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Not Alone
Ash is a rock star. Micah is a broken man. Neither one wants to be alone. Ash Oakley has spent his life making music and doing what it takes to reach the top, along with his best friend (with benefits) Wells by his side. After a year of touring and opening in stadiums for rock legends across the globe, he needs down time and rents an apartment in a beach town outside of foggy San Francisco. He decides to take up surfing. His first time out, he discovers a rude, but mysterious man on the beach who captivates him in a way he didn’t expect. The man is clearly grief stricken, something Ash knows a lot about after losing his guitar-playing brother to a drug overdose. Micah Knowles left his friends, his family, and his high-tech job to sit on the beach, day after day, struggling to heal from a devastating event he can’t even speak of out loud. He doesn’t deserve friendship and certainly doesn’t deserve love, not after what he did. When their worlds collide, Ash must uncover the truth about the man he’s falling for and decide if he can handle it. Micah must face his demons to heal and let Ash in. But after all that, Ash’s very public world and lifestyle might be the thing that tears them apart
382 pages, Paperback
Published August 30, 2021
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Christie Gordon
45 books259 followersChristie Gordon is the author of steamy, heartfelt gay romance novels that explore the emotional journey of men discovering themselves and finding love. It all started when she stumbled upon MM fanfiction by accident—and let's just say, it was love at first read. Inspired by the genre's mix of passion and complexity, Christie transitioned from reading about men in love to writing her own stories. After taking fiction writing classes at a local community college, she published her first MM romance novel in 2009 with a small press, and she’s never looked back.
When she’s not writing, Christie watches boys-love dramas, creates digital art, or is serenaded by her snoring one-eyed rescue pug. A graduate of both Electrical Engineering (BS) and Business Administration (MBA), she spends her "day job" navigating the high-tech world, but her heart belongs to the characters who live in her books. Christie currently resides in the Phoenix metro area, though she’s also lived in California’s Bay Area and Minnesota (which probably explains her deep love of pumpkin spiced latte coffees and hockey).
She’s also the proud mother of two young-adult sons who provide plenty of material for stories—usually in the form of chaotic shenanigans. But no matter what, Christie’s always up for a new adventure, whether it's on the page or in the real world.
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When she’s not writing, Christie watches boys-love dramas, creates digital art, or is serenaded by her snoring one-eyed rescue pug. A graduate of both Electrical Engineering (BS) and Business Administration (MBA), she spends her "day job" navigating the high-tech world, but her heart belongs to the characters who live in her books. Christie currently resides in the Phoenix metro area, though she’s also lived in California’s Bay Area and Minnesota (which probably explains her deep love of pumpkin spiced latte coffees and hockey).
She’s also the proud mother of two young-adult sons who provide plenty of material for stories—usually in the form of chaotic shenanigans. But no matter what, Christie’s always up for a new adventure, whether it's on the page or in the real world.
For information about her and her work, please visit her website at: www.christiegordon.com
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May 5, 2025
This book was a bit of a roller coaster with all the feels…trauma, love, joy, jealousy, despair, smut…
The story is fully told from Ash’s point of view. Ash is bisexual lead singer of an up and coming rock band who rents an apartment on the beach in California to decompress between touring with the band and recording. He’s single, albeit with a long term friends with benefits situation with his BFF and band mate, Wells. Ash encounters Micah, his neighbor at the rental, and is immediately struck by his appearance and is fascinated by him. Micah is hot and cold with Ash, however, and we learn early, from Ash’s observations, that he must be dealing with something very serious and emotional. Ash is persistent and having had personal experience with trauma, he has a sense of how to help Micah…sometimes. Eventually the men do get together, during which time there is plenty of steam, but it’s not an easy road. There are a number of setbacks on both of their parts before their eventual happily ever after, when they both are “not alone.”
While I enjoyed this story, as with all of Gordon’s books, this one wasn’t my favorite. Micah is a likable character whose challenging plight I could sympathize with. The jealousy related to Ash and Wells’ prior intimate relationship didn’t feel adequately fleshed out though. It seemed too easily resolved, along with Micah’s PTSD. While Ash was a good guy too, who had faced some of his own demons, and overall was a character worth rooting for, he seemed a bit clueless and immature at times, especially toward the end.
That all being said, I’m looking forward to reading the next book about Wells because I’m not ready to part with these characters just yet.
The story is fully told from Ash’s point of view. Ash is bisexual lead singer of an up and coming rock band who rents an apartment on the beach in California to decompress between touring with the band and recording. He’s single, albeit with a long term friends with benefits situation with his BFF and band mate, Wells. Ash encounters Micah, his neighbor at the rental, and is immediately struck by his appearance and is fascinated by him. Micah is hot and cold with Ash, however, and we learn early, from Ash’s observations, that he must be dealing with something very serious and emotional. Ash is persistent and having had personal experience with trauma, he has a sense of how to help Micah…sometimes. Eventually the men do get together, during which time there is plenty of steam, but it’s not an easy road. There are a number of setbacks on both of their parts before their eventual happily ever after, when they both are “not alone.”
While I enjoyed this story, as with all of Gordon’s books, this one wasn’t my favorite. Micah is a likable character whose challenging plight I could sympathize with. The jealousy related to Ash and Wells’ prior intimate relationship didn’t feel adequately fleshed out though. It seemed too easily resolved, along with Micah’s PTSD. While Ash was a good guy too, who had faced some of his own demons, and overall was a character worth rooting for, he seemed a bit clueless and immature at times, especially toward the end.
That all being said, I’m looking forward to reading the next book about Wells because I’m not ready to part with these characters just yet.
September 25, 2021
I like the story, certainly the first part, after that it dragged on a bit. But for my pleasure it was too widely written, it could have been much shorter.
I couldn’t fully connect with the characters. Their state of mind is quite difficult and the road they are on is bumpy! There is healing and grief, opposites and similarities. The musicians, family, and friends are a good addition.
Even with a few comments, I found the content on itself interesting and captivating, the hurt palpable, the outcome (after a lot of struggle) satisfying!
The meaning behind the title is beautiful!
