hoping this cold blue water scrubs me clean and spits me out again

by phantasmagoria

"Stay," Harry whispers desperately, pressing his lips to Louis' temple like he can somehow ease the pain that's blooming there, but he can't make the pain stop and no matter how hard he tries he can't make Louis stay.

Genres: Fan Fiction

Unknown Binding

Reviews

[verchiks · Rating 5 out of 5]

The best way to left someone in tears is letting them read this book. It started in a very sad way, it finished in even sadder way. If you ready to cry over and over again, this is a great choice! The way it is all written, I couldn’t stop sobbing for hours. anyway I LOVE THIS SO MUCH!!
I had to listen all the 1D, Louis and Harry’s songs again to remind myself they’re okay, they are living their best life and having fun. But 100/10 definitely 💚💙

‘I understand if you don’t want to stay.’

- Stay
- I wish I could

and many many other quotes that are considered as spoilers, so I won’t put them here.

[Georgia]

pain

[Polly Fairweather · Rating 5 out of 5]

i’ve never cried so much over something i’ve read

[Romane · Rating 5 out of 5]

I read this fic some years ago and I desire never to read it again. Not because it isn't good or anything but because it broke me beyond repair. I don't even know if the writing was that good but I can't explain to you how much I cried and sobbed over this.
I totally recommend it but you'll have to be brave to go through this terrible and awfully tearful story.
Just thinking about the plot and some aspects of the story right now, after all this time, make my eyes water all over again.

[Sandali ♥️ (Slow reading cause of watching BL) · Rating 5 out of 5]

You know those fics that absolutely tear you apart? The ones that that crush your heart and would write the story on paper with the blood? Yeah this is it. I’m yet to reread it without crying. Or bawling to be more specific. The agony this contained was beyond all comprehension. Rereading this makes me want to hug Harry and Louis and to never let go. To scream how fragile life is. Especially after Liam’s death it’s even harder to read this cause the fiction that was once about a member’s death is now real and what if we lose more??? But nevertheless if you want a good emotional cleanse and want to get rid of the too strong emotions inside of you, read this. A good crying session is guaranteed!

[Lacey · Rating 4 out of 5]

I read this over 5 years ago and I still think about it every time I get a headache

[Ariana · Rating 4 out of 5]

4,5

[Andrea Stojanović · Rating 5 out of 5]

In my whole entire life I have never cried this much. So devastatingly beautiful. It has this amazing picture of love and what it really is and to what extents does it take us. I like that even though death is terrifying through the whole book, it ends with it being not so scary and leaves the reader knowing that the character is going to be fine in the end. I'm gonna need some time to recover from this one. Also it is a book to read exclusively in one sitting. I wouldn't be able to handle it any other way.

edit: read it again. don’t know why i did it, i bawled my eyes out again.

[oliwka · Rating 5 out of 5]

i was looking for chill read at the beach and ended up bawling my eyes… yeah it just hurts but it’s so good

[pecora · Rating 5 out of 5]

I can’t fucking speak
My eyes are stinging, my face is wet with tears and i’ll never be the same ever again
This was the most beautiful devastating piece of art ever

[Jacqueline Camozzi · Rating 5 out of 5]

5⭐️ read this in 2020 and sobbed absolutely sobbed. sobbed myself to sleep even :)

[Lavinia Tomlinson · Rating 4 out of 5]

One of the saddest shit out there. The ending was maybe too weird, and I didn't really like the fact that there were smut scenes (sorry but in this kind of ff I don't like them). But I think it is well written and that it is a beautiful idea.

[chloe skye whitlock · Rating 4 out of 5]

This made me sob harder than ever before. Be prepared for emotional ruin. Also this might be one of my all time favorite book covers.

[Elke · Rating 1 out of 5]

One of my students begged me to read this. Sorry. Hated it.

[Daniela Bushell · Rating 3 out of 5]

a bit short but sweet

[Romina Marzan · Rating 5 out of 5]

Solo puedo 😭😭😭

[Maja · Rating 5 out of 5]

It wasn't so sad as I expected

[Charlotte Kuckuck · Rating 5 out of 5]

This fanfic is so fucking sad I never cried so fast because of a book. Its a good one hour read and you probably will sob at the end of it.

[Milooow · Rating 5 out of 5]

OUCH. Very nice style of writing, but if you don't like sad stories, stay away from this one

[mati 💌 · Rating 5 out of 5]

nunca había llorado tanto con un libro

[Sophie · Rating 5 out of 5]

It broke me, but it is beautiful! ♡

[bella m 🦢 · Rating 5 out of 5]

this is simply 5 stars because of the way it made me sob

[bookishbeast · Rating 5 out of 5]

Jestem rozwalona psychicznie.

[Pia :) · Rating 5 out of 5]

This is the most heartbreaking book I have ever read. It’s beautiful written and let’s just say “Harry, I’m writing this while you’re downstairs washing the dishes and I’m curled up in bed.”

[Mikkeline Pedersen · Rating 5 out of 5]

Drowned in my tears. A classic.

[el · Rating 5 out of 5]

this book broke me but it’s so beautiful

[Zoya Fatima · Rating 5 out of 5]

I READ THIS YESTERDAY AND SOBBED TILL I COULDN'T BREATHE!! I KNOW BY NOW WE ALL KNOW WHAT HAPPENS IN THIS BOOK BUT IT STILL HITS SOOO HARD I CANT EVEN!
MY FAVOURITE QUOTE IS "DON'T WAKE LOUIS DON'T WAKE LOUIS" WHICH BREAKS MY HEART! I CANNOT EVEN IMAGINE THE PAIN! OKAY YEAH, ITS A LARRY FIC BUT ITS REALLY GOOD!! I WOULD TOTALLY REC IT! ITS A SHORT 28 CHAPTERS
ALSO, THE LETTER BREAKS ME EVERY SINGLE TIME!!!!
HAPPY READING!

[arubivazquez · Rating 5 out of 5]

PLEASE DOMT LEAVE!!! q triste la vdd, llore mucho

[noelle · Rating 5 out of 5]

The book was SO! good. I cried my eyes out and needed a year to finish it bc it is really heartbreaking. the author did such a great job. this book altered my brain. 10/10 !

[michelle · Rating 5 out of 5]

So incredibly awesome and really well written.
One word: heartbreaking