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Even If We Fight
TWO SOULS TRAPPED IN TRAGEDY.
FREEDOM OF CHOICE. THE POWER OF LOVE.
THEY’RE GIVEN ONE LAST CHANCE.
When I met Judah Colt, I knew his presence in my life would change everything.
My gut told me to run before it was too late, and while I did the best I could to keep him at arm’s length, our connection became too powerful to deny. Too real to push away.
We fell hard.
Then we crashed and burned to ashes.
And now—after the rug had been torn from beneath me, yet again—I was beginning to think I was made for this. Born to walk this path full of unspeakable pain and unanswered questions, if only to learn the taste of my own strength and witness the tenacity of my soul.
But I never stopped wondering…where was my happy ending?
Where was Judah’s?
Did we get one?
My Skyscraper was broken, damaged, sick, but at one point, so was I. And with the help of those around me—with the unconditional love of my chosen family—I’d learned that brokenness was a choice. It wasn’t a sealed fate or a final death sentence. Healing was available if I wanted it, and while I held onto that realization with both hands, Judah could never manage to do the same.
Now? It was his only option.
I didn’t know what would happen next—had no way of predicting the future—but after months of endless heartbreak, after cleaning up the destruction that came with Judah’s addiction, I knew one thing for sure: I’d be damned if I didn’t close out this chapter of my life with a settled heart and a smile on my face.
The rest was up to him.
We are Phoenix and Judah.
Baby Bird and her Skyscraper.
This is the conclusion of our story, and it could either be our new beginning…
or our final end.
This book contains extremely triggering topics—including addiction, suicide, child abuse, neglect, and strong language—and is not recommended for anyone under the age of 18.
FREEDOM OF CHOICE. THE POWER OF LOVE.
THEY’RE GIVEN ONE LAST CHANCE.
When I met Judah Colt, I knew his presence in my life would change everything.
My gut told me to run before it was too late, and while I did the best I could to keep him at arm’s length, our connection became too powerful to deny. Too real to push away.
We fell hard.
Then we crashed and burned to ashes.
And now—after the rug had been torn from beneath me, yet again—I was beginning to think I was made for this. Born to walk this path full of unspeakable pain and unanswered questions, if only to learn the taste of my own strength and witness the tenacity of my soul.
But I never stopped wondering…where was my happy ending?
Where was Judah’s?
Did we get one?
My Skyscraper was broken, damaged, sick, but at one point, so was I. And with the help of those around me—with the unconditional love of my chosen family—I’d learned that brokenness was a choice. It wasn’t a sealed fate or a final death sentence. Healing was available if I wanted it, and while I held onto that realization with both hands, Judah could never manage to do the same.
Now? It was his only option.
I didn’t know what would happen next—had no way of predicting the future—but after months of endless heartbreak, after cleaning up the destruction that came with Judah’s addiction, I knew one thing for sure: I’d be damned if I didn’t close out this chapter of my life with a settled heart and a smile on my face.
The rest was up to him.
We are Phoenix and Judah.
Baby Bird and her Skyscraper.
This is the conclusion of our story, and it could either be our new beginning…
or our final end.
This book contains extremely triggering topics—including addiction, suicide, child abuse, neglect, and strong language—and is not recommended for anyone under the age of 18.
596 pages, Kindle Edition
Published December 12, 2021
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8 books834 followersBrianna Jean is a book loving, donut eating, vodka drinking, kind of human. Born and raised in Buffalo, NY, she thinks pizza and chicken wings are a food group and the Buffalo Bills are a way of life (even if they lose).
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Loud, sassy, and a little embarrassing, Brianna lives to love herself and those around her. Being an author was the dream, and now that dream is coming true—one book at a time.
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December 14, 2021
4⭐
This one felt..... different.
But was this the end I could see for them?
Yes sir.
Could it take a lil more? Ummmm yes.
I was a lil salty about the lil to no smut. But okay
Everything aside.
What I DO loved to see was.
The development.
The way Judah and Phoenix just....understood each other EVEN though they knew that they had problems.
The way there was an open conversation.
There was love WITH understanding.
Did this feel a lil different? Yes
But I could only see this end for them.
NOW CMON NOW COME THRU WITH MY MAN PHAR
*Arc provided*
This one felt..... different.
But was this the end I could see for them?
Yes sir.
Could it take a lil more? Ummmm yes.
I was a lil salty about the lil to no smut. But okay
Everything aside.
What I DO loved to see was.
The development.
The way Judah and Phoenix just....understood each other EVEN though they knew that they had problems.
The way there was an open conversation.
There was love WITH understanding.
Did this feel a lil different? Yes
But I could only see this end for them.
NOW CMON NOW COME THRU WITH MY MAN PHAR
*Arc provided*
December 19, 2021
3.5 stars
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December 15, 2021
I had really high hopes for this book and was beaming with anticipation for the conclusion of Judah and Phoenix.
However, alas my expectations did not come into fruition and I feel as though I have wasted 12 hours of my life reading this book.
I really did like the first two books in the series; the angst, toxicity the visceral reactions and emotions they embraced and portrayed.
With this book I think it was unnecessarily long and usually I prefer 500+ page books. However, in this circumstance it fell very flat as it was in constant rumination of Judah’s recovery. Like honestly in the beginning I cared but after a few chapters he was just stuck in that pity cycle and I wanted to stir shit up.
The more he and the rest of the characters continued to drone on about his recovery and guilt the more it pissed me off.
I completely contemplate that recovery is very difficult and quite tenuous but at the same time whilst that became the focal point of the book I felt as though we lost the core of the story.
Furthermore, I feel as though the characters were completely out of character and their reactions as well as actions did not correlate to what their true nature would dictate.
