"I am deeply, sickeningly, alarmingly obsessed with you". HELLO???
ok wow this book!! I'm gonna try to keep this coherent but I also love this book so much there's not a chance thats gonna happen,, here goes:
WOW!! Let me start by saying how much I freaking ADORE Delaney. From the very first chapter I was hanging onto her every word (thought?), eyes peeled for the next description of her (guaranteed) cute as hell outfit - no pun intended :) I mean, she's an icon, and she is the moment. Stunning. Her development from "glass girl" to someone who literally commands the dead??? growing into herself and her role, discovering who she is and who she's always been??? I ate that UPPPPP!! it was so good, so beautifully written, there were a few specific chapters/scenes that were particularly pivotal in her development and they truly have some of the most eloquently communicated feelings I've ever read about. Seriously, the writing in this book is so distinctly brilliant I have not stopped thinking about it for a week. I really loved how, as we learnt more about the world and what was happening, Laney's part in all of it, we revisited those moments from her childhood and got closure on them!! This book has a special place in my heart for the way I can relate to and felt connected to her, be it her desire for academic achievement, feeling overwhelmed/imposter syndrome, not being able to voice her own needs and boundaries for fear it would make others uncomfortable, and then to see her shed that version of herself and become the person she is at the end (and tbh the one shes always been, she just didn't know it at the start) was v cathartic.
Colton, love of my whole life, I spent the entire book wanting to give him the biggest hug, esp with the scenes when we see him crossing the worlds (literally crossing through hell over and over) to his brother. I can't- that hurt. I LOVED, how seamlessly integrated the afterlife/mythology aspects were, the mention of the river, purgatory, the Hades/Persephone allusions with the flowers UGHHH I was eating it up, I love that stuff so much and idk how to properly credit how brilliantly it was woven into this reality. Just, you had to be there. Him naming the butterfly might be one of my fave things to ever happen in a book, and the bit where he says we'll repaint it???? sir- I had to shut the book. The physical aspect of his connection to her/the bone shard was suuuuuper cool I don't think I've read anything like that before. It was an added layer to their dynamic that worked SO well, as the story progressed and things shifted from person to person etc. The bit where the shard is in her tights?? That scene is INGRAINED in my brain it- the tension??? These two had chemistry THROUGH THE ROOF im literally grinning so hard typing this. The trust it took for him to ask that of her?? romance was invented in that scene. I think the physical pain was a 10/10 way to illustrate the lengths that he was going through to be near her, his whole pinkie popping out?? Grossly romantic. It was just such a good detail, and we love a love interest who's going to literally go through hell and back for the MC. I also love the trope where they've kinda always been linked, fate drew them together, two sides of the same coin, the demon boy and commander of death,, ugh it was so good, the dynamic was just, GOLD. I gobbled it uPPPPP. OH and their first kiss scene?? don't get me started I'll never stop talking about it. And when she buries the shard??? I did cry. I did. The bit where he literally RUNS when she calls?? at the lamppost???? and she stays on the phone w him when he can't sleep I just- I love them so much. "I dragged myself out of Hell to you". AHHHHHHH
Also, Wednesday is officially my fave nickname to ever be used by a love interest, EVER. It's just, so simple but so perfect.
The atmosphere in this book, lemme try to properly explain: comfort, warm, spooky, feels like coming home, but home is a lil deserted and kinda creepy and there's a weird draft coming through an ajar door, this book feels like the warmest hug, wrapped in autumnal goodness, hot drinks and gloves, boots and crunchy leaves, but also frosty night air, can't feel your toes in the snow, eyes watering from the wind, and you keep looking left and right because the shadows look weird. OH AND THE PLAYLIST THAT GOES WITH THIS??? I'm still listening to it, a week later!! So good I love when playlists match perfectly.
The magic is subtle, the science is freaky and borderline 'mad-scientist', the Frankenstein-ness of the secret lil club was so freaking cool I mean, SO gross but so bloody cool. The hospital scene??? shut up I was gripping the book so hard.
The concept of mental doors being left open, things creeping in,, and converging spaces housing creepy undead things, I can't- this book is creative genius. It simultaneously was the most comforting and so bloody spooky I was side-eyeing the corners of my room all night. OH and the way we didn't know she was possessed?? inhabited?? roommates with the thing?? the bit in the motel -with the radio, when we find out she set it? no because I GASPEDDDD,, and it attacking Colton every night, idk he was really fighting for his life and sTILL STUCK BY HER!! THE WHOLE TIME!! he is the blueprint.
There's also brilliantly done representation in the characters, they're not defined by their demographic tick boxes, it was so nicely done.
Now, the writing. I wouldn't believe that this is a debut if I didn't already know. You're telling me there's not a huge backlog of books by this author that I can go binge....?? a CRIME!!
Ok here's a list some of my fave quotes (doesn't even cover half of them but this is already getting so long):
"This close, the nearness of her sank into him like teeth. That preternatural pain whittled at his bones. understanding lit like a wick. He'd take it, he realised. He'd break the rules. He'd welcome this slow, impossible unraveling over the alternative. Over never knowing her at all"
"He couldn't help it. He went where she led, like a paper kite on a string. He was hopelessly caught, twisted in her branches. His line tangled. His spine splintered. His sail all in tatters. There was no clean way to work himself free".
"Slowly, Lane brought a hand to his cheek. He sucked in a breath, willing himself still. He'd never felt more like a tragedy. 'I guess what i'm saying' he whispered 'is that i've decided asphodels would be far better suited to you than roses'."
"The kiss was a surprise, immediate and immolating. There was nothing sweet about it. Nothing soft. Only the clash of mouths, the scrap of teeth. They collided the way they always did. Like they were going to war".
"He'd tell her everything, in time [...] About nine-year-old Colton, who'd thrashed his way through the frozen Cocytus itself to lay himself at her feet. Drawn to her, drawn to her, the way every other dead thing drew in close. A winter's queen. A graveyard's queen".
"His name slipped out of her like a supplication. He wanted to tell her he was the last person to the bear the weight of benediction". I SCREAMEDDDDD
"Colton Price, who had always seemed so cold. Colton Price, who reminded her of something seraphic. Mars, god of war, resplendent and undying. Indomitable, impossible Colton".
I wish I could give this book infinity stars, I do. I will be rereading the moment the paperback is out so I can aggressively annotate <33333