Please Love Me at My Worst

by Michaela Angemeer

Notable TikTok creator Michaela Angemeer explores connecting with your inner child, loving the worst parts of yourself, coming out as bisexual, and focusing on self-growth in this highly anticipated poetry collection.Please Love Me at My Worst is a collection poetry divided into four sections inspired by loneliness, unrequited love, personal growth, and not being able to let go of past relationships. Written with honesty and vulnerability, Please Love Me at My Worst reflects on what it means to yearn for people who are unavailable and how important it is to focus on self-love and healing.

Genres: Poetry, Nonfiction, Mental Health, Self Help, LGBT, Romance, Queer

127 pages, Kindle Edition

First published October 12, 2021

About the author

Michaela Angemeer (she/they) is a queer Canadian poet who’s passionate about sharing her healing journey and inspiring readers to spend more time with their feelings.

They’ve published five best-selling collections of poetry including When He Leaves You, You’ll Come Back to Yourself, Please Love Me at My Worst, Poems for the Signs, and There Is Room for All of You Here.

Michaela’s newest book, Please Look into the Mirror, is about facing the darkness to find light. Separated into three sections: Glass, Mirror, and Reflection, it’s about the mother wound, gaining a deeper sense of self, learning to take accountability and finding relief in cycle breaking.

Michaela lives in Kitchener, Ontario with her Frenchton, Bea. You can find her intently browsing thrift stores, ordering tapas at local restaurants or on her couch yapping to her girlfriend.

Get in touch on TikTok & Instagram: @michaelapoetry

Reviews

[shanayaa · Rating 5 out of 5]

➳ 𝟓/𝟓 𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙧𝙨

❞𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙙𝙚𝙨𝙚𝙧𝙫𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙚 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚𝙙 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙘𝙤𝙣𝙙𝙞𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣. 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙚𝙣𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝. 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙩𝙧𝙮𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙝𝙖𝙧𝙙𝙚𝙧. 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙣𝙚𝙬 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙨. 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙖𝙘𝙘𝙤𝙢𝙥𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙝𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙨. 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙨𝙪𝙘𝙘𝙚𝙨𝙨. 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙜𝙚𝙩𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙗𝙞𝙜𝙜𝙚𝙧 𝙤𝙧 𝙨𝙢𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙚𝙧. 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙜𝙚𝙩𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙨𝙢𝙖𝙧𝙩𝙚𝙧. 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙞𝙢𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙫𝙚𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙨. 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙖𝙣𝙮𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙖𝙩 𝙖𝙡𝙡. 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙚𝙣𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝, 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙖𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙖𝙧𝙚❞

This book felt like a warm hug i so desperately needed!!🫂🩷

[lulu · Rating 3 out of 5]

“to my inner child—
i am sorry you never learned
how the words
i love you
were supposed to feel
i am sorry
you were ignored
i am sorry
you were never told
you are enough”

“does anyone want to trade brains
i’d like a quieter one”

[Reading_ Tamishly · Rating 4 out of 5]

While I was reading this collection, my mind was singing "I need somebody who can love me at my worst...." And that too the you-know-who's version 💟

Exactly for Rupi Kaur's readers!

You will not be disappointed with this collection. It's that this feels like the younger version of Rupi Kaur's poetry collection.

The lines are genuine and, no doubt, you will feel connected to the written words as soon as you start reading them.

Go for this collection. The nostalgia hits you right.

Thank you, author and the publisher, for the advance reading copy.

[Lourdes · Rating 1 out of 5]

i swear i've read tweets deeper than this

[Sam · Rating 4 out of 5]

I ate this book. It was gentle and relatable and it reminded you to love and accept yourself and that your enough and deserving of love. It was easy to like and easy to connect with. Here’s some pieces I liked most:

“to my inner child-
i am sorry you never learned
how the words
i love you
were supposed to feel
i am sorry
you were ignored
i am sorry
you were never told
you are enough”

“saying i have trust issues would imply i have any trust left
i just have issues”

“Darling I’m not interested
In flowers or lust
offer me a boquete
of empathy and trust”

“baby, you will find someone the right one, someday
but for now, take this time as a gift
learn how to love yourself”

[zan !! · Rating 4 out of 5]

woah okay,, this was my first time properly reading poetry and i actually…really loved this

[meg *ੈ✩‧₊˚ (semi ia) · Rating 5 out of 5]

i have not had quite the poetry book that has REALLY spoke to me like this one did. every page, i found a new one that spoke to me. (not every single one did but there were far fewer compared to the majority).

i really had to take my time with this one because so much of it spoke to me and my mind.

