I read this book repeatedly as a teenager and loved it. It was my favourite book. Then I didn't read it for several years, so thought I'd give it another shot at nearly 25 to see if I still enjoyed it. I went on holiday this week and felt this was the perfect time.
Overall, I still really enjoyed it and couldn't put it down. I devoured it on the plane. While Elise Broach is not a particularly well-known author, there's a certain underappreciated beauty in how she weaves words when describing the landscapes. I think her words perfectly capture the stillness and loneliness of the desert, and the people who live in it. Every description of each character meant I could really picture them.
However, this book is not without flaws. Many reviewers have issues over the age-gap romance between Beth, a woman in her late 30s (which is repeatedly portrayed as 'old' in the book by both the teenage protagonist and the author herself, which seems juvenile) and Jamie, a freshly-18-year-old. Yes, this is problematic, but ultimately they are both consenting adults and it is wholly legal, however 'icky' it might be.
The larger problem, in my view, is the romance between Lucy and Kit. At times, it is enticing, and Lucy's perception of Kit is beautifully written. The kissing scenes are detailed without being exaggerated and nauseating. But at other times, it is infuriating. Firstly, Kit is just months shy of being 18, and Lucy is 14 (and not referred to as almost 15). Kit even says to Lucy, when she is upset about them, "did you really think I'd date a freshman?" This shows that Kit acknowledges it is wrong. The age gap between Beth and Jamie, which bothers Lucy so prominently, is at least consensual between to adults. Kit performs numerous 'chick tricks', as he calls them, on the young and innocent Lucy who's only ever had one kiss before. He also fragrantly cheats on his girlfriend, and when Lucy rightly accuses him of using her, he fires back at her for using him to drive her across the country. Kit plays a dangerous game by taking advantage of a traumatised child, his best friend's sister, and doesn't think of the consequences. It is only at the end of the novel that Kit finally appreciates the impact he is having on Lucy, and subsequently the impact she has had on him. It is the first tender interaction between them, and ends on a realistic note - they don't end up together. But they acknowledge the feelings and confusion they have, and it ends settled between them. There's an understanding, however ambiguous for us readers that may be. It's just a shame that the journey there is littered with inappropriate moments, and while Kit does always act for Lucy and keep her physically safe, he also emotionally damages her. He leads her on and uses her for his own amusement, because it's fun and harmless, while telling his girlfriend in secretive phone calls that he loves her. His treatment of Lucy, and his subsequent presentation as the brooding love interest, is questionable. But maybe the most dimensional, realistic character of them all. Kit is, however confusingly, layered.
Additionally, throughout the novel, you'd be guilty of thinking Lucy is older and mature at times while young and infantile at others. She makes wise, astute, considered observations of Kit and his significance in her life, and of Beth's both hindrance and importance to Jamie, while being dangerously naive about the situation with the killer. She is the most underdeveloped character of them all, and that is troublesome when she's your protagonist and you're meant to see the world like she does.
Jamie is a small fixture in the story. The relationship was Beth is always implied rather than explained in detail. We never know his perspective, only Beth's (which is still short). They have an intriguing side story that is never fully explored.
But, there is something that draws you in about this story. The presentation of the scenery, of the character connections, of the small-town people and the desolate setting, and seeing it all through Lucy's artistic eyes are intriguing. I do think it's worth a read. But the ending is polarising. While I like the vagueness as it is realistic, I can see why it frustrates people.
Do I love it as much as I did at 12, 15, 17? No, I don't think I do. My own perception, now that of an adult, has shifted. But it is still an engaging read. Just maybe not for the same reasons it was when I was younger.