What I like normally about Judah and Phoenix is that they were both really toxic people and that is why I love about them normally. But this book completely scraped that relationship dynamic and made it seem as though they no longer feel or process the same emotions to the extent they normally do.
Also for God sake what is with the constant I forgive you but will never forget. I was expecting more angst and boundaries from Phoenix. Like why did she go back to him straight away as soon as he uttered a few words Where was the fighting , the passion?
I thought this book was supposed to make me cry but instead I was so bloody bored because of the endless monologue on how much he feels so sorry for everything. But rather than making me feel sympathetic it made me want to throw something across the room.
All the side characters are redundant and have no bearing upon the story.
What even was the bloody plot?
Answer is there was none aside from endless whinging and whining.
There was so much bullshit in this story that I could go into so much detail with but I would rather not because that would take too long.
I am truly disappointed with this book as it has become such a let down and I genuinely had really high hopes.
I am sorry Brianna I know this book means a lot to you and that you placed a lot of effort and emotion into crafting it but I think you missed the mark with this one.
Instead of focusing on their messy relationship and being true to their dynamic your turned them into meek characters.
However, alas my expectations did not come into fruition and I feel as though I have wasted 12 hours of my life reading this book.
I really did like the first two books in the series; the angst, toxicity the visceral reactions and emotions they embraced and portrayed.
With this book I think it was unnecessarily long and usually I prefer 500+ page books. However, in this circumstance it fell very flat as it was in constant rumination of Judah’s recovery. Like honestly in the beginning I cared but after a few chapters he was just stuck in that pity cycle and I wanted to stir shit up.
The more he and the rest of the characters continued to drone on about his recovery and guilt the more it pissed me off.
I completely contemplate that recovery is very difficult and quite tenuous but at the same time whilst that became the focal point of the book I felt as though we lost the core of the story.
Furthermore, I feel as though the characters were completely out of character and their reactions as well as actions did not correlate to what their true nature would dictate.
What I like normally about Judah and Phoenix is that they were both really toxic people and that is why I love about them normally. But this book completely scraped that relationship dynamic and made it seem as though they no longer feel or process the same emotions to the extent they normally do.
Also for God sake what is with the constant I forgive you but will never forget. I was expecting more angst and boundaries from Phoenix. Like why did she go back to him straight away as soon as he uttered a few words Where was the fighting , the passion?
I thought this book was supposed to make me cry but instead I was so bloody bored because of the endless monologue on how much he feels so sorry for everything. But rather than making me feel sympathetic it made me want to throw something across the room.
All the side characters are redundant and have no bearing upon the story.
What even was the bloody plot?
Answer is there was none aside from endless whinging and whining.
There was so much bullshit in this story that I could go into so much detail with but I would rather not because that would take too long.
I am truly disappointed with this book as it has become such a let down and I genuinely had really high hopes.
I am sorry Brianna I know this book means a lot to you and that you placed a lot of effort and emotion into crafting it but I think you missed the mark with this one.
Instead of focusing on their messy relationship and being true to their dynamic your turned them into meek characters.
December 12, 2021
"Not only was she the light at the end of my tunnel, she was in the tunnel with me. She had been from the start, I’d just been too blind to see it. It was time I opened my eyes."
I am going to try to keep this spoiler free, but as it is the third book in a trilogy, proceed with caution!
Book 1 was falling hard and fast in love, book 2 was the destruction and book 3? Book 3 is the healing.
Brianna Jean took on a journey with this couple. There were so many highs and so, so many lows. The final piece to J and P's story was exactly what we needed to say goodbye to these amazing characters. This is a book that focus' very heavily on healing and as these characters start to heal, I felt like I was healing right along with them. This series has shattered my heart so many times and it was like bit by bit, the author was sewing it back together again.
Judah and Phoenix are such deep, complex and wonderful characters, but the side characters are also so incredibly vital to this story. We've got Frankie, Kavan, Ricco, Pharaoh, Silas. They're all one big family who all have so much love for each other, despite all the pain the Judah has put them through.
This relationship has had its moments of beauty and moments of toxicity, but I felt like it ended exactly as it needed to. I cried a lot, I laughed a lot, I swooned a lot. It was beautifully written and I'm quite sad to say goodbye, but I cannot wait for what is to come in the future with the other characters!
Some other quotes I loved:
“The sun didn’t matter, my dreams didn’t matter, my career, my life… None of it mattered if I didn’t have her.”
"And now, you’re here—my Skyscraper—still standing tall, even after the storm.”
"Hell is on Earth right now, but no matter where I am, no matter what I’m going through, no matter how I’m feeling… You remain."
“Dream a little, then dream bigger. You’re finally free.”
I am going to try to keep this spoiler free, but as it is the third book in a trilogy, proceed with caution!
Book 1 was falling hard and fast in love, book 2 was the destruction and book 3? Book 3 is the healing.
Brianna Jean took on a journey with this couple. There were so many highs and so, so many lows. The final piece to J and P's story was exactly what we needed to say goodbye to these amazing characters. This is a book that focus' very heavily on healing and as these characters start to heal, I felt like I was healing right along with them. This series has shattered my heart so many times and it was like bit by bit, the author was sewing it back together again.
Judah and Phoenix are such deep, complex and wonderful characters, but the side characters are also so incredibly vital to this story. We've got Frankie, Kavan, Ricco, Pharaoh, Silas. They're all one big family who all have so much love for each other, despite all the pain the Judah has put them through.
This relationship has had its moments of beauty and moments of toxicity, but I felt like it ended exactly as it needed to. I cried a lot, I laughed a lot, I swooned a lot. It was beautifully written and I'm quite sad to say goodbye, but I cannot wait for what is to come in the future with the other characters!
