“Sometimes, you have to give in to win.”
I have so many quotes from this book, but I think this one sums it up. Aerosmith say ‘you got to lose to know how to win’, which is absolutely true. But giving in doesn’t mean losing, and it may win you a future you never imagined.
And that is the story of Nash and Dani.
”He was everything I’d ever want staring down at me. Tall, dark, and broody with his dark-green eyes cutting through my body like lasers.”
Nash embodies my ideal hero. The tall, dark, broody man, who would be protective and possessive even if he weren’t a SEAL. The guy who pays attention to any detail. The guy who will always be there for everyone, because he feels there were two times in his life when he wasn’t there for people. And he lost them.
”She was perfect. Everything which called to me about a woman, I found in her. Gentle curves, smart brain, sharp mouth.”
Dani is my ideal heroine. She went through a rough patch, having been sexually assaulted by a sleazeball in an elevator. She’s not a victim. She left her job and she’s struggling, but she knows she’s going to make it through. No self-pity, or self-deprecation. This one’s a fighter.
Also, sidebar, I love that she trains as hard as any man, and is able to hold her own in a fight. Just love it.
”I wondered if she was trying to call my bluff again. To see if I’d call or fold. I’d already folded. I’d folded the moment she’d bawked at me. Maybe before. Maybe I’d folded the very first time she’d ever entered my life with her bright-blue eyes and daredevil smile.”
Having lost his friends in an overseas operation, Nash is broken, maybe beyond repair. His only reprieve is being there for the widow and the daughter of his best friend, one of those who lost his life. To be honest, he’s not really living. He’s barely holding on.
Growing up in a military family, Dani is prepared for most things in life. She wasn’t prepared for what happened to her, though. For feeling fragile or impotent.
And they’re both unprepared for the connection between them.
””I wanted her more than I’d wanted anything else in my life. That meant I had to look at the entirety of my world and, perhaps, reimagine it. Adjust the strategy mid-game. Find the path through the rock-strewn hillside.”
One night, they end up having dinner together. And then there’s a (strip) poker game. None of them is a fan of losing, both of them always up for a challenge. But Dani folds, with a winning hand, which leads to one steamy night, and then they move on. Probably. Maybe.
When Dani accepts a job as a PR rep for country singer Brady O’Neal, that puts her in danger. Suddenly, she's the target of some obsessed stalker. And Nash, of course, comes to the rescue. The suspense background only adds to an already great story.
“Did Nash give those to you?”
I nodded, and she laughed softly.
“Why?” I said, suddenly eyeing the flowers doubtfully.
“They’re camellias,” she said as if it should answer my question.
“Are they? I’m afraid I know absolutely nothing about plants.”
“You don’t know what they mean, then?” she asked.
I shook my head.
“Red and white camellias are given to someone significant to you, and the basic message is, ‘my destiny is in your hands.’”
What comes later is the giving in. Nash needs to let go of everything that’s been weighing him down: the past, his family, his loss. And Dani needs to deal with her own demons in the aftermath of what happened to her.
More than anything, they need to give in the feelings they have for each other.
”He came back, kissed his fingers, and then placed them on my lips.
“Keep this with you until you can give it back to me.”
In the end, it doesn’t matter how damaged or how lost you think you are – the right person can find you, see and love the real you, and put you back together again.
And then some.