I couldn’t fully connect with the characters. Their state of mind is quite difficult and the road they are on is bumpy! There is healing and grief, opposites and similarities. The musicians, family, and friends are a good addition.
Even with a few comments, I found the content on itself interesting and captivating, the hurt palpable, the outcome (after a lot of struggle) satisfying!
The meaning behind the title is beautiful!
August 29, 2021
I really liked the beginning and thought I would love the book but unfortunately, some elements made me lower the rating I initially thought I would give.
I had no issue with how Ash and Micah met or even the backstory, it seemed fitting to me and I was eager to read more about them. Ash could be childish sometimes but it wasn't that extreme and he was also supportive and understanding as he had been in the same situation Micah was going through a few years prior.
But as the story progressed, I found myself less invested. Maybe it was because of the writing style, I'm not really sure. I like when there are details but not when there are too much to a point where it feels like the author is trying to stretch out some moments just for the word count.
Or maybe it's because of the way PTSD and Micah's issues were handled (and I'm leaning more toward this answer). It felt rushed and totally unrealistic in a sense that -- speaking from experience -- it just doesn't go away like that, even with help, you can't get rid of those issues in a few weeks, and that's how it felt like reading this book.
Also, there was a lot of smut. Like, a LOT. I'm here for smut, I like it, but with this book I sometimes found myself saying aloud "again?!". I like when smut adds something to the story, which in a lot of cases here, did not. The scenes weren't badly written, though. Just too much.
I give this story an overall 2,5/5.
***I received this book through Gay Romance Review and this is my honest opinion. ***
I had no issue with how Ash and Micah met or even the backstory, it seemed fitting to me and I was eager to read more about them. Ash could be childish sometimes but it wasn't that extreme and he was also supportive and understanding as he had been in the same situation Micah was going through a few years prior.
But as the story progressed, I found myself less invested. Maybe it was because of the writing style, I'm not really sure. I like when there are details but not when there are too much to a point where it feels like the author is trying to stretch out some moments just for the word count.
Or maybe it's because of the way PTSD and Micah's issues were handled (and I'm leaning more toward this answer). It felt rushed and totally unrealistic in a sense that -- speaking from experience -- it just doesn't go away like that, even with help, you can't get rid of those issues in a few weeks, and that's how it felt like reading this book.
Also, there was a lot of smut. Like, a LOT. I'm here for smut, I like it, but with this book I sometimes found myself saying aloud "again?!". I like when smut adds something to the story, which in a lot of cases here, did not. The scenes weren't badly written, though. Just too much.
I give this story an overall 2,5/5.
***I received this book through Gay Romance Review and this is my honest opinion. ***
May 13, 2025
I enjoy Christie’s books, but this one had a bit too much angst for me. Both Ash and Micah had severe trauma in their past, it’s hard to know which one was worse. Micah’s was most recent, but I had more trouble identifying with him at first. For the first half of the book, until his story came out, I had a really “off” feeling about him, and many of his interactions with Ash left me with an uncomfortable feeling. On the flip side, Ash seemed really shallow to me at the beginning of the book, approaching his initial interactions with Micah with a single-minded goal of a hook-up, but he seemed to read Micah very well, and was empathetic, caring and supportive when he needed to be. Their relationship developed quite quickly, but emotions of both seemed to be all over the place, and the need to be together all the time and the emotional reaction to that not always being possible seemed excessive to me on occasion. I suppose the dependency isn’t unexpected given the trauma both had dealt with, and the aftermath of grief isn’t always neat or easy.
The feelings they had for each other came through as realistic and true, if a bit clingy, especially on Ash’s part, I thought. Everything in their relationship had so much angst to deal with, I got a bit desensitized, but I was invested in their eventual getting together. I was pleased with Micah’s maturity and the way he handled the touring question, and was satisfied at the end.
I did feel sorry for Wells, I thought his feelings for Ash were stronger than Ash’s, but he was very mature about it, being the supportive friend all the way. I do hope his relationship with Noah works out in book two, he deserves a love of his own.
There were some important issues dealt with in this book, drug overdose, suicide, drug dependency, the aftermath of guilt and grief, and the usefulness for therapy to process tragedies like these. I felt these issues were covered with care, concern, compassion and in a realistic way.
Overall, I thought the book was well written, all of the characters were realistic and relatable, the world building at the beach and surrounding area created vivid word pictures in my mind, and the relationship developed into one with the chance to be a long lasting one, all seen from a single point of view (Ash) but with a true sense of what others were thinking and feeling, too.
I received an ARC from the author, and this is my voluntary review.
The feelings they had for each other came through as realistic and true, if a bit clingy, especially on Ash’s part, I thought. Everything in their relationship had so much angst to deal with, I got a bit desensitized, but I was invested in their eventual getting together. I was pleased with Micah’s maturity and the way he handled the touring question, and was satisfied at the end.
I did feel sorry for Wells, I thought his feelings for Ash were stronger than Ash’s, but he was very mature about it, being the supportive friend all the way. I do hope his relationship with Noah works out in book two, he deserves a love of his own.
There were some important issues dealt with in this book, drug overdose, suicide, drug dependency, the aftermath of guilt and grief, and the usefulness for therapy to process tragedies like these. I felt these issues were covered with care, concern, compassion and in a realistic way.
Overall, I thought the book was well written, all of the characters were realistic and relatable, the world building at the beach and surrounding area created vivid word pictures in my mind, and the relationship developed into one with the chance to be a long lasting one, all seen from a single point of view (Ash) but with a true sense of what others were thinking and feeling, too.
I received an ARC from the author, and this is my voluntary review.
May 15, 2025
This book is outstanding in its delivery of some very challenging themes. Those who know they can be triggered, read the blurbs carefully but know that Christie Gordon is attentive to detail, the comfort of her reader and wraps it all around a love story for the ages.
Ash is lead singer in an indie rock band, Micah a coder. In many ways complete opposites and yet also not, there are some breathtaking moments when one is lost in the grief of their past only to find their way back because the other has had a similar experience and knows they have been able to continue. When the pair meet it is not sparks flying but an innate feeling of rightness that Ash feels. Neither of them are willing to open up to the other too quickly at the outset but they cannot deny the strength of the attraction and nor should they, after all we need a good love story. There are fights, misunderstandings but what this pair show us is that no matter what is said in the heat of a moment there are more words that can be said later which will soothe feelings, even souls.