Some other quotes I loved:
“The sun didn’t matter, my dreams didn’t matter, my career, my life… None of it mattered if I didn’t have her.”
"And now, you’re here—my Skyscraper—still standing tall, even after the storm.”
"Hell is on Earth right now, but no matter where I am, no matter what I’m going through, no matter how I’m feeling… You remain."
“Dream a little, then dream bigger. You’re finally free.”
June 7, 2023
3.5 stars
August 7, 2022
4,5*
so.much.fucking.healing&growth.
I don’t really know how to describe my feelings after reading these three books. I’ve been happy, and I’ve been so angry, frustrated and pissed off at Judah for all the shit he’s put the people around him, and once again especially Phoenix through, who he has broken down countless of times.
But he has really fought in this book, and I’m so proud of his progress and character development I want to cry. The letter he wrote to Phoenix while being in rehab? I was crying, crying of sadness but also because i was so proud of him. He went from not giving a shit, not wanting to be there, to actually want to fight, get better, be a better person. He still struggles, which is just realistic, and he understandably still have bad days.
Phoenix & Judah have not had an easy journey, they’ve been through hell, an unhealthy fucking start, but instead of dragging each other down, they now float together.
And as I’ve sad in my previous reviews, I LOVE THE SIDE CHARACTERS WHO ALSO FEELS MORE LIKE MAIN CHARACTERS. Frankie, Pharaoh, Kavan & Ricco. Muah muah muah <3
OKAY IM DONE BYE
so.much.fucking.healing&growth.
I don’t really know how to describe my feelings after reading these three books. I’ve been happy, and I’ve been so angry, frustrated and pissed off at Judah for all the shit he’s put the people around him, and once again especially Phoenix through, who he has broken down countless of times.
But he has really fought in this book, and I’m so proud of his progress and character development I want to cry. The letter he wrote to Phoenix while being in rehab? I was crying, crying of sadness but also because i was so proud of him. He went from not giving a shit, not wanting to be there, to actually want to fight, get better, be a better person. He still struggles, which is just realistic, and he understandably still have bad days.
Phoenix & Judah have not had an easy journey, they’ve been through hell, an unhealthy fucking start, but instead of dragging each other down, they now float together.
And as I’ve sad in my previous reviews, I LOVE THE SIDE CHARACTERS WHO ALSO FEELS MORE LIKE MAIN CHARACTERS. Frankie, Pharaoh, Kavan & Ricco. Muah muah muah <3
OKAY IM DONE BYE
December 22, 2021
Ima need a minute…. update it’s been 10 days…. And I still don’t feel ready to write this review… reviewing books is hard… reviewing the final book in a series is super hard… and reviewing the final book in a series that put you through emotional turmoil and made you fuckin feel shit for a year and a half (while trying to not spoil anyone), honestly I don’t think I’d ever be “ready” to write this review, but I feel bad that I haven’t. And if my words can be what someone needs to start this series, or to stick with it then I want to do that. So without a further to do…
Even If We Fight is the culmination of Phoenix Royal and Judah Colts story, and to say these to have had some soft and sweet romance over the course of these three books, would be a blatant lie, it’s been brutal. I’ve had so many heart pounding moments while reading this series because it felt like there was no way there would be a happily ever after, even though Brianna promised us one, I still could hardly see how all the wrongs could be undone and forgiven.
But this book? This book did that. And it did it well. This wasn’t some “oh you need ✨rehab✨ & ✨therapy✨.” No this was real life, real shit, real pain, real display of rehab and therapy, for a man who desperately needed it. This was the story of a man who was beyond rock bottom, and this was his story of him wanting to get better to BE better not just for Phoenix, not for his friends, or fans, but for HIMSELF.
I sat on the edge of my seat waiting for the Judah explosion, if you’ve read the other books you’ll know what I mean by that, and it never came and that’s when I knew without a doubt that he was gonna be able to do this that he was gonna be able to be happy, that he would still be loved. Watching his character development over this book, watching Judah become the best version of himself, while still struggling in the most realistic of ways was beautiful, painful, but beautiful.
And Phoenix? Oh my amazing Phoenix Royal, I am in awe of her, and let’s be real I have been since the first page of Why Are You Here. Watching her growth has been much more subtle than Judahs drastic self, but it is such a beautiful thing to see. She’s such a calm, strong main character throughout this book, but when she breaks down and cries I sob right alongside her. She’s an amazing friend, she’s forgiving, but not in a way that makes her feel like she’s getting steam rolled. I could go on and on about her, but I don’t wanna get repetitive or spoilery now so I’ll just say she’ll always be my favorite character of all time.
As for Judah and Phoenix together, well I think I’ll leave that for you to discover on your own…
To say I shed tears while reading this book, hell this whole series, well that would be a huge understatement, but if I could go back in time and not read that ARC of Why Are You Here, well I would still have read it and I wouldn’t change a thing.
I’m so excited for everything BRIANNA (sorry that’s a thing my phone does, I guess I yell at her a lil too much😅) has in store for us with the Dear Industry series, here’s to hoping it causes a lil less emotional distress than the Love Kills series, but who am I kidding I’ll love it even if it does.🥺🖤
Even If We Fight is the culmination of Phoenix Royal and Judah Colts story, and to say these to have had some soft and sweet romance over the course of these three books, would be a blatant lie, it’s been brutal. I’ve had so many heart pounding moments while reading this series because it felt like there was no way there would be a happily ever after, even though Brianna promised us one, I still could hardly see how all the wrongs could be undone and forgiven.
But this book? This book did that. And it did it well. This wasn’t some “oh you need ✨rehab✨ & ✨therapy✨.” No this was real life, real shit, real pain, real display of rehab and therapy, for a man who desperately needed it. This was the story of a man who was beyond rock bottom, and this was his story of him wanting to get better to BE better not just for Phoenix, not for his friends, or fans, but for HIMSELF.
