Multiple times I exclaimed, "oh my god, her brain is just SO AWESOME and SEXY" while reading these. This book and amb herself are both magic.
From the introduction ::
"It can take a while to recognize what you are when the lineage has been swept away. I reach back for the tools I was given to be in and shape the world, and at first, I cannot find them. I hear the smooth instruction to love myself and many iterations of instruction to surrender my power to others, to trust someone else to stand between me and the divine, translating, interpreting, directing the exchange. But under all of that there is a feeling that cannot be denied--a direct feeling of connection and invitation to the natural world. It is both within me and between me and life. This feeling courses through me when I hold space, hold change, when I doula, when I work as a healer and when I write.
I call it witching.
Witching is a practice of engaging the essential, natural world with magic and supernatural intentions. Throughout history there have been many names for witches and the work of witches, including shamanism, sorcery, healing, herbalism, midwifery and doula labor, conjuring, rootwork, ritual and spellcasting. There are lineages that provide a lot of guidance for the developing witch, and there are intuitive paths where the practices are shown, felt, called. I am definitely an intuitive witch I answer the call and I trust the love in the universe to guide my actions. And I use my witching for liberation.
This act of witching is about putting our attention behind our intentions. And being willing to invite and shape the unseen forces of the world (which go by many names and beyond all comprehensible names) to align with the highest good for ourselves and the whole.
There have been negative connotations and fatal consequences for witching, especially as organized religions have taken the center of common societal space. Many people have died for these good intentions, for trying to help, for having this sense in themselves of the parts of the world that are material but not visible, the realm of the energetic and interconnected. I am so grateful I was born in a time when I can embrace my practice publicly, even as I learn it. I think perhaps we witches are workers of the mycelial realm of humans.
As is my way, I was practicing before I claimed any language for it, and I brought many questions to those with more established practices of witchcraft and divinity. I finally gave in to my witchy ways when I looked at my life and realized I was casting spells, channeling nature, divining with tarot, creating altars of earth, crafting rituals, and practicing astrology. Being a witch isn't the only way I tap into the limitless capacity of the divine, but it is undeniably powerful in my life, and a way that I recognize and am recognized by others who are earnestly attempting to change what is ours to change.
As such, I wanted to uplift the pieces of my work that are doing active, intentional work to cast spells and create meaningful change, as well as stories in which I explore the lives of those discovering their magic. My witching way has always included writing. I rarely craft my poetic writing - I feel and channel, I get taken over by the need to express something that feels true, and I listen, editing and shaping as I write it. For that reason, I have always hesitated to call the work poetry. I am surrounded by people I think of as real poets. I see the labor they put into each of their choices, and I respect it, I honor it. What I do is different. The labor I put into my work is clearing everything out of the way until I can listen.
The work I do is to look at the moon, or a body of water, or some creature other than human, and wait until I understand something.
The work I do is to repeat the instructions of love that want to be heard, over and over.
The stories in here may not fit strictly into the category of fables, and the poems may not all be spells, but that is also my way I get rebellious around boxes and labels. These are all spells to me, and they have been cast.
As you read, I encourage you to listen for your own spells. I do know that reading your spells out loud increases their power, and reading into a candle increases their intensity, especially for release. Pay attention to the state of the moon when you choose to cast spells, as that energy of darkness, waxing, fullness, or waning will imprint on your magic. Folding a long-term spell and putting it under your bed helps you activate your dream shifting labor. Listen to your instincts as your read these spells and write your own. I hope something in these pages touches your untamed nature, reminds you that you, too, can shape the world around you."
and some spectacular selections from the mind of adrienne maree brown that are in the book:::
"Her college dorm windowsill was covered in propagating planes, the roots swirling around each other in jars of clear water. It was the first thing she had done when she arrived, go to gather living things to breathe in the room with her, find ways to have water near. She had chosen UC San Diego because she was able to get housing that faced the ocean. Each morning she woke up when the light came and slipped out of her room, up to the "living roof" where she could watch the tides. She rarely missed a sunset; this green sprawling roof was her home as much as the shared dorm room below with its glassed square of sea. She felt a power returning to her with each day that she was by the water, each day far away from her mother. She felt that what moved in her had the rhythm of waves and tides.
She swam in the big ocean, with the salt moving against and through her. She went early, and sometimes at night, so she could dive down as long as she wanted without troubling any other swimmers with their fearful assumptions. The salt cleansed her of the insults and terrors of her mother. The current told her she didn't have to carry anyone else's burdens. The sand offered her gifts, sunken treasures, and lost shells.
She had forgotten most of the water miracles of her childhood, in the normal way trauma obscures magic. But in this practice of giving herself to the ocean, she felt an uninterrupted sense of herself emerge, a self that could extend to the horizon without falling off, a self that could carry an emotion across a continent before releasing it."
and this one that made me cry out loud at a table of other people as I read :::
"how to open the channels, she was careful, she practiced bothers led unity with her clients.
She stayed in California, and her mother stayed in Detroit, um more than a decade had passed. Her mother would some. times call het, meaning to invite her home. The anguish of missing her, the confusion of a child so far beyond her would take Tanyas tongue; she would begin to say things she didn't mean and then get lost in anger and the woman-child would withdraw for months, changing and growing and healing herself and others.
When she turned thirty, she had a moon dream. Every so often these dreams would come where she was the moon, and she was so aware of the tides, so aware of the work she was doing, so new, of so fil. In this moon dream, she saw her mother, sleeping. a body of fetid water, stuck and full of rot, of things that had died but nor been allowed to go back to the sea. When she came to, she booked a ticket home before she had even been able to think.
When she got to her mother's door, she was astounded by the pain she felt. Every joint in her body her gut, her hands. It was typical that she could feel the pain of her clients. Had her mother always been this walking wound, this sack of need?
When her mother opened the door, her face opened in a familiar way-the wonder of her daughter had always humbled Tanya, frightened her. Tanya remembered her child, pouring out of her hands somehow, splitting the lake, bursting the pipes, becoming a stranger. Before Tanya could say the wrong thing, this grown woman in her Black beauty stepped through the door, closed it and then placed her hands on her mother.
The first stuck place was in Tanya's heart, where there was a fissure that had filled up with loneliness. The second stuck place was along her spine, which had all kinds of aches and bends that were ancient-the dazzling wounds of slavery and white sociopathy.
Tanya cried out as this wound flowed out of her. The third stuck place was sensual, was the place where Tanya had been touched too young, had been broken instead of nurtured. Only shared weeping can heal that kind of injury, and Tanya wept into her daughters shoulder as she caught her daughter's tears, until the pain was shared and released.
The women were there in the foyer for hours, kneeling on the floor, fetal on the floor, wrapped around each other as one body becoming whole, one family coming home. Finally, finally, the healing was done. Without words, Tanya showed her precious child to the bedroom. They slept there, for the first time, in tenderness.
When they woke, there was nothing to say. They had to begin again. They had to meet each other, as if for the first time."