Neither man is very experienced with feelings, with love, but love is something that takes hold of them both. It takes them out to the waves for surfing, on hikes in the woods. It encourages Ash to support Micah when his therapist suggests a difficult task, it is Micah’s smile when Ash most needs it, they fit. They fit with one another’s friends to, there are bonfires on the beach for that! What we know, what they know but are finding it hard to mention is that Ash happens to be renting the apartment across from Micah on a temporary break between tours. He firstly has to go back to the studio, then on the road and Micah will be going back to work. More angst is on the horizon for them as the story continues to unfold but more talking, real talking is too.
A powerful love story with layers of meaning. A story that we can all learn from and one we can (and should) lose ourselves in too. Can’t wait to read the next book!
Ash is lead singer in an indie rock band, Micah a coder. In many ways complete opposites and yet also not, there are some breathtaking moments when one is lost in the grief of their past only to find their way back because the other has had a similar experience and knows they have been able to continue. When the pair meet it is not sparks flying but an innate feeling of rightness that Ash feels. Neither of them are willing to open up to the other too quickly at the outset but they cannot deny the strength of the attraction and nor should they, after all we need a good love story. There are fights, misunderstandings but what this pair show us is that no matter what is said in the heat of a moment there are more words that can be said later which will soothe feelings, even souls.
Neither man is very experienced with feelings, with love, but love is something that takes hold of them both. It takes them out to the waves for surfing, on hikes in the woods. It encourages Ash to support Micah when his therapist suggests a difficult task, it is Micah’s smile when Ash most needs it, they fit. They fit with one another’s friends to, there are bonfires on the beach for that! What we know, what they know but are finding it hard to mention is that Ash happens to be renting the apartment across from Micah on a temporary break between tours. He firstly has to go back to the studio, then on the road and Micah will be going back to work. More angst is on the horizon for them as the story continues to unfold but more talking, real talking is too.
A powerful love story with layers of meaning. A story that we can all learn from and one we can (and should) lose ourselves in too. Can’t wait to read the next book!
May 5, 2025
Ash & Micah
This book was a highly emotional read. I loved both Ash and Micah and how their characters were written, but my heart broke several times throughout this book because of what they had both gone through in their lives.
Ash was an amazing support system for Micah, even well before he knew the extent of why he was supporting him. Both men experienced more in their young lives than they should have had to, but their perseverance to survive and thrive is beautiful.
Micah experiences such a shift of character from the beginning to the end of this story. He goes through so much, and pushes himself more than he should at times that scares others. Ash's support and love definitely saved him more than once. I was really happy to see that both men had supportive families to help them get through what was necessary.
I loved that Ash's band is a supportive and mostly well-behaved group. There's no doubts about their friendship, and there's no drama between the members like so many other stories out there. They help each other make and share beautiful music. The song Ash eventual writes for Micah is very powerful and beautiful. I wish it were easier to convey a melody in the book, but even reading it as a poem was perfect.
I loved Not Alone, and I'm glad I got to experience the connection and relationship between Ash & Micah. Their happiness was a challenge for them to find, but all the more rewarding when it begins to show.
I look forward to the next story(ies?) that Christie hints at with the other characters in this little found family.
I received an authorized copy of this book and am volunteering my honest review.
This book was a highly emotional read. I loved both Ash and Micah and how their characters were written, but my heart broke several times throughout this book because of what they had both gone through in their lives.
Ash was an amazing support system for Micah, even well before he knew the extent of why he was supporting him. Both men experienced more in their young lives than they should have had to, but their perseverance to survive and thrive is beautiful.
Micah experiences such a shift of character from the beginning to the end of this story. He goes through so much, and pushes himself more than he should at times that scares others. Ash's support and love definitely saved him more than once. I was really happy to see that both men had supportive families to help them get through what was necessary.
I loved that Ash's band is a supportive and mostly well-behaved group. There's no doubts about their friendship, and there's no drama between the members like so many other stories out there. They help each other make and share beautiful music. The song Ash eventual writes for Micah is very powerful and beautiful. I wish it were easier to convey a melody in the book, but even reading it as a poem was perfect.
I loved Not Alone, and I'm glad I got to experience the connection and relationship between Ash & Micah. Their happiness was a challenge for them to find, but all the more rewarding when it begins to show.
I look forward to the next story(ies?) that Christie hints at with the other characters in this little found family.
I received an authorized copy of this book and am volunteering my honest review.
May 7, 2025
This is book one in the author’s The Swarm series about an alternative rock group and features Ash, the group’s lead singer with a tender heart for anyone suffering. When he saw the beautiful boy, devastated and obviously grieving, he could barely look away, much less stay away despite being asked over and over. Dreaming of a future with Micah, regardless of how unlikely it was with the way Micah seemed to feel towards him, Ash refused to give up hope, instead, comforting him at every turn and proving he would be there for him no matter what.
This was the sweetest book! With the way it started off, after everything Micah had gone through, I would never have guessed that Ash would be the MC that was the most sensitive but he was! He was the sweetest, most devoted MMC that I’ve read in a long time—never ashamed to let his feelings show…he was the book boyfriend every woman will wish was theirs (not that he’d have any one of us 🤣).
Seriously, this is a must read! I will admit to being a little worried there for a while, how it could ever end with an HEA. The closer I got to 100% without a clear resolution in sight, the more concerned I got that it might end in a cliffhanger but I should’ve known the author wouldn’t do that to me. I finally got my HEA (it was actually more of an HFN but I have an imagination perfectly honed by the thousands of HEAs I’ve read over time 😄) and loved every second of it, I think other readers will too. 5 stars!
I received a copy of this book for free but am voluntarily leaving a review.
This was the sweetest book! With the way it started off, after everything Micah had gone through, I would never have guessed that Ash would be the MC that was the most sensitive but he was! He was the sweetest, most devoted MMC that I’ve read in a long time—never ashamed to let his feelings show…he was the book boyfriend every woman will wish was theirs (not that he’d have any one of us 🤣).