I sat on the edge of my seat waiting for the Judah explosion, if you’ve read the other books you’ll know what I mean by that, and it never came and that’s when I knew without a doubt that he was gonna be able to do this that he was gonna be able to be happy, that he would still be loved. Watching his character development over this book, watching Judah become the best version of himself, while still struggling in the most realistic of ways was beautiful, painful, but beautiful.
And Phoenix? Oh my amazing Phoenix Royal, I am in awe of her, and let’s be real I have been since the first page of Why Are You Here. Watching her growth has been much more subtle than Judahs drastic self, but it is such a beautiful thing to see. She’s such a calm, strong main character throughout this book, but when she breaks down and cries I sob right alongside her. She’s an amazing friend, she’s forgiving, but not in a way that makes her feel like she’s getting steam rolled. I could go on and on about her, but I don’t wanna get repetitive or spoilery now so I’ll just say she’ll always be my favorite character of all time.
As for Judah and Phoenix together, well I think I’ll leave that for you to discover on your own…
To say I shed tears while reading this book, hell this whole series, well that would be a huge understatement, but if I could go back in time and not read that ARC of Why Are You Here, well I would still have read it and I wouldn’t change a thing.
I’m so excited for everything BRIANNA (sorry that’s a thing my phone does, I guess I yell at her a lil too much😅) has in store for us with the Dear Industry series, here’s to hoping it causes a lil less emotional distress than the Love Kills series, but who am I kidding I’ll love it even if it does.🥺🖤
December 14, 2021
What a journey. What an ending. B really said we’re settin this shit straight. I just want to say I sob through most of it because this is my last first experience reading of a love kills book and because P and J were brutal. Let’s get down so Phoenix our baby bird what a fucking beast I never really realize the true depth of her growth she really was Dr. Blake in hindsight. Her drive and strength to be their for her friends for their demons and them hers was incredible. Her wisdoms was so fucking bright she’s just such a badass.
Now let’s talk Judah. Man I couldn’t believe the insane amount of character growth from him his recovery was down right brutal from the nightmares, cravings, and guilt it was a shit storm but I couldn’t have pictured a more honest and realist side of it. He survived and he’s still surviving the demons are still there but they aren’t controlling his every thought and action. Every thought and doubt I thought was covered by Phoenix’s doubts she was honest to Judah about what she wanted from him and he cooperated. Really no leaf was least unturned from these two.
Pharaoh and P’s situation was handled so well it hurt and made me shed tears but we knew they weren’t endgame. We do see a bit of Pharaoh’s demons which gives us a look into his story and I’m inching to know more. I love that man. And let’s talk about the crew that driveway scene was so fucking iconic I love them so much.
The ending it really got me like this time I felt I know what B was gonna do for them but I should’ve learned because this ending was so much more than I could’ve expected I was crying. It was the perfectly unperfect way to ending this couples story. B is brilliant. Also I screamed at the new series name DEAR INDUSTRY. Such a fitting name for them. Always 5/5 stars for B’s writing
Favorite quotes:
“Drugs were my love language. The more I took, the more feeling I was trying to bury. And if I showed up here like that, it was because even when I was fucked, you were home, Phoenix Royal. In any state—good, bad, suicidal—you’re home. Every decision I made came back to you, even if it hurt you in the process.”
“She had music in her breath, affirmations in her eyes, and peace in her soul, even though she didn’t believe it.”
“Even now, even with the resentment I carried around, she was my anchor, my reason. I didn’t give a shit if she didn’t like it. I still believed Phoenix Royal would always be my reason for breathing, for fighting, for existing at all. She was stronger, she was a survivor, while I was obsessed and addicted to more than just the drugs, I was addicted to her, to picking away at her growth and challenging just how brave she really was.”
“Broken, whole, shattered, even non-existent…I want you without conditions, Judah. This hand is mine to hold.”
Now let’s talk Judah. Man I couldn’t believe the insane amount of character growth from him his recovery was down right brutal from the nightmares, cravings, and guilt it was a shit storm but I couldn’t have pictured a more honest and realist side of it. He survived and he’s still surviving the demons are still there but they aren’t controlling his every thought and action. Every thought and doubt I thought was covered by Phoenix’s doubts she was honest to Judah about what she wanted from him and he cooperated. Really no leaf was least unturned from these two.
Pharaoh and P’s situation was handled so well it hurt and made me shed tears but we knew they weren’t endgame. We do see a bit of Pharaoh’s demons which gives us a look into his story and I’m inching to know more. I love that man. And let’s talk about the crew that driveway scene was so fucking iconic I love them so much.
The ending it really got me like this time I felt I know what B was gonna do for them but I should’ve learned because this ending was so much more than I could’ve expected I was crying. It was the perfectly unperfect way to ending this couples story. B is brilliant. Also I screamed at the new series name DEAR INDUSTRY. Such a fitting name for them. Always 5/5 stars for B’s writing
Favorite quotes:
“Drugs were my love language. The more I took, the more feeling I was trying to bury. And if I showed up here like that, it was because even when I was fucked, you were home, Phoenix Royal. In any state—good, bad, suicidal—you’re home. Every decision I made came back to you, even if it hurt you in the process.”
“She had music in her breath, affirmations in her eyes, and peace in her soul, even though she didn’t believe it.”
“Even now, even with the resentment I carried around, she was my anchor, my reason. I didn’t give a shit if she didn’t like it. I still believed Phoenix Royal would always be my reason for breathing, for fighting, for existing at all. She was stronger, she was a survivor, while I was obsessed and addicted to more than just the drugs, I was addicted to her, to picking away at her growth and challenging just how brave she really was.”
