In my search for a cozy, gay, werewolf romance, The Mark of Amulii was recommended to me. Naturally, when I picked up the audiobook, I was expecting it to be just that.
What I didn't expect was that it's basically a lighter version of A Little Life... but with werewolves. While The Mark of Amulii doesn’t go as deep into existential dread and long-term psychological decay, it definitely plays with similar emotional beats as A Little Life: Abuse stacked on abuse, moments of peace being short-lived, love and healing sparked after devastating lows, a protagonist who attempts suicide and is later brought back and finally, a central relationship marked by flaws, miscommunication, and trauma bonding.
Still, after finishing The Mark of Amulii, it left a bittersweet ache in my chest. This book was… a ride with a lot more emotional whiplash than I expected - but I couldn't stop reading (or, in this case, listening).
To start with the writing - it's immersive without being try-hard. A refreshing break from all the overdone isekai slop I’ve been consuming lately. The prose flowed nicely, the actions had weight, and the characters felt real and fleshed out (even when they were infuriating, which was a lot of the time). I listened to the audiobook version narrated by Creighton Bristow, who did a solid job with unique voices, but he had a habit of delivering dialogue with an annoyed, almost angry tone. It added to the tension but maybe skewed the tone a bit, making some conversations feel more hostile than they were meant to be (?).
The relationship between Alex and Amulii was a constant back and forth argument for most of the book.
For starters, Amulii (an adult) is a liar who tricked Alex (a 17 y.o.) into having sex with him (there's a word for that) and eventually forming a relationship (?) with him. He forced the werewolf change upon Alex through manipulation and for his own pleasure essentially. After a certain point, Alex had a "choice" to either turn into a blood-thirsty, crazed beast, or form a bond with Amulii.... All that because Amulii was obsessed with finding a... subservient human mate to be with, because apparently his, now dead, dad wanted him to...
It's pretty bad how, nearing the end of the book, Alex essentially has three choices: become a monster and kill everyone, form the bond and live in constant pain and suffering (or attempt suicide again..), or develop Stockholm Syndrome.
On the other hand, Alex has issues on his own. Sure, he was given a pretty shitty hand in life, but he's also got anger issues. He keeps poking at Amulii—taunting him, escalating things - and then acts shocked and angry whenever Amulii snaps back...
Their attraction felt purely sexual, with little emotional grounding. Heck, after their first physical encounter, Alex reflects that their relationship now has a “foundation” to build on... aka, sex.
But credit where it’s due: there is character growth. The main saving grace of this book and the thing that makes it an actually good read is that the characters all well aware of ALL the issues I mentioned above! They come up naturally, they discuss them and they try to work things out despite the awful situations they find themselves (Alex especially). The issues are not swept under the rug as something to be overlooked and I was glad they didn't cause I'd probably have dropped the book if they did.
By the end, both Amulii and Alex recognize their flaws and begin to work on them. Their bond, however messy, starts to feel ever so slightly more genuine... Somewhat. It's not that Alex has any choice on the matter anyway... Despite that, Alex admits that he has indeed fallen in love with Amulii. So, whatever I guess.
Now... to summarise the iffy bits.
• Alex is 17, while Amulii is mentally in his 20s - but actually 80. The book handwaves this with werewolf aging being different, but it still felt weird. Making Alex 18 would’ve made more sense and removed a layer of discomfort that added nothing to the story IMO.
• The “bonding” plot was definitely forced. The idea that Alex has to have sex with Amulii or turn into a mindless killer is... a choice but far from good as far as clear consent goes.
• The pacing leaned into suffering-porn territory. It went like: trauma → brief peace → more trauma → suicide → resurrection → healing → trauma again → chase → bloodbath. It was emotionally exhausting.
Still, I got attached to the characters.
Even asshole Amulii. I almost gave up halfway through, especially during the whole lab-capture arc, but the story pulled itself back from the brink. The ending gave closure and some hope (and a cliffhanger ig), without sugarcoating the struggles. It didn't resolve every issue, but it let the characters grow and try again. That mattered.
I just really wish there had been more cozy scenes at the start - more mystery, more bonding, more vibe. With such good writing, I would’ve eaten up 500 pages of just Alex and Amulii exploring their feelings for eachother in a light-hearted, fun way before everything spiraled into chaos. But even with its flaws, The Mark of Amuliar - *cough* I meant, The Mark of Amulii , was gripping.
I’ll definitely be reading the sequel if it ever comes out. For now, I'll read The Varcross Key and the other works the author has on their Patreon.