For someone who describes himself as a coward, and admits that his anxiety was bad enough that he worried about ruining his family's lives as well as his own, Tim Clare is a brave person for sharing the amount of personal detail that he does here. One chapter describes an anxiety attack, from start to exponential rise to finally fading away, from the inside as he experienced it. When it was over, he wrote it down just as depicted. If you've been lucky enough never to have gone through an emotional cycle this extreme, this section is quite the eye-opener. (Especially how little it takes to trigger it!)
I think we all can relate to some part of Clare's book, even if we've never personally experienced anxiety attacks as crippling as his. We've all had those times in our lives where it seems the butterflies in the stomach just won't go away; we've all had those nights when we wake up with racing thoughts and can't find sleep again. We'd all love to know what to do in those times. So, Clare has looked into it, not only for himself and his family, but for all of us. To his disappointment, there are no quick fixes. Every scientist he speaks with admits that headlines can be misleading, and there's a lot of unknowns in medical research and practice. Their current findings point to directions of new research that might turn out promising, but most of their answers don't give Clare solutions that will instantly help turn the anxiety off.
At the end, Clare sums up everything he's tried and whether it succeeded in lowering his anxiety. He also emphasises that any given reader may get different results, as there's also no panacea for all of us. What has worked the best for him were things like exercise and cold water swims, and these all took time and practice to do their work. An emotionally intense form of therapy uncovered trauma from his younger years that he's almost forgotten, but it was also hard, painful work. By this point, it's pretty evident that trying to avoid anxiety, or it's triggers and causes, is the thing that most definitely doesn't work. You have to change your brain, which takes effort, and plenty of it, over time. “What I’ve discovered is that the opposite of anxiety isn’t comfort. It’s curiosity. It’s appetite. It’s moving towards things that make you feel alive and embracing them, while doing your best to accept that things will go wrong.” Kudos to Mr. Clare for sharing this journey with us.