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249 pages, Kindle Edition
First published October 4, 2022
Mimi had been the love of my life since I was fourteen. I’d always thought that we would be forever. But she’d turned into this nervous mess. One that I didn’t even recognize.
I’d loved Mimi since I was fourteen. We’d been inseparable since. We graduated together. Started college together. We talked about me joining an MC with my brothers, and her becoming my old lady. We talked about our kids and our life together, where it would lead us.
We discarded our clothes, and for the first time in my life, I’d seen someone else besides Mimi naked.
“We have to act like we’re a couple,” he grunted. “And I have to break it off with Mimi.” I felt my insides stir.
Things happened really fast after that. As in, I never once expected him to spend quite so much time with me to sell our lie. Nor did I expect him to leave his girlfriend.
Because Bram felt horrible. I could see it in his eyes, on his face, and the way he held himself when she was around. He clearly still loved her.
“Yes.” He slid the ring that used to be his ex-girlfriend’s onto my finger, then grinned. “It fits.”
We got married at the courthouse. None of Bram’s family was in attendance, mostly because they were all mad at him.
What sucked worse was, an hour later, he dropped me off at home in his truck—he’d refused to give me a ride on his motorcycle because it didn’t feel ‘right’—he left.
I went to sleep on the couch and slept there every night for the next six months.
I’d like to say that life got better after that. But it didn’t. Bram’s family hated me. Bram resented me.
And, to make matters worse, I finally got to sleep with Bram. But only because he was drunk off his ass, and he wanted it, he said.
He fucked me, but he didn’t love me.
Yet, none of them had said thank you at all. Not even Bram, who was well on his way to drunk, had said a single ‘thank you.’
I loved a man that would never love me back.
“Fuck. That sucks. You should’ve gotten more,” Price grumbled, turning around and dismissing me.
Honestly, I think I would’ve been all right continuing to live the life that we’d made with each other… until I saw that Mimi had come back home to run her parents’ racetrack years after we’d married. It was seeing the look in Bram’s eyes as he stared at her that sealed the deal. It was that look that helped me make the decision.
No reason to keep thinking that I could make Bram happy when everyone knew I couldn’t.
No reason to continue to deal with abuse from the Crow family when I didn’t need to anymore.
He fucked me from behind. He gave me an orgasm.
And not once did he have to look into my eyes. So he could pretend I wasn’t really me.
This would never, ever be what I wanted it to be. And I could leave.
With my car packed with my belongings, I took one last glance at the house that I’d come to love—with the man that I loved inside of it—and left. Not once glancing back.
For ten full years, I’d had the epitome of perfection at home, and I’d done nothing but squander that time away. I’d come so accustomed to having her there, having exactly what I wanted and needed at all times, that I didn’t realize that I wasn’t giving back what I got. I didn’t know my wife at all, even though I knew that I loved her.
I knew that some of my brothers had problems with her. I also knew that I didn’t stand up for her enough.
I knew that she went to school. I also knew that she had a job at the college in admissions. But that would’ve been over with hours ago.
Shine uncrossed his arms as he said, “Well nobody can fuckin’ tell, you twit. You treat her like shit! If you love someone like you say you love Dory, then you don’t treat them the way you treat her! How do you expect me to treat her when you treat her the exact same way I was just treating her?”
“I’m trying to say that you all are a bunch of loyal assholes,” Jeremiah pointed out. “Yes, you loved Mimi. But there was a reason that Mimi is gone. Dory is Bram’s wife now. Y’all could’ve taken the time to get to know her. It’s been ten years. How much longer are you gonna wait for Mimi to come back before you realize that Dory is here to stay?”
For ten years, I’d done nothing but stay away from her as much as I could.
He hadn’t treated me very well. In fact, he’d treated me quite poorly. But I’d kind of ruined his life. I can see why he felt like he’d been trapped.
“Are you telling me that you like me? All those times you gave me shit about my eating habits. About how I couldn’t stand to be dirty. Or hell, even how your family treated me at almost every single social gathering you took me to… and you’re going to tell me that you adore me? Bram, if you adored me, you wouldn’t have allowed any of that to happen.”
“Speaking of,” she said softly. “Dory. Why are you calling me that and not Dorcas?” I felt something sickening lodge in my throat. “Dorcas was a way to keep you at a distance like I needed you to be. I knew you didn’t like it. And I exploited that.” She closed her eyes. “Today, right now, I think you’re no better than Amon.”
I was pregnant with Bram’s child, and it was trying to punish me. Just like Bram tried to punish me for the entirety of our marriage.
I wasn’t ever welcome. And they all thought I was weird, and they called me Dorcas, and I didn’t like being there.”
There was no way in hell that they missed me.
“You remember last Christmas how not a single person got me a Christmas gift?” I asked. “Not even your parents got me one.”
I’d missed her graduation. She didn’t know that I knew, but I had.
“I don’t… I don’t want to talk to your family, if that’s okay with you.”
We’d gotten nowhere and had nothing but ten years of heartache to show for our marriage.