Seriously, this is a must read! I will admit to being a little worried there for a while, how it could ever end with an HEA. The closer I got to 100% without a clear resolution in sight, the more concerned I got that it might end in a cliffhanger but I should’ve known the author wouldn’t do that to me. I finally got my HEA (it was actually more of an HFN but I have an imagination perfectly honed by the thousands of HEAs I’ve read over time 😄) and loved every second of it, I think other readers will too. 5 stars!
I received a copy of this book for free but am voluntarily leaving a review.
May 8, 2025
I love a good rockstar story, just as good as a hockey story in my book!
Ash showed us early on that he went after what he wanted, and what he wanted was Micah. He had all the confidence in the world and pushed hard to land his guy. When we meet Micah, his is broken, miserable, and a bit mean. All Micah wanted to do was hide. Once Ash broke through Micah's walls, the couple started building a relationship where they trusted and relied on one another starting with Ash supporting Micah. Ash really helped him on his journey to recovery from both his PTSD and his prescription drug use. Once Micah started getting stronger, the support shifted to Ash as they settled into everyday life as he started to miss Micha and the time they had together at the start of their relationship. In the end, I think Micah came out stronger. Both characters worlds were so different, but they made it work despite the odds.
I really enjoyed this story; I give it a 4.5. I took .5 away because of Ash's over the top clingy-ness in the last few chapters. I wish Ash was a bit stronger when they were separated, to turn to alcohol that heavily because he couldn't physically see and touch Micah seemed a bit over the top. It was almost like they broke up. I felt like he guilted Micah a bit into joining him by his over-the-top behavior and I didn't like that. I wish Micah made the move to join him on his own. Otherwise, this (sort of) insta love story was really enjoyable and I look forward to the rest of the series!
Ash showed us early on that he went after what he wanted, and what he wanted was Micah. He had all the confidence in the world and pushed hard to land his guy. When we meet Micah, his is broken, miserable, and a bit mean. All Micah wanted to do was hide. Once Ash broke through Micah's walls, the couple started building a relationship where they trusted and relied on one another starting with Ash supporting Micah. Ash really helped him on his journey to recovery from both his PTSD and his prescription drug use. Once Micah started getting stronger, the support shifted to Ash as they settled into everyday life as he started to miss Micha and the time they had together at the start of their relationship. In the end, I think Micah came out stronger. Both characters worlds were so different, but they made it work despite the odds.
I really enjoyed this story; I give it a 4.5. I took .5 away because of Ash's over the top clingy-ness in the last few chapters. I wish Ash was a bit stronger when they were separated, to turn to alcohol that heavily because he couldn't physically see and touch Micah seemed a bit over the top. It was almost like they broke up. I felt like he guilted Micah a bit into joining him by his over-the-top behavior and I didn't like that. I wish Micah made the move to join him on his own. Otherwise, this (sort of) insta love story was really enjoyable and I look forward to the rest of the series!
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May 15, 2025
In the first book in The Swarm series, we meet Ash, the lead singer of a rising rock band, who finds himself compelled to help a broken young man named Micah. Set against a backdrop of music and healing, the story unfolds on a beach, where Ash’s deep sense of empathy leads him to Micah, a talented software engineer scarred by a tragic incident.
Micah’s journey consists of grappling with a past that haunts him. He feels unworthy of love and healing. As Ash strives to lift Micah from his despair, readers witness their evolving relationship’s raw and vulnerable nature. Both young men have faced the specter of death, which shapes their perspectives on life and connection.
This book introduces a diverse set of characters surrounding Ash and Micah. From the supportive band members to Micah’s loyal friends, each character brings depth and relatability to the narrative. The intertwining stories highlight their struggles and triumphs, making it a joy for the readers to invest in their journeys. The emotional dynamics and healing process unfold vividly, setting the stage for personal growth.
The first in this duology of the Swarm series promises a captivating exploration of love, hope, and the search for healing within oneself and others. Readers can look forward to engaging with these characters as their stories unfold, anticipating the inevitable sequel.
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Micah’s journey consists of grappling with a past that haunts him. He feels unworthy of love and healing. As Ash strives to lift Micah from his despair, readers witness their evolving relationship’s raw and vulnerable nature. Both young men have faced the specter of death, which shapes their perspectives on life and connection.
This book introduces a diverse set of characters surrounding Ash and Micah. From the supportive band members to Micah’s loyal friends, each character brings depth and relatability to the narrative. The intertwining stories highlight their struggles and triumphs, making it a joy for the readers to invest in their journeys. The emotional dynamics and healing process unfold vividly, setting the stage for personal growth.
The first in this duology of the Swarm series promises a captivating exploration of love, hope, and the search for healing within oneself and others. Readers can look forward to engaging with these characters as their stories unfold, anticipating the inevitable sequel.
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May 19, 2025
Whew…talk about a book PACKED with angst! This book was full of it, from start to finish.
Ash is the lead singer of an up and coming rock band. He’s out in Cali for a bit to do some relaxing and recharging before everything with the band takes off full force again. Ash had lost his brother to an overdose and still struggles with that memory.
Micah….oh man. He is a very troubled and hurt young man. He has been through a lot and is still dealing and trying to heal. He is pushing everyone away and letting prescription medication numb him.
Ash and Micah are neighbors and do not start out on the best foot. Ash decides he is going to try surfing and Micah is there and not being the nicest or most helpful. But deep down there is an attraction. Ash is not able to stay away, despite the times Micah pushed him away and isn’t the most pleasant company. Ash wants to help heal him and be there for him, but with his history of his brother and Micah using prescription drugs to cope, will it work out?
The two go through so much pain and healing together. They are tested at every single turn. But the two form a really strong bond and connection. Ash has always had relationships with men and women, but he hasn’t told his parents. And now they him and Micah are going to be coming out, it’s time.
The healing in this book was beautiful. It took awhile and there was a lot of hurt and anger to get through, but when things started to fall into place, it was a good thing.