“Broken, whole, shattered, even non-existent…I want you without conditions, Judah. This hand is mine to hold.”
December 12, 2021
4.5 ⭐
E v e n I f W e F i g h t is book 3 and the finale in the love kills series.
Aah you guys, I don't even know where to start with this book. If you've read the first two then you know. You know that this book was the one that was needed to heal. For the characters and may be even for us, the readers.
"Judah Colt was made for me, and I for him, but before we could be truly together, we had to fall apart."
What a finish! Brianna Jean has delivered us a series that had it all. Epic love, friendships and found family. Addiction, trauma, toxicity, infidelity. The highs and the lows...fuck, I mean, some of the lows. . It has all lead to this point in the journey, healing and forgiveness.
"Hell is on earth right now, but no matter where I am, no matter what I'm going through, no matter how I'm feeling... You remain."
Expect tears, laughter and intense emotions. This was a beautifully written story and one hell of a journey. I'm feeling quite bittersweet that's it's now over!
I can't wait to see what comes of the other characters in their books. I need more Pharaoh now, please and thank you.
"Dream a little, then dream bigger. You're finally free."
E v e n I f W e F i g h t is book 3 and the finale in the love kills series.
Aah you guys, I don't even know where to start with this book. If you've read the first two then you know. You know that this book was the one that was needed to heal. For the characters and may be even for us, the readers.
"Judah Colt was made for me, and I for him, but before we could be truly together, we had to fall apart."
What a finish! Brianna Jean has delivered us a series that had it all. Epic love, friendships and found family. Addiction, trauma, toxicity, infidelity. The highs and the lows...fuck, I mean, some of the lows. . It has all lead to this point in the journey, healing and forgiveness.
"Hell is on earth right now, but no matter where I am, no matter what I'm going through, no matter how I'm feeling... You remain."
Expect tears, laughter and intense emotions. This was a beautifully written story and one hell of a journey. I'm feeling quite bittersweet that's it's now over!
I can't wait to see what comes of the other characters in their books. I need more Pharaoh now, please and thank you.
"Dream a little, then dream bigger. You're finally free."
December 21, 2021
What a ending ! What a journey it’s been this book was so emotional passionate and beautifully written this one was about healing and forgiveness it’s about epic love friendships addiction trauma and all the drama that comes with it . If you haven’t started this amazing story yet you need too !
December 17, 2024
I sobbed reading the first half of this book. Judah Colt has my heart. His raw emotions were everything and more. I'm so sad this book series is over but I loved it so much.
June 29, 2022
What a Ride.
I’m still processing everything I read. Like, this book was incredible. I wasn’t expecting that I would completely fall in love with this beautiful and broken love story. I’m so glad that this book exists. It’s so important and so real. All the chapters, every single word of it, means something. Love Kills series is more than a book series, it can make you feel like you are the main character. You feel everything since the first chapter until the last one. Brianna’s words were beyond amazing, I dare to say that they were perfect. Judah and Phoenix are a part of me now. Their story was dark, with a lot of traumas and fights, but it was beautiful. It was beautiful to read their devolvement during the 3 books. I’m absolutely in love and will take them with me forever. Thank you Brianna Jean for your amazing characters and beautiful words that touched all the readers souls.
I’m still processing everything I read. Like, this book was incredible. I wasn’t expecting that I would completely fall in love with this beautiful and broken love story. I’m so glad that this book exists. It’s so important and so real. All the chapters, every single word of it, means something. Love Kills series is more than a book series, it can make you feel like you are the main character. You feel everything since the first chapter until the last one. Brianna’s words were beyond amazing, I dare to say that they were perfect. Judah and Phoenix are a part of me now. Their story was dark, with a lot of traumas and fights, but it was beautiful. It was beautiful to read their devolvement during the 3 books. I’m absolutely in love and will take them with me forever. Thank you Brianna Jean for your amazing characters and beautiful words that touched all the readers souls.
February 10, 2022
Love these two and so glad Judah finally got himself sorted. Great writing, characters, dialogue, pacing, everything.
February 17, 2022
this book was the ending we all wanted, the ending the characters deserved! briannas writing is so unique, I swear I’ve never seen anything like it. This book was beautiful, beautifully flawed and so beautiful. I really enjoyed seeing Judah‘s point of view with his therapist, it was great to see his healing process that felt really natural, actually made me think a lot about myself. I was really surprised by Judah and Phoenix’s healthy relationship, at least after Judah gets out of rehab. I kept waiting for them to slip up but that shit was so healthy it almost made me miss their old toxicity hahaha. all in all it was a great book, it felt a little more sophisticated than the last two, less of the clichés. I wish with my entire heart that this book had more steam, because it would be 1000% better, if that’s possible. I don’t know how I feel about Frankie’s story, I know I’ll read it I just don’t know if I’ll like it. I totally didn’t know kav and rico were not blood brothers, but I always thought they should have their own romance together so now I believe it all the more. I also thought the love triangle with with pharaoh was written really well, I’m glad it didn’t go anywhere because I could plainly see all they felt for each other was platonic love. I really wish judah got more jealous of it though (here comes my toxicity!) I’m actually probably the most excited to see pharaohs book, I really hope it’s a second chance with his ex because that would be deliciously emotional and what I feel like he deserves. He reminds me of a wounded puppy and weirdly I’m so here for it
January 25, 2022
Yeaaahhhh Brianna didn't disappointed me !!! I'm so happy!!!!!
I've been looking for months for a book that I like and that hook me up and I couldn't find. But this trilogy is everything that I was looking. Judah is just my favorite character eveeeeeer, everything about him held me and it was wonderful to see his trajectory.
