison in the grocery store threw him for a loop and finding out that she is divorced, even more so.
The question is, is there a spark still between then, maybe even hotter than there was in high school or is the past just too far gone? This book was fun, sexy, and full of holiday cheer! I loved it and absolutely recommend it!
Madison is back in her hometown after a divorce and isn't really sure what to expect. When she comes home and runs into her secret ex-boyfriend from high school at the grocery store she isnt even sure if her hometown is where she wants to be.
Porter is a lonely guy. Raised my a single mom, his dad didn't want him, not very social, but he is the most handsome guy in town. Seeing Madison in the grocery store threw him for a loop and finding out that she is divorced, even more so.
The question is, is there a spark still between then, maybe even hotter than there was in high school or is the past just too far gone? This book was fun, sexy, and full of holiday cheer! I loved it and absolutely recommend it!
December 7, 2021
Loved it, loved it, loved it!!
I normally don’t read holiday romance but I’ll read anything Carrie writes! This book was like the perfect Hallmark holiday romance that I didn’t know I needed!
The friends to lovers, second chance romance was perfectly done. I think the holiday setting made it that much more enjoyable and romantic!
As always I love how Carrie’s characters are not perfect, they both had baggage from their past, together as well as apart. They were broken and needed to heal. The muddy beginning ended in the perfect romance!
Highly recommend this book, a perfect December read!
I normally don’t read holiday romance but I’ll read anything Carrie writes! This book was like the perfect Hallmark holiday romance that I didn’t know I needed!
The friends to lovers, second chance romance was perfectly done. I think the holiday setting made it that much more enjoyable and romantic!
As always I love how Carrie’s characters are not perfect, they both had baggage from their past, together as well as apart. They were broken and needed to heal. The muddy beginning ended in the perfect romance!
Highly recommend this book, a perfect December read!
December 11, 2021
Someone said this book was hallmark after dark and THEY WERE RIGHT. I cannot give this book enough stars. The silently brooding hero with regret over losing the one girl that loved him and pair that with intense chemistry and wickedly hot love-hate tension? Sign me up! Carrie created a book with that inviting, small-town charm that we all love but added in sprinkles of Christmas cheer and a couple that is to die for. I will most definitely be reading Porter and Madison's second chance romance over and over again every Christmas from here on out!
5 stars to this swoony, christmassy second chance romance with heat that packs a punch. <3
5 stars to this swoony, christmassy second chance romance with heat that packs a punch. <3
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