3.75⭐️
2.5🌶️
Ash is the lead singer of an up and coming rock band. He’s out in Cali for a bit to do some relaxing and recharging before everything with the band takes off full force again. Ash had lost his brother to an overdose and still struggles with that memory.
Micah….oh man. He is a very troubled and hurt young man. He has been through a lot and is still dealing and trying to heal. He is pushing everyone away and letting prescription medication numb him.
Ash and Micah are neighbors and do not start out on the best foot. Ash decides he is going to try surfing and Micah is there and not being the nicest or most helpful. But deep down there is an attraction. Ash is not able to stay away, despite the times Micah pushed him away and isn’t the most pleasant company. Ash wants to help heal him and be there for him, but with his history of his brother and Micah using prescription drugs to cope, will it work out?
The two go through so much pain and healing together. They are tested at every single turn. But the two form a really strong bond and connection. Ash has always had relationships with men and women, but he hasn’t told his parents. And now they him and Micah are going to be coming out, it’s time.
The healing in this book was beautiful. It took awhile and there was a lot of hurt and anger to get through, but when things started to fall into place, it was a good thing.
3.75⭐️
2.5🌶️
May 18, 2025
Not Alone is a the first book in the series about an up-and-coming music band called The Swarm. Ash is the lead singer who decides to head to the California coast to recharge and settle himself in between recording and touring. He is a little lost and a lot haunted by guilt and loss.
While he is there, he stumbles upon his next-door neighbor, Micah, who captivates him with his good looks but draws Ash in with the pain and suffering that seems to seep out of his pores. This is definitely a hurt/comfort book. As the story progresses the comforting and hurting shift between the characters. I do not want to give any spoilers in a review but I was surprised by a shift in Ashton towards the end of the book, that took me by surprise.
This is also a love story between two people who find each other when they need someone the most. Micah is healing and vulnerable and it shows often in his developing relationship with Ash. His inability to easily trust, enables Ash to slow down and take a look at how he handles things in his own life.
Christie Gordon is a fantastic writer who digs deep into the well of human emotions. This book touches on a lot of sensitive subjects. She handles them with care and consideration for all parties involved. I enjoyed the story and I cannot wait to read book two.
While he is there, he stumbles upon his next-door neighbor, Micah, who captivates him with his good looks but draws Ash in with the pain and suffering that seems to seep out of his pores. This is definitely a hurt/comfort book. As the story progresses the comforting and hurting shift between the characters. I do not want to give any spoilers in a review but I was surprised by a shift in Ashton towards the end of the book, that took me by surprise.
This is also a love story between two people who find each other when they need someone the most. Micah is healing and vulnerable and it shows often in his developing relationship with Ash. His inability to easily trust, enables Ash to slow down and take a look at how he handles things in his own life.
Christie Gordon is a fantastic writer who digs deep into the well of human emotions. This book touches on a lot of sensitive subjects. She handles them with care and consideration for all parties involved. I enjoyed the story and I cannot wait to read book two.
August 27, 2021
I seriously wanted to give this a higher rating but unfortunately the story fell short in several areas. Ash is the lead singer of an up and coming rock band. Micah is his broody next door neighbor. This author actually set the characters up fairly well. Each had a good back story and I liked how they met and started their tentative friendship. Here is where everything moved at warp speed and where my problems with the story occurred. Ash was a at times understanding then could be demanding. He wanted what he wanted and at a couple points I was waiting for him to stomp his feet and have temper tantrum. Micah had serious medical issues that needed taking care of. The author basically glossed over these issues. They were dealt with in a matter of a week or two and then they were over. PTSD doesn’t work that way and I had difficult time getting past this. With all these problems this wasn’t my biggest problem, the biggest problem for me was the amount of sex scenes. They’d fight, then have sex. They’d surf, then have sex. They’d vacuum, then have sex. I’ve very rarely said this but this book had way to many sex scenes. This book would have benefited from good beta readers who would have helped the author tighten up this story and give it continuity.
May 6, 2025
A lovely romance between surf, music and depression.
Ash and Micah meet on the beach as neighbors, and their first exchanges are acerbic and unpleasant. But little by little, they come to terms with each other, the difficult exchanges of the beginning in fact revealing a deep malaise in Micah.
Ash and Micah are different, and they balance each other out. We like to see their strengths and weaknesses counterbalanced and even reversed.
A beautiful relationship takes shape between them, with a slowness and gentleness that are necessary given past events. They learn to rely on each other, and their relationship helps them to grow and heal.
A beautiful love story with a healthy dose of spice.
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Une jolie romance entre surf, musique et dépression.
Ash et Micah se rencontrent sur la plage, voisins, les premiers échanges sont acerbes et déplaisants. Mais peu à peu ils s'apprivoisent, les échanges difficiles du début, dévoilant en fait un profond mal être pour Micah.
Ash et Micah, sont différents et s'équilibrent. On aime les forces et les faiblesses de chacun se contre-balancer et même s'inverser.
Une belle relation qui se dessine entre eux avec une lenteur et une douceur nécessaire vu les évènements passés. Ils apprennent à s'appuyer l'un sur l'autre et à leur relation les aides à grandir et guérir.
Une belle histoire d'amour avec une bonne dose épicée.
Ash and Micah meet on the beach as neighbors, and their first exchanges are acerbic and unpleasant. But little by little, they come to terms with each other, the difficult exchanges of the beginning in fact revealing a deep malaise in Micah.
Ash and Micah are different, and they balance each other out. We like to see their strengths and weaknesses counterbalanced and even reversed.
A beautiful relationship takes shape between them, with a slowness and gentleness that are necessary given past events. They learn to rely on each other, and their relationship helps them to grow and heal.
A beautiful love story with a healthy dose of spice.
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Une jolie romance entre surf, musique et dépression.
Ash et Micah se rencontrent sur la plage, voisins, les premiers échanges sont acerbes et déplaisants. Mais peu à peu ils s'apprivoisent, les échanges difficiles du début, dévoilant en fait un profond mal être pour Micah.
Ash et Micah, sont différents et s'équilibrent. On aime les forces et les faiblesses de chacun se contre-balancer et même s'inverser.