I think it's super difficult to do a trilogy because usually authors change things that many readers end up not liking or screwing up too much in some parts, but that was not the case in these books.
I loved everything.
I've been looking for months for a book that I like and that hook me up and I couldn't find. But this trilogy is everything that I was looking. Judah is just my favorite character eveeeeeer, everything about him held me and it was wonderful to see his trajectory.
I think it's super difficult to do a trilogy because usually authors change things that many readers end up not liking or screwing up too much in some parts, but that was not the case in these books.
I loved everything.
January 4, 2022
What did the author do to my Judah!!
In book 1 &2 Judah was intense and crazy while in book 3 he's whole personality changed!
In book 1 &2 Judah was intense and crazy while in book 3 he's whole personality changed!
January 7, 2023
4.6⭐️
Oh wow, this was… therapeutic. Such a cleansing experience if I do say so myself 🤩
My heart is literally in shambles.
First of all,
I’m so fucking proud of Judah. His journey to healing was so awe inspiring🥺
Obviously, all the shit he did cant be forgotten that easily but I can accept the fact that he faced his shit like a grown ass man, took his healing by the ball, andddd he the fact the he was trying.
He had a heart of gold underneath all that sickly shit and it was very nice being reintroduced to him:))
Now,,
Y’all know I hate love triangles. It‘s always so complicated and for whaaatttt. Anyway, I was fucking scared about the P, Phar, and J situation, but, I was sincerely elated when the author cleared all that shit out from the get go.
Also, something that I’m constantly learning about is the fact that Pharaoh is unrivaled, period.
My man is the fucking best and no one can tell me otherwise. This man truly deserves the world!!!
———
Phoenix is an absolute gem and a mf Q U E E N. Aaaand so fucking strong, tenacious, everything. I wouldn’t have been able to survive if I was in her position. I’m very happy she got what she deserved and was treated right:)
Overall,
I loved this journey, the family that was fabricated, all the beautiful moments that was shared, all the battles they faced, how every single character faced their shit and got stronger as a result.
It was such a glorious experience:)
These characters are gonna stay with me to the end of time and this whole ass experience will never be forgotten.
GAHHH, I cant believe we made it to the end peacefully.
Ps: I cannot even express how excited I am for the Dear Industry series featuring all the fam AAAA
Oh wow, this was… therapeutic. Such a cleansing experience if I do say so myself 🤩
My heart is literally in shambles.
First of all,
I’m so fucking proud of Judah. His journey to healing was so awe inspiring🥺
Obviously, all the shit he did cant be forgotten that easily but I can accept the fact that he faced his shit like a grown ass man, took his healing by the ball, andddd he the fact the he was trying.
He had a heart of gold underneath all that sickly shit and it was very nice being reintroduced to him:))
Now,,
Y’all know I hate love triangles. It‘s always so complicated and for whaaatttt. Anyway, I was fucking scared about the P, Phar, and J situation, but, I was sincerely elated when the author cleared all that shit out from the get go.
Also, something that I’m constantly learning about is the fact that Pharaoh is unrivaled, period.
My man is the fucking best and no one can tell me otherwise. This man truly deserves the world!!!
———
Phoenix is an absolute gem and a mf Q U E E N. Aaaand so fucking strong, tenacious, everything. I wouldn’t have been able to survive if I was in her position. I’m very happy she got what she deserved and was treated right:)
Overall,
I loved this journey, the family that was fabricated, all the beautiful moments that was shared, all the battles they faced, how every single character faced their shit and got stronger as a result.
It was such a glorious experience:)
These characters are gonna stay with me to the end of time and this whole ass experience will never be forgotten.
GAHHH, I cant believe we made it to the end peacefully.
Ps: I cannot even express how excited I am for the Dear Industry series featuring all the fam AAAA
November 23, 2022
We’re written in the goddamn stars.
Phewwwww! I.AM.EXHAUSTED!
This trilogy has completely written me off in the best way.
If you love reading about toxic, broken characters trying to find their way then this is the series for you. The personal growth with both Judah and Phoenix was amazing and I couldn’t have loved their story more.
Brianna Jean wrote the best found family ever and I’m dying for everyone else’s books.
I’ll give you all I’ve got, little bird, but you better give it back twice as hard. Make it hurt.
Phewwwww! I.AM.EXHAUSTED!
This trilogy has completely written me off in the best way.
If you love reading about toxic, broken characters trying to find their way then this is the series for you. The personal growth with both Judah and Phoenix was amazing and I couldn’t have loved their story more.
Brianna Jean wrote the best found family ever and I’m dying for everyone else’s books.
I’ll give you all I’ve got, little bird, but you better give it back twice as hard. Make it hurt.
September 2, 2022
I loved the characters! Although I loved them the story was just wayyy too long. I got bored. There was a lot of the same thing from the previous books. Talking about the things that happened in the past that we already heard about. I honestly think this book could have been done in one book.. maybe two.
What's most important... WHAT ABOUT PHARAOH!? I hope we get his story! Frankie doesn't interest me that much. She gets on my nerves really.
What's most important... WHAT ABOUT PHARAOH!? I hope we get his story! Frankie doesn't interest me that much. She gets on my nerves really.
January 12, 2026
i‘m so not okay rn💔 i‘m already feeling the book hangover- i don‘t wanna leave this world😫
phoenix and judah you have my heart even tho you fucking tore it apart multiple times. i really hope brianna will release more books in this world one day (especially for miss frankie girl☹️)!
anyway why didn’t i read this sooner?? i miss them already
phoenix and judah you have my heart even tho you fucking tore it apart multiple times. i really hope brianna will release more books in this world one day (especially for miss frankie girl☹️)!
anyway why didn’t i read this sooner?? i miss them already
June 15, 2022
THIS BOOK. THIS SERIES. ITS EVERYTHING
*chefs kiss*
i cant believe their story has come to an end!