[Soha Ashraf · Rating 2 out of 5]

Too much sad contemporary Tumblr style poetry in a day is not good for my mood.

[Anastasiia⚘ · Rating 5 out of 5]

5☆

Ahh, I absolutely adored it! This poetry collection was so sweet and tender and in the same time so raw and relatable. And I loved how the story was floating through out four sections. I would just highly recommend reading it!

Here I just leave some quotes that I liked the most, cause why not :)

"you cannot use someone
else’s map
to find yourself"

"i keep shouting who am i
into the void
the echo screams back
whoever you want to be"

"and when the shore
seems out of reach
don’t forget that
you can always just float for a while"

"ask your inner child what they want, and give it to them. you owe it to yourself to live this life in your wild. you owe it to yourself to find out who you are."

"it’s like i have a resistance to wholeness
more comfort in being broken"

[Kamal · Rating 2 out of 5]

you deserve to be loved without condition.
you are enough.
without trying harder.
without learning new things.
without accomplishments.
without success.
without getting bigger or smaller.
without getting smarter.
without improvements.
without changing anything at all.
you are enough, just as you are.

ده كلام نقوله في الأحضان، بس العالم مش هيسمّي عليك.

[Tania · Rating 1 out of 5]

This is one of the very few items that I have returned.

If you’re looking for something similar to Rupi Kaur, like I was… it’s not.

My friend told me about this book, and I was expecting something moving and beautiful, but the poetry turned out to be quite primitive and also looked mentally unhealthy.

[ele (taylor’s version) · Rating 5 out of 5]

Written very well, the content is A M A Z I N G. These poems hit you right in the heart. I recommend it.

[Jessi ❤️ H. Vojsk [if villain, why hot?] · Rating 4 out of 5]

I am learning that this is not about me
This is about you
I am healed, I am whole
I am enough
You are in pieces
You are broken
You need healing on your own

- stop trying to break me too

I read this book in one day and even though I don’t read that many poetry books, I liked this one.
But (there’s always a but, huh?) something was missing, something wasn’t right to me.
But I can’t really explain it.

I keep shouting who am I
Into the void
The echo screams back

Whoever you want to be

[Amelia · Rating 1 out of 5]

Corny

[Mariah · Rating 4 out of 5]

ARC provided by the publisher via NetGalley.
Sometimes fate is kind enough to deliver what I like to call "'Right book at the right time."
So, for the record, here's my note of thanks to the universe for this one. I was in sore need of it.

I was quite surprised to find myself getting teary eyed at multiple points in this book. It wasn't until I finished the very last sentence of the acknowledgements that the tears fell and I felt a near cathartic release.
Relief. This read like relief.

Like a conversation with someone who knows you, gets you, truly understands you. Someone who puts their phone away as soon as you sit down because there's nothing on there that could be more interesting that anything you could have to say.

What an absolute breath of fresh air in a genre that has long started to feel oversaturated and often derivative and even performative.

[Evelina Persson · Rating 3 out of 5]

This was one of my first times properly reading poetry and i actually really liked this. This poetry collection was so sweet and tender and in the same time so raw and relatable. And I really liked how the story was in four sections. It was such a short and quick read but still so walkable, I would really recommend reading it.

[Samya♡ · Rating 4 out of 5]

"you cannot use someone else’s map to find yourself"

4/5⭐️ for a book that made me feel heard.

[♡ lau ♡ · Rating 1 out of 5]

i've read tweets deeper than this

[mads ꫂৎ]

This was my very first poetry book and I absolutely loved it! I’m on my healing journey but this really reaffirmed some things. I do think I’ll read it again at one point or another. Would definitely recommend.


𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘥𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘳𝘢𝘸 𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘢𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘪𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘳 𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘥 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘴 𝘤𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘥𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘶𝘵 𝘰𝘧𝘧 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘩𝘶𝘳𝘵𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘫���𝘴𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘩𝘦𝘳

𝘥𝘰𝘦𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘥𝘦 𝘣𝘳𝘢𝘪𝘯𝘴 𝘪’𝘥 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘢 𝘲𝘶𝘪𝘦𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘰𝘯𝘦

𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘦���𝘴𝘦’𝘴 𝘮𝘢𝘱 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧

𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘰𝘯 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘱𝘶𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘧𝘪𝘳𝘴𝘵

𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘤𝘩𝘰𝘪𝘤𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘱𝘳𝘪𝘰𝘳𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘻𝘦 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧

𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘰𝘸𝘦 𝘪𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘢𝘳𝘦.