Une belle relation qui se dessine entre eux avec une lenteur et une douceur nécessaire vu les évènements passés. Ils apprennent à s'appuyer l'un sur l'autre et à leur relation les aides à grandir et guérir.
Une belle histoire d'amour avec une bonne dose épicée.
May 13, 2025
This one had all the feels—trauma, love, steam, and a whole lot of emotional highs and lows.
Not Alone follows Ash, a bisexual rock singer decompressing at a beach rental between tours, and Micah, his mysterious, emotionally guarded neighbour. The story is told entirely from Ash’s POV, and their slow-burn connection is full of push and pull, heartbreak, and eventual healing. Ash, who has his own past with trauma, is drawn to Micah’s pain and does his best to help, even if he stumbles along the way.
There’s plenty of steam, some sweet moments, and a bumpy road to their happily ever after—but for me, the story started to drag in the second half. While Micah’s struggle was compelling, the handling of his PTSD felt rushed and a bit too neatly wrapped up. Same with the tension surrounding Ash’s past relationship with his bandmate Wells—it never really hit the emotional depth I was hoping for.
Ash had his charms, and I appreciated his persistence and empathy, but he came off a little immature at times, especially toward the end. Still, I was invested enough in these characters to want more—especially Wells. I’m definitely curious to read his book next.
I thought the story had a beautiful message and a satisfying ending. It just didn’t fully connect for me the way I hoped.
Not Alone follows Ash, a bisexual rock singer decompressing at a beach rental between tours, and Micah, his mysterious, emotionally guarded neighbour. The story is told entirely from Ash’s POV, and their slow-burn connection is full of push and pull, heartbreak, and eventual healing. Ash, who has his own past with trauma, is drawn to Micah’s pain and does his best to help, even if he stumbles along the way.
There’s plenty of steam, some sweet moments, and a bumpy road to their happily ever after—but for me, the story started to drag in the second half. While Micah’s struggle was compelling, the handling of his PTSD felt rushed and a bit too neatly wrapped up. Same with the tension surrounding Ash’s past relationship with his bandmate Wells—it never really hit the emotional depth I was hoping for.
Ash had his charms, and I appreciated his persistence and empathy, but he came off a little immature at times, especially toward the end. Still, I was invested enough in these characters to want more—especially Wells. I’m definitely curious to read his book next.
I thought the story had a beautiful message and a satisfying ending. It just didn’t fully connect for me the way I hoped.
August 27, 2021
This one packs a punch ladies and gents. The story of Micah and Ash is not for the faint of heart but it will definitely give you ALL THE FEELS. I normally gravitate towards less serious stories but I love a good angsty love story every now and then. This book is so good. This author really captured all of the feelings that go with healing from a devastating event and a gut wrenching loss. Both men have lost someone near to them. Ash watched his beloved brother get lost in the whole “sex, drugs, and rock and roll” stereotype while performing with their band. Losing him almost destroyed Ash. When he meets Micah and realizes what he is struggling with, he comes close to walking away but there is something about the other man that just draws him closer. As they become closer, both men have to figure out how they will make everything work, especially as they realize what being together means with Ash’s career. I absolutely LOVED this book. It made me root for these guys to find their HEA. Amazing story and I highly recommend it!
August 31, 2021
Ash and Micah's journey to being together was emotionally fraught. As their story unfolds we understand why it was. They both are struggling with big issues and both are relatively young and at times seemed overwhelmed by the issues that they are working through. Ash is not only the lead singer for an up and coming rock band, but he is still mourning the loss of his brother who was a casualty of the rock and roll lifestyle that he is still living. Micah is dealing with some serious PTSD and is not sure how to cope and move forward so he has just kind of stopped. They are two young men in need of healing and in need of a reason to believe that they can. They go through a lot of ups and downs to get to the point where they believe they can be each other's person and that they will be alright. They land at a place where they come to realize that loving one another gives them the strength to work through what they have to to be there for one another and to never have to be alone. I enjoyed this emotional read.
I received an ARC from GRR for an honest review.
I received an ARC from GRR for an honest review.
May 8, 2025
Micah + Ash
"He was a beautiful, unattainable mystery."
A beautiful story of love, support, and perseverance toward healing and finding the one who can help you through it all.
Ash and Micah crash into each other at the beach and the waves never stop. Ash is taking a much deserved break at the beach after the Swarm wrap up their most recent tour. Micah is scared and distraught from a recent traumatic event in his life that has made him run to the beach to try to restore his soul.
Their budding friendship starts to grow into more. Ash has thrown himself in all the way and much faster than even he expected. Micah is hesitant because of his past.
Both men's emotional journeys keep leading them back to each other one emotional wave after another. Ash's growing fame and Micah's tragic past collide and almost break them both. But through the continued support of friends and each other they make it to their hard sought HEA.
I received an ARC of this book. Nothing was given or promised in exchange for this review.
"He was a beautiful, unattainable mystery."
A beautiful story of love, support, and perseverance toward healing and finding the one who can help you through it all.
Ash and Micah crash into each other at the beach and the waves never stop. Ash is taking a much deserved break at the beach after the Swarm wrap up their most recent tour. Micah is scared and distraught from a recent traumatic event in his life that has made him run to the beach to try to restore his soul.
Their budding friendship starts to grow into more. Ash has thrown himself in all the way and much faster than even he expected. Micah is hesitant because of his past.
Both men's emotional journeys keep leading them back to each other one emotional wave after another. Ash's growing fame and Micah's tragic past collide and almost break them both. But through the continued support of friends and each other they make it to their hard sought HEA.
I received an ARC of this book. Nothing was given or promised in exchange for this review.
May 12, 2025
Not Alone takes place on the California beach coast, and boy is it a bumpy ride. No Dramamine needed, but in certain parts, the reader could use it. Ash, up-and-coming rockstar, takes an apartment on the ocean to relax and unwind from the Swarm's tour. Maybe get some writing done, get his brain ready for the recording studio and learn to surf. Ms Gordon needs to add a CW about DO NOT learn to surf from online videos!
