“the perseverance to do anything, to be anything. to thrive. someday, that word will belong to us too. after years of coming up short, it’s all i’ve ever wanted.” 😭
i know it’s kind of crazy to give a book that’s simply a recap of kiss the sky and hothouse flower in lilos pov, 5 stars…but that’s exactly what i’m doing. having lilo’s pov was everything, i missed my babies so much🥺🥺even though this book was a recap…lilo’s pov made it an entirely different experience. to see lilo be torn down by so many things, hurt me so much. after seeing my precious couple fight their addictions for years…i can’t wait to see them finally have their happy ending.
- “but we’re in earth-616, love. we’re going to have our happy ending. it just may take us awhile to get there.”
krista and becca ritchie have not failed to show that fighting an addiction and overcoming it does not happen overnight. so many curve balls were thrown at lilo, so many obstacles they had to overcome. lilo’s journey is truly inspirational. their strength is unmatched. they are the definition of soulmates because through it all, they have always been there for each other, picking each other back up when they’ve fallen down. ugh they’re such a beautiful couple.
- “there will always be bad days, but it’s how we live those bad days that count.”
- “i feel like i’m going out of my goddamn mind, ryke. tell me what i should do? huh? nothing takes this pain away, not running, not fucking the girl i love, not anything.” 💔💔
lo relapsing completely shattered my heart. i’m ugly crying just thinking about that chapter. oh how i wish i could pretend that it doesn’t exist😭when i tell you guys i could not stop sobbing. i was also in full on panic/anxiety mode omg.
- “lo,” i whisper, my fingers making circles on his black shirt. “i just want you to know that if you leave this world, i won’t be in it for much longer.” he’s a piece of me. you cut it off, and it’s like going through life with no lungs.
PAIN. thinking about a world without lily and lo makes me wanna throw up. and yes lily and lo exist in my REAL world. the core six are not fictional characters…they all feel so real to me so that’s what they are, real😭fight me about it.
i focus on my cell phone and text lil.
“i’m checking netflix when i get home.”
i press send, not clarifying. she’ll understand where i’m going with this. she replies quickly.
“do it. i’m studying :P”
“did you just stick your tongue out at me?”
“:P”
while adorable, the emoticon is her way of being evasive. i wish she was here.
then my phone buzzes in my belt, distracting me. i take it out.
“this is the second best day of my life. the director just accidentally touched my pinky finger!!!!”
i smile so goddamn much. my lips fall. i text back:
“what’s the best day?” i press send in an instant. she’s quick to reply.
“the day i fell in love with you.”
AHHHHHHHHHH the way i would steal lily’s or lo’s phone just to sit and read all their text messages…they’re so perfect.
lo and connor’s banter will get me every single time. their bromance is so cute i swear. they make me giggle. when connor calls lo “darling” and lo calls connor “love”😭literally stop it rn.
- “i love him,” connor says with so much conviction. “i would never intentionally harm lo.”
this admission that he loves….please iykYK. sobbing😭😭😭i love them endlessly.
“you threaten my balls everyday.”
“that’s because they’re hanging around my sister,” rose snaps. i hate that she makes a good point. “and you have full right to threaten my eggs or fallopian tubes. have at them.”
“i’m not going anywhere near your vagina.”
~PLEASEEEEEE LMAO lo and rose are so funny, but when lo and rose had that big fight :( omg i sobbed and it just goes to show how much lo actually cares about rose and how much guilt he carries for being so mean to her sometimes. i’ll always be a fan of their love-hate relationship though.
lo and ryke😭okay so in hothouse flower i was mad at lo, but when i read lo’s pov…instantly took my anger back.
- “i am sick of being treated like a broken toy. i am a goddamn human being.”
- “i don’t need him to be a twenty-four-seven sober coach. i need him to be my brother.”
my baby :(((((((( ugh ryke and lo’s bump in the road broke me. all lo wants is to be treated like a normal human and not someone who’s weak with an addiction. this fight between them was much needed.
lo and daisy🥺🥺the way he looks out for her.
- “i wince, not liking when she cries, at all. i already sense a change in my relationship with daisy since she’s become my brother’s girlfriend. she used to be like a little sister to me, but my obligation to her now feels larger when ryke isn’t here. like i have to be a force that keeps her safe when he’s gone. he’d do the same for lily, and it’s a role that i’ve easily accepted.”
lo accepting their relationship was everything to me because raisy is my fave🤭ahhhh i love them all so much.