[softfawn ميمي ♡ · Rating 4 out of 5]

This book is a message to love yourself unconditionally. You don’t need to anyone’s approval. It’s also about a longing to have someone to love. That is okay too. You can long for someone to love you, all while learning to love yourself as you are. Both things are good. I love analysing poetry books - to relate to and to understand it thoroughly and how the poet dictates their feelings throughout, pages filled with sorrow, hopelessness and confusion but ending with the realisation that I’m good enough, I don’t necessarily need anyone and I will be FINE. :)
It goes through politically social agendas which I liked; which most readers didn’t as I concluded from past reviewers 🤍🦢.
I wish for all people who have read this book discover they can do the same 🕯️.
If you want a good cry when reading this book - listen to “Two Birds - Regina Spektor”!!!

[Mirelleisreading · Rating 4 out of 5]

Straight in the feels 😭

[Melly-Jade Fournier · Rating 4 out of 5]

This poetry book is for the queer girlies. YES

« Remember
you are like the moon
you can choose how
where and when
you reveal yourself »

[gee · Rating 5 out of 5]

This woman knows how to write. holy moly. She seemed to look deep into my soul and rip the words out. Beautiful, raw, empowering and devoted. Absolutely incredible would highly recommend.

[Book dreamer 🎀 · Rating 4 out of 5]

3,5⭐️

[Bea (beansbookshelves) · Rating 5 out of 5]

I received an advanced reader copy of this book to read in exchange for an honest review via netgalley.

I enjoyed reading this book so much! I was so surprised when I read a poem regarding astrology, which is a subject I truly love -- happy to know that the author is also a scorpio sun. Every poem is full of emotion and beautifully written. She's very talented and I'm glad I chose this book. The illustrations throughout the book are also beautiful.

[Hannah Showalter · Rating 1 out of 5]

normally i want to be so kind about poetry, especially because it's so vulnerable to write and someone worked hard on this book, but this was really just not very good. some of these were just like...sentences. milk and honey is actually better than this, which says a lot. sorry to be a snob! 

[Hayley · Rating 3 out of 5]

It was an ok collection. There was a few strong pieces.

[STEPH · Rating 3 out of 5]

It's 10:29 a.m., and I'm reading this while crying my eyes out. What a way to spend my Sunday morning.

This is so relatable—everything I've ever said to myself. My inner child, the ones I've lost, the people I loved most. My heart is full of memories of the past, the hopeful present, and the promise of the future. I particularly cried over the "Dear Nana" poems and the theme of losing someone.

I also appreciated the author's honesty about her sexuality; it made me feel a bit closer to her. Additionally, her reflections on physical imperfections resonated with me because I often think about that too.

This is a really awesome poetry collection. It made me want to write again and to be a writer once more. (Is that dream still alive? We'll see.)

[Pranjal · Rating 4 out of 5]

"𝑰 𝒂𝒎 𝒅𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒅𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈
𝑰 𝒂𝒎 𝒕𝒐𝒐 𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒏𝒔𝒆 𝒇𝒐𝒓
𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒅𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒌𝒔 𝒐𝒓 𝒂 𝒄𝒐𝒇𝒇𝒆𝒆
𝑰 𝒇𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒊𝒏 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒆𝒊𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒊𝒎𝒎𝒆𝒅𝒊𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒚 𝒐𝒓 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓
𝑰 𝒂𝒎 𝒂 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒚-𝒖𝒑-𝒕𝒊𝒍𝒍-𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒆𝒆-𝒂𝒎 𝒈𝒊𝒓𝒍
𝒕𝒂𝒍𝒌-𝒂𝒍𝒍-𝒏𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒈𝒊𝒓𝒍
𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒍-𝒎𝒆-𝒂𝒍𝒍-𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓-𝒔𝒆𝒄𝒓𝒆𝒕𝒔 𝒈𝒊𝒓𝒍
𝑰 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒘𝒆 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒎𝒆𝒕
𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒘𝒆 𝒎𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒂𝒔 𝒘𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒈𝒆𝒕 𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒅"

[Sarah (sarahanneisreading) · Rating 5 out of 5]

4.5 stars