I am officially a HUGE fan of Ali Benjamin and The Smash-Up was such a fantastic and perfect for me specifically kind of read.
I spent an unusually long time with this book because I had some major health issues going on while I was reading but I genuinely enjoyed getting to walk around inside and be with this story for such an extended amount of time. It’s difficult to write this review because I have so many thoughts. I didn’t always love the subject matter and even think I would’ve set down a book written about this period of time with such vivid description of our own recent hellish past but this author, I truly love her style. It feels familiar to me. There’s a lot of specifics in the tone and voice and level of detail that are similar to my own writing style and kind of have me suspecting the author is neuroatypical as well. I hesitate whether to bring this up but then the neuroatypicality of the young daughter is an important part of the story and I loved this little girl so fiercely because she was so similar to me as a child. She’s described as having ADHD and there are many similarities and a lot of overlap with autism spectrum disorders and with both conditions, we are only just learning what the symptoms even look like in women and girls. I wasn’t diagnosed until I was months shy of my 30th birthday though other women on the spectrum had been counting amongst them for a few years prior. I loved the depiction of Alex so much and much as the parents struggled (and I felt for them and for my own parents) maybe it’s my own outlook and just the thrill of seeing something so familiar in a book (especially because I grew up feeling like an alien and always thought I was the weirdest dang kid!) but I got so much out of the character of Alex and all the ways her neuroatypicality were illustrated and shown to us.
But there’s a certain neuroatypicality to the entire style of this book, in my opinion. I know it because of those similarities to my own fiction writing style. And I want to discuss it this way because I don’t otherwise know how and I’ve noticed through reading other books that the style of this book was kind of divisive amongst readers. Let me offer a perhaps unique look at what I think is going on there. This one is densely detailed. And while I think the historical detail and the choice to write that way about such recent history was an iffy decision and I have more to say on that below, that detail really is present in so many other areas as well. Some would perhaps say (much like my own reviews 😉) that it needs more editing. But that is such a spectrum-y kind of thing. Info dumps and passionate dives into nitty gritty details. And because this is how my mind works as well, I clicked SO well with it. More than that is the tone and voice. Most of the book is told through the husband, Ethan’s perspective and we are sort of in his head but not. There’s a casual tone rather like he’s chatting with you. I’m working on a novel that uses this same sort of voice and a certain sort of distanced first person perspective like this. The neuroatypicality comes in here because while it is a complete myth that folks on the spectrum have no empathy (personally, I subscribe to the “intense world” theory of autism and would argue many of us are hyper sensitive to others emotional states) it is still true that we (as well as people with ADHD and other forms of neurotypicality) sometimes struggle with theory of mind which is the ability to attribute beliefs, intents, emotions, desires, etc to oneself and others. How this shows up is much more complicated and nuanced and perhaps individual but the distanced way we see our characters in this which is so similar to how I write as well, is, I think related to how neuro atypical minds have to really work at interpreting and understanding others as well as sort of learn to serve as our own translators in explaining our own intent and emotions to neurotypical people. I know I personally tend to think in images and pictures first, like many autistics, and then have to translate it into words next. So even as a big reader and writer and someone who tends to express themselves best through writing, it’s still very difficult to use words to put someone inside a characters head. I think these things may be where some of this distance and the sense that the main character is in discussion with you instead of you being right inside their mind comes from. It also perhaps explains the detail. Perhaps, like me, our author is a bit of an over explainer- a trait I know I’ve personally developed because I am so often misinterpreted. Things get explained in a way through Ethan that they perhaps wouldn’t be if you were fully inside his head. This reads more like you’re a trusted confidante he’s confiding in.
Make of that info what you will but perhaps it’s a different way of figuring out if this one will work for or appeal to you. It’s also part of what made reading this one so special to me and there is something about it that really clicked with me on a special and familiar level. Something about the writing felt like coming home or even a little as if it had been written for me. When you spend your life feeling like an alien, it’s kind of magical when you find another of your kind. And for me personally, even if this was never the author or her works intent, so much about this book, both in writing style and content really speaks to my experience and way of looking at the world as an adult woman on the autism spectrum. It also was one of those right book, right time kind of reads for me. I have a notepad full of notes and quotes and thoughts and as I personally work on embracing the positive sides of autism while also accepting and learning to better work with the deficits and difficulties it causes and how much it adds such an extra level of difficulty and challenge to my already extremely difficult life as someone living with and managing a complex and severe life limiting physical illness- there was something to the whole Alex storyline that really spoke to me and even helped me sort through many of my thoughts and feelings and look at things from a different perspective.
I’m tempted to end the review here but there was one major thing that I had very mixed feelings on and that is Benjamin’s choice to really ground this story so deeply into recent US history. Trump’s election, the Women’s March, #MeToo, and especially the Kavanaugh Supreme Court hearing play such an integral roles to the book and it’s plot and I think that’s a difficult thing to do with such recent and heated history. In my opinion Benjamin pulls it off very well, though I did think the ending was maybe a touch preachy.
I’d also be lying (or anything but my autistically blunt and longwinded self!) if I didn’t also put it out there that- This book also serves as a means for the author to preach her views about Trump, the internet and 24/7 news cycle, toxic masculinity, etc. It really does get quite preachy at times. You’ll find it smart and witty if you agree with the views espoused and catch on far sooner that it’s so preachy, if you don’t. Even as someone who largely agrees with the views shared, it got to be a bit much for me too at a couple of points.
I think that’s one of the great difficulties of writing a book so grounded in the politics and culture of a specific time, especially when writing about the contemporary era versus some form of historical fiction. This is a book that has the level of detail someone reading it fifty years from now would really appreciate- detail so specific you couldn’t help but be grounded in a very specific sense of time and place. It reads a bit odd right now though, as it’s much, much too recent. I suspect this is going to be the sort of thing that makes or breaks this book for many readers. I both did and didn’t like it at different points. Sometimes it’s a comfort to read about people struggling with the same reality you’re living through and sometimes it’s offputting and you would rather read to escape. The Smash-Up is definitely NOT an escapist read. But the author is mighty talented and it’s a great commiseration read if you need to commiserate on our current or very recent political and cultural realities.
For me personally, the several weeks I spent slowly savoring it felt like curling under a cozy blanket with a mug of hot cocoa. You can still hear the wind howling outside, feel the chill in the air, and life is undeniably really tough for almost all of us right now. It’s just like that in the book, the comfort but the familiar and difficult realities of the world equally as present. But if nothing else, it’s better to go through the world with a friend at your side and with the blanket and hot cocoa. I really enjoyed the whole up and down and so familiar and fascinating on so many levels journey through the world I took with this one. Recommended if you’re a liberal leaning and politically minded literary fiction fan looking for a book to commiserate and reflect with. Bonus points if you’re neurotypical and love seeing a great portrayal of it in fiction (and maybe you’ll click with the writing style the very special way I did). Many thanks to Ali Benjamin and her characters for being a friend on this journey through the world in a time when friends can be hard to find.