This book was written as an explanation mainly to my daughter but also to my husband I put into the best words I could come up with the effects postpartum and mental illness had on me the first year after having our daughter. Experiencing a loss. Becoming suicidal. Then somehow pulling myself out of it, through prayer and constant reassurance from my Husband. It's written as a long letter that I have broken up into short chapters. This isn't half of what we all went through but I think it scratches the surface enough to get the point across. If you or anyone you know has struggled or is struggling with on going postpartum mental issues, I am here and happy to help in any way that I can. Or to direct you to the places that contributed to helping me.