I love Elle Gray's work, I really do. I don't understand the community ratings being as high as they are though. For a multitude of reasons. First, grammar, typos, character arcs, and the absolute narcissism of her characters. Though, I do love her stories and plotting, she includes way too many introspective and repetitive "thoughts" along the way. For example, yes, Pax is rich, we know that, he doesn't need to tell us every three pages how rich he is. Were he my son, he'd not be. He has some sort of trust fund, what the amount is we don't know, but his parents do periodically threaten to cut him off so it's not in his full control. He's remarkably ungrateful for this resource. He doesn't want to be part of the family business, fine, but we don't need to be told that every other chapter either.
This is a man who needs therapy and lots of it. His absolute obsession with his dead wife, to the point of shutting down emotionally for six years, well, I understand that, my youngest son committed suicide 25 years ago last month, I am still harmed by that, but I am not obsessed, I think of him every day, but I am not crippled by it. I sought therapy after his death, I learned how to deal with it, it was crippling for a while - I actually turned off my phones for a full year and did nothing but work and read two books (more than 40 times) that helped me more than therapy did. I did some things wrong - ALL of which Pax has done, that didn't manifest as real problems until the 10th anniversary, when I went through therapy again and learned what I'd done wrong, it's something called complicated bereavement syndrome, where one doesn't actually complete the grieving process and which then causes all manner of problems (many one would never connect to the precipitating event) emotionally and physically. The primary one I did wrong, and it's the same thing Pax did, was I closed off his room, after a while it was like that room didn't exist, I never went in there, I didn't even see the door after a while even though it is right next to my own bedroom. So, instead of completing the grieving process, I walled it off. Pax does the same thing by keeping Veronica's office exactly as she left it and thinking about her, it seems, ALL the time, every single day. Given there was reason, she was in fact murdered, that's a bit more understandable but still incredibly unhealthy emotionally.
So, enough about me, and Pax and our issues. At last, after four books, he is able to prove Veronica was in fact murdered and solve that case. I do not believe the FDA is as easily "bought" as this book alleges, I think that a disservice to a fine organization and a badly needed one. That there are men who will try to circumvent the process, falsify data is indisputable. That there are men kidnapping homeless people, prostitutes and others off the streets and using them as human guinea pigs, well, that's possible, I suppose, but highly unlikely to get away with for more than a decade, which is what happens here.
I liked Veronica, until this book. I always had an issue with her death, but this book made clear to me why. They had a wonderful life together, they could have had a long and happy marriage, children, everything. She chose to die without ever proving her theory. I don't think a "great" journalist would do that. She had a ton of resources available to her and made use of NONE of them. She established a relationship with Fish, who has been extremely helpful to Blake Wilder, who could have helped her. She had access to Pax, who is an extremely strong, capable cop (at that time) with the financial resources to help her prove her theory and protect her, instead she chooses to accept that she will die, and makes a video (two videos) hidden in a place he would never discover, and didn't either, it is Marcy, Brody's girlfriend and also a true crime investigator, who discovers those files. I will never understand her motive for handling things that way, for not using all the resources she had to protect herself and reveal the truth. She could have saved countless lives but chose to simply die and leave a trail that would take six years to uncover. That's not much of a marriage, in my opinion, putting her "job" before her life and her marriage? That's not something reasonable people do. It just isn't.
The problem I have with Elle's protagonists is their narcissism. They think they are always the smartest person in any room. They don't accept help, they push people away, they antagonize potential allies simply because they don't like them or have no respect for them. Example, Pax walks into the Seattle PD to talk to interim deputy chief Lee determined to not cause problems and immediately begins insulting the first cop he comes across. Why? He's still so obsessed with his wife that he sabotages his new relationship before it really even gets started. People are constantly giving him good advice which he never takes. Because only he actually knows anything. Somehow he becomes Rambo in this book, how I have no idea. But it's not believable. That he was so damaged after his time in the dungeon he had to spend an entire week in a hospital, but was still fighting and charging up stairs is not believable. Adrenaline can't do that much.
His half baked plan to infiltrate Lomtin, with Marcy, just to plant a bug, but also revealing everything he's discovered was a huge mistake. His over confidence in his abilities, again his narcissism, nearly cost him his life. The only thing he did right was sending the two time delayed emails as misdirection and a third to Veronica's sister, even though he suspected she might not read it given their antagonistic relationship and that she'd told him earlier NOT to contact her again. It was pure chance that she read that email and then acted on it so the FBI could actually rescue him. I liked Veronica's last email to him, it was loving and thoughtful, but it was also completely unnecessary if she had simply acted more professionally and smarter in the first place. She simply accepted that she'd be killed and wrote him a loving letter from the grave telling him to move on and find new love. THAT would be heart breaking under any circumstance, but after six years of obsession and just after viewing that last video, he's smiles and has a date with May again. Unreal.
All of this sabotaged what was really a good story, Elle could be so much better with a good editor behind her, she has tremendous talent but needs help finetuning her work. I really don't like Pax, he's antagonistic to everyone but a few people and not a good "hero" in my opinion. Blake Wilder has the same sort of emotional baggage and issues but the stories are also well told, even though the same character flaws are present in those, the introspection that serves no purpose and takes up far too much of the books, so much that it's possible to lose track of the story. It took me a month to finish this book, I just couldn't take Pax for more than a few pages at a time. I usually storm through a book in a couple days, but couldn't with this one. So, though Elle has two other series going, I wouldn't mind if this was the last I saw of Pax. Blake and Olivia (both of whom have their own distracting issues) I'll continue reading because I really do like Elle's stories. And, despite this, I wish her well, I hope she gets an editor and a publishing house picks her up, she'd be a star with a team behind her because the talent is clearly there.