♡lilo moments:
- “i’m going to love lily how i want to love her. overwhelmingly, uncompromisingly. look away if you have to.” 😭🤭no, never!
“lily calloway, did you just defend me by throwing perfectly good booze at a douchebag’s head?”
“yes,” she says with a nod and then tilts her chin up for further effect.
i touch my heart. “i’d propose to you, but i already did that.”
~AHHHHHHHHH😭them>>>>>>>>
“remember how when we were little?” i whisper. “you’d chase me around before midnight.”
“you always ran out of breath.”
“i wanted you to catch me.”
“i thought so.”
“catch me,” i whisper.
“i already have,” he murmurs.
~my heart🫠
♡coballoway moments:
- them being batman and catwoman at comic con was EVERYTHING. perfect duo for them omg i screamed.
rose says, “then i’ll try to get pregnant right afterwards, just so i can have a girl.”
connor grins, a blinding one.
“i don’t pray to anyone but myself, but i may make an exception, just so we have a boy first.” he wants lots and lots of kids, so rose’s proclamation is like his heaven right now.
“your prayers won’t work against fate,” rose retorts. “there’s a fifty percent chance i’ll win over you.”
“it’s not fate. it’s science, darling.”
~I LITERALLY LOVE THEM SO MUCH.
♡raisy moments:
- daisy on ryke’s shoulders at comic con.
- ryke throwing popcorn to get daisy’s attention.
- their banter and their friendship😭love it just as much as them dating. they so own me.
“how’s the ground calloway?”
“hard,” she banters with a mischievous smile. “it’ll probably leave a mark.”
“that’s usually what happens when your ass meets something hard, sweetheart.”
~screamingggggggggg
- ryke giving his seat to daisy while they were bowling because there was no where to sit and the way ryke played on her lane even tho there were bumpers😭CUTE
“daisy even covers ryke’s eyes so he has to bowl blind. he’s actually grinning.”
~every little raisy moment has me geeked tf out.
“i have this theory,” daisy says, “that if you leave two people who are really, really attracted to each other, alone in a room, without anything to do, they’ll have sex. a lot, a lot of sex.”
he says, “if that theory is right, you must find your boyfriend fucking ugly.”
“who says i haven’t had lots of sex with him?”
his glare could kill. “he’s twenty-three, dais. if you’re fucking him, he’s going to jail.”
~i will never accept the raisy slander😭so what if they have an age gap…they waited until their relationship was legal, that’s all that matters to me.
♡other thoughts:
- lily and rose being pregnant together is everything😭
“i already feel awful for the thing,”
ryke pauses. “he may not have an addiction problem, lo.”
“no, it’s not that.” i stop drawing and point my pen at connor. “our kid is going to have to compete with theirs. it’s already fucked and it’s not even born yet.”
~THIS HAD ME CACKLING.
- lilo owning a comic book/coffee shop called “superheroes and scones” is iconic. i love how into marvel they are because SAME.
- lo going to comic con as cyclops…iykyk😭
- i love rose and ryke’s relationship😭
- connor speaking italian to ryke to have a little secret conversation in front of everyone just like he used to do with rose in french until he found out ryke could understand this whole time hahahah😂
- lo giving lily piggy back rides🥹🥹
- lo being more intimate with lily because he trusts how strong she is and how well she’s doing with her addiction. it worried me at first, but i’m so proud of her😭
- lily shipping raisy🤭🤭
- lo telling scott off…loved it. the hatred i have for scott, julian, and lily’s mom is like no other.
- i love that we got more of coballoway’s wedding🤭
- lo and ryke’s dad…i hate him right, but him getting sober makes me hopeful.
♡my favorite quotes:
- “i don’t want to live if you’re not living with me.”
- “i can’t help but smile. my girlfriend is beyond adorable.”
- “the only future i want is the one that ends with her.”
- “ryke may be actually falling for my sister.”
- “i won’t turn this bad day into a terrible one. for me. but really, for her. fear of failing lily—it motivates me in ways no one can understand.”
- “our love is rare. it’s one i can’t abandon, even if i tried. when she screams, an identical one rips through me. when she cries, my world rains with grief. when she loves, i truly, truly fly.”
- “i want to be strong for him. it’s my turn now. i’m ready for it.”
ps: i’m so not ready for lilo’s last book :(