He couldn’t talk about it, couldn’t look anyone in the eye, because if he did, he was sure they would see his death there, that shameful snake, and he couldn’t bear the possibility that they might take it away from him.
Son of Sin by Omar Sakr was originally published in Australia in 2022 by Affirm Press and has now been brought to the UK by the87press (see below).
On its original publication it was said to be the first Australian novel by a queer Arab Muslim man.
Our first person narrator Jamal has a similar back as the author explains in his acknowledgements: “First and foremost I would like to thank Jamal, my distant avatar, for carrying the weight of my unreal life. This is a work of fiction, which is to say a stylised and imaginative construct, but the pain I had him shoulder is very real.”
Jamal, born in Australia, has a Lebanese mother and a Turkish father. His mother left him in the care of her sister Rania, his aunt, for the first few years of his life, and he only meets his father in his adolescence, the two families very different:
You’re here now, son. Talk to me, ask me whatever you want. Jamal stared, appalled. The Smiths were a family of unspoken secrets, of the-walls-are-listening sign language: direct speech was abhorred, a profound thing that had to be earned, and which you were never meant to actually earn, at least not while the adults were alive. They wanted to keep their shames secret, as was proper. The Khans were a completely different animal, if his father was any indication. Jamal had come to meet the man on his own terms, to hold him, to show him he could be held, but he had not expected to succeed, had not known what success would even look like, and now he wanted nothing more than to run.
But what both families share is an aversion to homosexuality (more religious on behalf of his mother’s family, and culturally macho on behalf of his father’s) leaving Jamal feel guilt and insecurity, labelling himself as a son of sin (this his first sexual encounter that confirms to him his own sexuality):
He did, more than anything, and still he hesitated. He could hear Rania hissing in his ears, Ta lehon ya ibn haram! Come here you sinful boy! How many times had he heard it? A hundred times, a thousand, more: as a shout promising violence: laced in an affectionate chuckle: a rasp: a whisper almost to herself, an echo as he was lassoed to her from wherever he’d been, a soft song of ibn haram, ibn haram. O you son of sin. His other name, his true lineage. He’d never thought of the words in English, tuned rather to the tone, the sound that could predict future pain, but they unveiled themselves to him as he pulled Bilal’s zipper down. He hurt more than he knew how to express, he was hard in his pants, and he could not move.
And the novel also takes place against the societal backdrop of Australia at the time, notably the 2005 Cronulla Riots when Jamal was a teenager, and where the “Leb” community to which he belongs found itself pitted against the white community, to the 2017 Australian Marriage Law Postal Survey, which while ultimately ending in the endorsement of same sex marriage, brings out the prejudice of others, including his own family.
An impressive novel - powerful, personal and passionate.
The UK publisher
Established in 2018, the87press is an Asian, LGBTQIA+, and neurodiverse led publishing collective and events curator in South London. We prioritize modernism, anti-colonialism, anti-racism, and environmentalism in our print publications of poetry, fiction, and essays. Additionally, we offer educational and creative workshops, industry leading live events, and regular commissioned work with online journal of culture theHythe. Committed to equity, all authors receive fair contracts regardless of their background. As part of Arts Council England's National Portfolio, we contribute to the Let's Create project and look forward to fostering inclusive learning spaces as the only NPO in the London Borough of Sutton.