mfw i read a book of essays and commentary written by a critic and she’s critical: :0
- she definitely opens some discourse in ways i hadn’t thought of before around fandom / nerd culture. that is not to say i enjoyed it.
- about half the book is her recounting various plots, characters, etc of entire series of media, and at some points it just feels like she’s talking at you? but for the amount of references to nerd media this book makes, it feels like it should be for people who KNOW—it would flow better. but instead she tried to write it for people who KNOW, and also people who DO NOT KNOW, and it just ends up feeling like a book report. i just started neon genesis evangelion and i had to skip the part where she discussed it because she spoiled pretty much everything else she brought up.
- with these kinds of books i guess what i struggle with is like, miss maya, what do you want? ie, the black representation chapter: even positive black media has something to criticize for her. and like i don’t really get it? like, do you want a series that has a normal character who happens to be black? or does it have to be this huge deal where the character or series has to encapsulate the entirety of the black experience (which, i would argue, is most likely different for the author who grew up well off enough to go to a private school, than it would be for a black kid growing up in a title 1 school)? there’s always something in every media she mentions that she finds a problem with. and i get that dialogue is good and representation in media is important, but, like…what do you want??? it will never be enough.
- she harps on the fact that in doctor who, black characters going back in time isn’t addressed (bill can’t just dress up in a nice dress and act like she belongs because it’s the 1700s and she’s black so it just doesn’t work)—but it also feels like (though she doesn’t mention it) miss maya would love the diverse casting of hamilton, which, although it is fiction, is EXPLICITLY set in history (???)
- glad to see her mention kindred tho!!! i enjoyed that book. and also black leopard, red wolf because i’ve been looking forward to reading that.
- tbh i don’t think you can rightly look at firefly, a show where the main cast is constantly on the run from the government for opposing its ideals and also stealing and some general smuggling, and say “The show supported the notion that they had some more righteous sense of ownership to the universe.” the crew makes do, but i feel like a lot of the point is that the sky is the only thing they have left—and living in the air is not really any way to live.
ultimately this book was not for me. it was super political and i do not like when my silly little escapist worlds are connected to the real one. when i engage in fandom / nerd culture / reading my silly little scifi-fantasy novels, it is for 1000% ESCAPISM. and yes, while dialogue and criticism of media is important—my favorite interests should not be immune to the same scrutiny i would give a literary work—it brings me pain and makes me very uncomfortable to hear the author express such displeasure for the things i love. i NEVER read to find myself in characters or worlds—although (like janner in the wingfeather saga) it hits a lot harder when i do. i read to escape from my life and read about people who are not me, who are different than me, who have different personalities and problems. maya reads / watches to find herself, and is upset when she doesn’t see herself represented perfectly in the media she consumes. we are different people participating in the same outlets for different reasons.
tldr this book was not for me.