*chefs kiss*
i cant believe their story has come to an end!
December 18, 2022
crying myself to sleep tonight after months i finally finished the last book it wrecked me completely i should definitely seek therapy after this. judahnix are my everything
December 19, 2023
umm idk what to think
December 14, 2021
Life is full of precious and memorable moments and I feel like with this book, this series and these characters we were given just that. I have to say a huge thank you to the author Brianna Jean, a big shout out to you babe for giving me and well us as the readers a book that a lot of us can relate to in certain aspects, the certain aspects to me felt like it was telling a part of my story as well which was why i obsessed about this story so much.
This book will be hard for me to review as I really got invested in this series, I felt like I was walking alongside these two characters journey through their journey of falling deep in love, through their destruction and then finally through their healing process.
This book was something I felt to the pit of my soul and I felt everything in all its glory. This book spits the honest, raw and darkness of addiction and outlines the ugliness of how brutal it can be for someone to go through in getting sober and staying sober.
The growth in this book was beyond anything I could expect and I’m so proud of these characters. I waited the whole series to get to this movement and now that it’s finally here it’s so bittersweet, just rethinking about it makes my eyes full up with tears waiting to shed. All the pain that these two have put on themselves, on each other and on the people around them was unspeakable and I really wondered how we would get to J and P happily ever after but we eventually get there, it’s so awesome.
These two were given one last final chance and boy did they grab it with both hands and really put all the work in. There were so many highs and lows do not get me wrong but there’s one thing that you will find with this book was that these characters did not want to give up. They wanted to fight for themselves and fight for each other. I’m just so in love with these two.
Reading this story was like being welcomed to a brand new love story and watching Judah and Phoenix rediscover themselves and their love that they had one another, they didn’t necessary rediscover their love but they rediscovered new things that they loved about each other whilst meeting the new versions of themselves. Judah and Phoenix are the true definition of a twin of flame, and a true soul mate, their love for each other is indescribable and so bloody out there.
The heat between these two was on next level when they finally reunite, and I couldn’t help but have the cheesy yet watery smile as I watched it happen and I 100% watched it happen because like I said it was like I was walking alongside these characters every step.
If you take one thing from this review, let it be this. This story is not going to be for everyone and that it okay. It really tackles real life situations and that is one thing you will find that you will connect with so much. It’s unlike anything I’ve read and in my whole time reading, I’ve never found myself reading something like this. It’s unique and one of a kind, I guess what I’m trying to say is, give this book the chance it deserves.
This book will be hard for me to review as I really got invested in this series, I felt like I was walking alongside these two characters journey through their journey of falling deep in love, through their destruction and then finally through their healing process.
This book was something I felt to the pit of my soul and I felt everything in all its glory. This book spits the honest, raw and darkness of addiction and outlines the ugliness of how brutal it can be for someone to go through in getting sober and staying sober.
The growth in this book was beyond anything I could expect and I’m so proud of these characters. I waited the whole series to get to this movement and now that it’s finally here it’s so bittersweet, just rethinking about it makes my eyes full up with tears waiting to shed. All the pain that these two have put on themselves, on each other and on the people around them was unspeakable and I really wondered how we would get to J and P happily ever after but we eventually get there, it’s so awesome.
These two were given one last final chance and boy did they grab it with both hands and really put all the work in. There were so many highs and lows do not get me wrong but there’s one thing that you will find with this book was that these characters did not want to give up. They wanted to fight for themselves and fight for each other. I’m just so in love with these two.
Reading this story was like being welcomed to a brand new love story and watching Judah and Phoenix rediscover themselves and their love that they had one another, they didn’t necessary rediscover their love but they rediscovered new things that they loved about each other whilst meeting the new versions of themselves. Judah and Phoenix are the true definition of a twin of flame, and a true soul mate, their love for each other is indescribable and so bloody out there.
The heat between these two was on next level when they finally reunite, and I couldn’t help but have the cheesy yet watery smile as I watched it happen and I 100% watched it happen because like I said it was like I was walking alongside these characters every step.
If you take one thing from this review, let it be this. This story is not going to be for everyone and that it okay. It really tackles real life situations and that is one thing you will find that you will connect with so much. It’s unlike anything I’ve read and in my whole time reading, I’ve never found myself reading something like this. It’s unique and one of a kind, I guess what I’m trying to say is, give this book the chance it deserves.
December 14, 2021
I have to start this review by saying that this series might not be for everyone, and that is completely okay. This is one of the hardest stories I have ever witnessed unfold. There is so much pain, love and loss, triggering topics and at times, things just don’t go the way that you so desperately want them too.
However, the Love Kills series is one of the most honest, raw and realest representations of how hard life can be when you are dealing with/recovering from addiction. I have never been there myself, but the way Brianna Jean wrote this whole series really gave an incredible insight on how hard and toxic relationships can be to maintain with people who aren’t ready to put anyone but themselves first.
Book one highs were incredibly high and the lows in book two were some of the darkest lows I have ever seen. However, the healing in book three was the perfect conclusion that P & J needed (as well as us).
Now the series is over it feels very bittersweet, and my heart aches a little at everything that these two needed to go through to be together, but ultimately, they were always end game and destined to find their way back to each other.
Every single character in this series will forever hold a special place in my heart, especially my boy Pharoah. These books are one of a kind and if you are ready for one of the biggest emotional roller coasters you’ll ever find yourself on, then strap yourself in.