Micah is a software engineer, recovering from the tragedy which has taken over his life. Ash's first impression of him is "how rude". Then he see's Micah's gorgeous face and that's all he can think about.
There's a boatload of angst between the two. Some snark. This is a reluctant friends to reluctant lovers type story. Miscommunications. Just pure heartbreak from their backstories. But there's also the gentle healing that love brings to a relationship.
Christie Gordon never fails. Her characters are always so vivid. This was a book to quickly enjoy.
I received an advanced copy and this is my review.
Micah is a software engineer, recovering from the tragedy which has taken over his life. Ash's first impression of him is "how rude". Then he see's Micah's gorgeous face and that's all he can think about.
There's a boatload of angst between the two. Some snark. This is a reluctant friends to reluctant lovers type story. Miscommunications. Just pure heartbreak from their backstories. But there's also the gentle healing that love brings to a relationship.
Christie Gordon never fails. Her characters are always so vivid. This was a book to quickly enjoy.
I received an advanced copy and this is my review.
May 12, 2025
I loved this book and couldn't put it down. Micah and Ash are neighbours and immediately attracted to each other, but Micah is grieving and in pain, and does not let anyone get close. Ash is persistent and it looks like he'll be able to go through the walls Micah put up. This is a very emotional, intense, roller coaster, with two broken characters who develop a co-dependency relationship. I was swamped by the story and read it in one night.
The reason I did not rate 5 stars is because, there are several unrealistic situations, some issues that seemed to be resolved too quickly and maybe too much detail and repeats of some scenes, making the book longer than it could have been. That being said I still enjoyed and recommend it!
This is the review for the 2025 reedition of the book, that has been rewritten and now is written in first person, with a single POV.
I got an ARC and this is my honest review.
The reason I did not rate 5 stars is because, there are several unrealistic situations, some issues that seemed to be resolved too quickly and maybe too much detail and repeats of some scenes, making the book longer than it could have been. That being said I still enjoyed and recommend it!
This is the review for the 2025 reedition of the book, that has been rewritten and now is written in first person, with a single POV.
I got an ARC and this is my honest review.
May 18, 2025
I loved everything about this story. This story is about two guys Ash and Micah who were made for each other and had an instant connection. Ash is a member of a new rock band and was on a break in a small beach town before his band came together to record some new songs. While there he went to learn how to surf, but he wasn’t at a safe place and a guy Micah told him it wasn’t a safe place to surf but told him where to go to learn how to. Each time Ash went to the beach to surf he found Micah there quietly sitting at the beach watching him. Micah was very quiet but still was there to keep Ash safe (without Ash knowing why he was there). It turns out that Micah was getting away for a break from his life too but he was not in a good mental place to relax. These two guys helped each other out and after some issues between them they ended up together and enjoying life together. I definitely recommend this book to everyone who loves mm rock star romances.
August 25, 2021
3.5 stars A first read for this author with this book.
A good start to the book as Ash setting into a 2 week break from the band at the beach.
A great first meeting between Ash and a hooded stranger. yah they didn't get on at all. This is written from Ash's POV which I would've loved both to connect to them both in this story.
Micah was going through grief something Ash had done 3 years before with his brother. But wanted to be alone but try tell Ash that.lol Micah is a mess of emotions and Ash helps him. The story includes a story of a deceased brother of herion overdose. Coincidences as deaths feature in this heavy for both of them.
A good story with this one to enjoy with a freinds to lovers theme, dislike, Bi-sexual, pop star for a HEA.
*I received a GRR advanced readers copy and this is my honest thoughts.
A good start to the book as Ash setting into a 2 week break from the band at the beach.
A great first meeting between Ash and a hooded stranger. yah they didn't get on at all. This is written from Ash's POV which I would've loved both to connect to them both in this story.
Micah was going through grief something Ash had done 3 years before with his brother. But wanted to be alone but try tell Ash that.lol Micah is a mess of emotions and Ash helps him. The story includes a story of a deceased brother of herion overdose. Coincidences as deaths feature in this heavy for both of them.
A good story with this one to enjoy with a freinds to lovers theme, dislike, Bi-sexual, pop star for a HEA.
*I received a GRR advanced readers copy and this is my honest thoughts.
September 1, 2021
Not Alone is a solid read about two main characters, that have to overcome some demons.
Be aware that the book deals with the topics of suicide, drug overdose, and PTSD.
Ash is the lead singer of an up-and-coming rock band. In a break between touring and recording, he rents a flat at the sea, where he meets his mysterious and surly neighbor, Micah. Ash is directly attracted to Micah, but he seems to have a rough time.
I liked the characters. Their backstories were developed quite nicely and you could relate to them.
What bothered me a bit was that the issues were resolved quite easily. This didn’t seem very realistic, as PTSD does not resolve itself that fast as portrayed in the story.
But all in all a solid read.
*I received this book as an ARC. I chose to leave an honest review.*
Be aware that the book deals with the topics of suicide, drug overdose, and PTSD.
Ash is the lead singer of an up-and-coming rock band. In a break between touring and recording, he rents a flat at the sea, where he meets his mysterious and surly neighbor, Micah. Ash is directly attracted to Micah, but he seems to have a rough time.
I liked the characters. Their backstories were developed quite nicely and you could relate to them.
What bothered me a bit was that the issues were resolved quite easily. This didn’t seem very realistic, as PTSD does not resolve itself that fast as portrayed in the story.
But all in all a solid read.
*I received this book as an ARC. I chose to leave an honest review.*
May 12, 2025
Ahh this book was intense but I was ready for the emotions. Micah and Ash meet under unusual circumstances…they are neighbors but Micah isn’t friendly. Ash is a rockstar and he’s on a break after a tour and he meets his moody neighbor but gets an instant connection. Micah is dealing with a very traumatic experience and trying to cope with it. Ash sees the signs of grief as he has experienced that due is brother and he tries very hard to break down Micah’s walls. Once he does he is there for Micah through everything until it’s time to go on tour again. Micah is work focused but doesn’t see that he’s hurting Ash by being like that. After a fateful night Micah has his eyes opened to the fact that he NOW needs to be there for Ash like Ash was for him.