However, the Love Kills series is one of the most honest, raw and realest representations of how hard life can be when you are dealing with/recovering from addiction. I have never been there myself, but the way Brianna Jean wrote this whole series really gave an incredible insight on how hard and toxic relationships can be to maintain with people who aren’t ready to put anyone but themselves first.
Book one highs were incredibly high and the lows in book two were some of the darkest lows I have ever seen. However, the healing in book three was the perfect conclusion that P & J needed (as well as us).
Now the series is over it feels very bittersweet, and my heart aches a little at everything that these two needed to go through to be together, but ultimately, they were always end game and destined to find their way back to each other.
Every single character in this series will forever hold a special place in my heart, especially my boy Pharoah. These books are one of a kind and if you are ready for one of the biggest emotional roller coasters you’ll ever find yourself on, then strap yourself in.
December 14, 2021
"What makes that heart explode, Judah? You do, Phoenix Royal. Only you can make my heart explode."
Even If We Fight is the third and the final book in the love kills series and what an ending. The story continues where book 2 left off and Brianna Jean took us on another intense rollercoaster ride filled with healing, forgiveness, friendship, love and so much more. This story was riveting and will have you glued to the pages totally consumed and captivated with these characters and their journey. It was a beautifully written tale with lots of ups and downs, inspiring character development, and a whirlwind of emotions. I fell in love with every single character in this story and I loved the family that they became. This novel was the perfect ending for this couple and as sad as I am to say goodbye, I can't wait to see what come next for the other characters. Even If We Fight was a fantastic story and a definite must read. I would highly recommend it.
Even If We Fight is the third and the final book in the love kills series and what an ending. The story continues where book 2 left off and Brianna Jean took us on another intense rollercoaster ride filled with healing, forgiveness, friendship, love and so much more. This story was riveting and will have you glued to the pages totally consumed and captivated with these characters and their journey. It was a beautifully written tale with lots of ups and downs, inspiring character development, and a whirlwind of emotions. I fell in love with every single character in this story and I loved the family that they became. This novel was the perfect ending for this couple and as sad as I am to say goodbye, I can't wait to see what come next for the other characters. Even If We Fight was a fantastic story and a definite must read. I would highly recommend it.
January 16, 2022
Absolutely unbelievable. This book, this trilogy struck me so deeply, so intensely I had to really sit on it and process the many different feelings about this book, and the books as a trilogy. B.Jean is truly one in a million. Her writing is intoxicating. She pulled me in with the first book and her ability to emotionally stir me on a level a book has been unable to do for me. There are maybe 5 authors out of the thousand or more books I have read that have been able to do that. Honestly I could go on for ages how amazing these books are. They are not easy books, they are not "happy" books per-say. But they are a story of pain and darkness. Of strength and weakness. Of illness and health. Of loneliness and a found family. To have your own feelings written out in a book from an author you have never met a day in your life; to characters that may not exist in the real world, but exist in my heart. I am well and truly inspired by B.Jean. I cannot wait to see what comes next!
December 17, 2021
...talking about a broken heart...
This is not a story to be told in a hurry or rushed through. It's beautifully written and seriously takes you on a journey. The pace is slow and deliberate; because if you skip over any part then you'll miss vital pieces of this story which is as complex and beautiful as it's characters.
Phoenix and Judah are unique and an interesting mix of strength and vulnerability. Both are broken in ways that most people can't begin to fathom but therein lies the beauty of their story.
"What makes that heart explode, Judah? You do, Phoenix Royal. Only you can make my heart explode."
Gritty, heart-wrenching, beautiful story of life, love, forgiveness and second chances. I could read this over and over again! Read it.
This is not a story to be told in a hurry or rushed through. It's beautifully written and seriously takes you on a journey. The pace is slow and deliberate; because if you skip over any part then you'll miss vital pieces of this story which is as complex and beautiful as it's characters.
Phoenix and Judah are unique and an interesting mix of strength and vulnerability. Both are broken in ways that most people can't begin to fathom but therein lies the beauty of their story.
"What makes that heart explode, Judah? You do, Phoenix Royal. Only you can make my heart explode."
Gritty, heart-wrenching, beautiful story of life, love, forgiveness and second chances. I could read this over and over again! Read it.
December 22, 2021
Too Good!
I’m beyond devastated that this is the end. These characters have become a part of me, they consumed me. I felt their pain and struggles and carried their burdens with them. I know, I know…it’s just a book. But it wasn’t, this series hit me hard and will forever be one of my all time favourites. It’s raw, real and honest. We’re all broken, we all have a story and Judah’s and Phoenix’s story showed me it’s ok to not be ok, you have the power to overcome anything as long as you want it and put the work in. Bravo Brianna you’re a queen and thank you for creating this brutal but brilliant series! I’m gonna go cry now.
I’m beyond devastated that this is the end. These characters have become a part of me, they consumed me. I felt their pain and struggles and carried their burdens with them. I know, I know…it’s just a book. But it wasn’t, this series hit me hard and will forever be one of my all time favourites. It’s raw, real and honest. We’re all broken, we all have a story and Judah’s and Phoenix’s story showed me it’s ok to not be ok, you have the power to overcome anything as long as you want it and put the work in. Bravo Brianna you’re a queen and thank you for creating this brutal but brilliant series! I’m gonna go cry now.
January 18, 2022
This was a highly anticipated read for me and it did not disappoint. This story broke my heart and just mosaicked that shit back together. It’s brutal. It’s emotional. I cried. Both tears of sadness and also joy. EIWF is everything I wanted and needed for the conclusion of Judah and Phoenix’s story. I recommend this trilogy to anyone looking for a raw and real rockstar romance with tons of feels, drama, and amazing characters.
*Also the book playlists for this trilogy are incredible!
*Also the book playlists for this trilogy are incredible!
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