This was a beautiful story about how grief can take many forms and how sometimes the last person you expects can help you through it.
This was a beautiful story about how grief can take many forms and how sometimes the last person you expects can help you through it.
May 21, 2025
Ash is taking a well deserved break after his last band tour, all he wants is to spend time alone, try to learn to surf and write a few songs. What he doesn't count on is his neighbour Micah.
Reading this book there is a rollercoaster of emotions as the story handles the trauma dealt with both MCs, their stories were handled sensitively.
At the start it took me a while to warm up to Micah as he was running hot and cold with Ash but as more of his story is revealed I understood why he was like this.
There is insta attraction on both sides but as they need to work through their pain, it is more of a slow burn. Ash is a surprisingly caring character who does so much for Micah and you can tell when he knows that Micah is the one. However I did feel sorry for Wells and his is the story I now want to read.
The title means so much more after I have now read the book
Reading this book there is a rollercoaster of emotions as the story handles the trauma dealt with both MCs, their stories were handled sensitively.
At the start it took me a while to warm up to Micah as he was running hot and cold with Ash but as more of his story is revealed I understood why he was like this.
There is insta attraction on both sides but as they need to work through their pain, it is more of a slow burn. Ash is a surprisingly caring character who does so much for Micah and you can tell when he knows that Micah is the one. However I did feel sorry for Wells and his is the story I now want to read.
The title means so much more after I have now read the book
May 4, 2025
It not every day that I find a book that makes gives me the feels like this one did. I had to put it down several times just because I needed a breather. Ash has been through the death of his beloved brother and dealt with the grief caused by this event. Micah has recently experience a terrifying event, which has left him profoundly shaken. This is where I needed to step away for a while to decide if I was going to finish the story. The like/dislike dynamic between the two was fun but Ash does come across as overbearing at times. Some of the imitate scenes where not really necessary and just seemed to be added randomly to fill pages. The outcome was exactly what you would expect. Well written story.
May 4, 2025
What did I think of this story?
Where do I start?
How about the angst that Micah has gone through? How about the heartbreak Ash is dealing with still after all this time about Logan?
How about them trying to figure things out together but apart for some of it?
They had to work around each of their
past tragedies.
They had to trust in each other when apart and know that they were it for each other.
So much going on and the emotional roller coaster of their story was both exhilarating and exhausting at the same time.
I refuse to give plot points away. I believe that the reader deserves to experience everything for themselves.
All I will say is that I enjoyed their love story very, very much.
Where do I start?
How about the angst that Micah has gone through? How about the heartbreak Ash is dealing with still after all this time about Logan?
How about them trying to figure things out together but apart for some of it?
They had to work around each of their
past tragedies.
They had to trust in each other when apart and know that they were it for each other.
So much going on and the emotional roller coaster of their story was both exhilarating and exhausting at the same time.
I refuse to give plot points away. I believe that the reader deserves to experience everything for themselves.
All I will say is that I enjoyed their love story very, very much.
May 6, 2025
Not Alone by Christie Gordon is about Ash and Micah. Ash, lead singer for The Swarm, coming off of tour needed a break to regroup before they start recording their new album. Micah, a software engineer, is recovering from a tragedy that he needed to get away. When Ash comes upon Micah at the beach, he is struck how beautiful and how profoundly sad he is. All Ash wants to do is protect and love Micah. As Ash winds himself into Micah’s heart will he be strong enough to be the boyfriend of a burgeoning rock star he will have to trust himself and be strong to be who he wants to be and that’s Ash’s boyfriend. This was a complicated and rollercoaster of emotions that Christie takes you on. I enjoyed this sotey very much and can’t wait to read the next installment.
May 6, 2025
NOT ALONE - CHRISTIE GORDON
I know it was described as renewed, but since it was my first read, I will just say that Christie Gordon always writes a fantastic story. The characters intrigue the reader from the first page, and the background story continues to engage you so you want to know what is going to happen next.
Micah and Ash have enough similarities to build the friendship, and it quickly develops as their attraction for one another grows. There is a lot of emotion and some drama, but they truly do love one another and work out a way to keep their relationship strong even with busy careers and being away from each other.
If Christie Gordon isn’t on your author’s list, she should be! She is as authentic as you get.
I know it was described as renewed, but since it was my first read, I will just say that Christie Gordon always writes a fantastic story. The characters intrigue the reader from the first page, and the background story continues to engage you so you want to know what is going to happen next.
Micah and Ash have enough similarities to build the friendship, and it quickly develops as their attraction for one another grows. There is a lot of emotion and some drama, but they truly do love one another and work out a way to keep their relationship strong even with busy careers and being away from each other.
If Christie Gordon isn’t on your author’s list, she should be! She is as authentic as you get.
August 30, 2021
Rounded up from 3.5
MIcah and Ash's lives have each been impacted by tragedies, and neither of them is particularly healthy when they run into each other, but something draws them together. That something kept me reading the book, even when it dragged a bit in places and even though the characters seemed to be younger than their stated ages.
Told in third person, past tense, single POV - which works well for this story - the romance is a slow burn because of what the characters have been through. It's moderate heat level, but it has a HEA and some great surfing scenes on the Northern California coast.
MIcah and Ash's lives have each been impacted by tragedies, and neither of them is particularly healthy when they run into each other, but something draws them together. That something kept me reading the book, even when it dragged a bit in places and even though the characters seemed to be younger than their stated ages.
Told in third person, past tense, single POV - which works well for this story - the romance is a slow burn because of what the characters have been through. It's moderate heat level, but it has a HEA and some great surfing scenes on the Northern California coast.
May 6, 2025
i love it. this story is exactly what can happen when you are in the right place at the right time. with his past dealing with his brother and seeing Micah doing stuff that triggered him and instead of running or falling hard he helped and was there when Micah needed him the most. how they couldn't stand to stand to be away from each other shows how much their bond and love couldn't and wouldn't let them stay away. the song he did for Micah is very beautiful and shows that he wont go through stuff alone. moral of this story (in my opinion) is by helping someone without expecting anything back you can gain a friend or significant other. keep up the great work and looking forward to more.
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