ก็ทำดีมาก ตัวละครเติบโต Coming of Age ไปแล้วจะให้ไอ้ตัวเดิมโผล่มาอีกทำไม มีตัวตนจนจบเล่มยังอยู่เป็นบุคลิกที่สองต่อไปอีก รู้ไหมว่ากว่าเราจะอ่านมาจนไม่ปาหนังสือทิ้งเพราะเกลียดท่าเซียนจวินผู้แสนโง่เขลาแล้วยังหยิ่งทำตัวเลวทรามได้นี่ต้องผ่านไปกี่เล่มกัน
จะดึงกลับมาทำไมไม่รู้ เป็นอีกสิ่งที่อ่านแล้วไม่อิน ถ้ามาแต่ซากศพจบศึกใหญ่แล้วจากไปก็ยัง ok เป็นสีสันให้คนอ่านตกตะลึงคาดไม่ถึงกันไป เพราะแค่นั้นก็เยอะแล้วสำหรับสิ่งที่นางทำลงไปอะนะคะ ถึงจะเพราะถูกดอกแปดขมแค้นนิรันดร์ชักใยอยู่ก็เถอะ มันก็ทำให้เกิดการฆ่าล้างเผ่าพันธุ์มนุษย์ในโลกนั้นจนจะหมดโลกละ ไม่รู้จะให้อภัยนางยังไงเลยค่ะ
จุดที่สาม อันนี้คงมีความคิดตรงข้ามกับผู้เขียนเลย เอาเป็น What If แล้วกันค่ะว่า
(04/08/24 ตี 2 Better than the essay I wrote in class, also notice a lot of wrong grammar and weird sentences but I’m letting it slide. I remembered having lots of unexpressed feelings and comments I didn’t write because I was overwhelmed after reading. It will be so fun to read this again and pick up those unwritten thoughts. No HAHHAHA the fact that I already wrote this at the bottom…I didn’t expect that. I’m done with myself. I’m back again 03:02 to clarify that until this day, no book has replaced 2ha. Don’t think any book will any time soon. I’m so attached…I’m still here at 03:05 to analyze myself. I think that I’m attached because I can relate to Moran. He’s also attached so I can empathize with him more and become more attached because he’s attached. I can’t help but pity him and myself because we’re so easily attached. This doesn’t make any sense cause I’m secretly sleepy I guess. The reason I’m attached to this is more than that…lemme reread)
My No.1 danmei right now! I love the journey of reading it. Because it has 10 books, it took me a good while to pick up. I literally read plenty of reviews , listened to ost. to convince myself before I decided to pick it up. I was really asking myself what I’m getting into at first because I knew it was gonna be painful and it’s extremely longggg, like “do I have time for this?”. However, I discovered a song, not the actual ost, but it has 2ha background and it was really good.
1. I saved the song. 2. I listened to it one whole day. 3. I picked up Husky the next day.
So thank that song with husky background😭🤝. I must say that the writing and Thai translation are really good and delicate. Never read this level of beautiful language before. The first few pages already drew me in, I remembered that they are funny and depressing at the same time.
An important part of this journey was music. I researched my own ost. for it…took me a week and more. Coincidentally, many of the song matched the story extremely well. One was about dream, one was about 3000 steps, one was about fireworks😭, which really appeared in the story later on. I thank myself for making myself hurt even more with the playlist. I don’t know whether to laugh or cry because the cute song got added at book 3 or 4 and got eliminated around book 6, sis lived so short.
It was so fun commenting on Moran and Wanning. I couldn’t sleep because of this. Planned everything everyday because of this. 3 weeks is a long period and long enough to get attached to them, consider all the dedication I put in this story. There was some point that it hurt till I can’t continue reading, I just listened to the ost or translated the scenes to prevent and prepare myself for the next page.
As for the story, it was really good, well written, painfully beautiful. The story also talks about moral, what’s right or wrong, human’s nature, something that I reflected on while reading. I actually learn from series and books when I read and watch them. This one got me thinking:
“I want to be like that person” “I guess this is also a kind of love” “I hate them but I also understand, I would do the same if I were them” “…oh, I like these type of thing” “Our feelings are complicated like this, I totally understand you”
As much as the nc is not important in a good book, it was necessary in this book. The scenes are a part of their relationship, their love and hate. During the past, the nc was painful for me, it was rough and wild, but also filled with longing. During Moran 2.0, I discovered that sex is something you do for the one you love, to make them happy, to cherish them. It’s deeper than nc for me. It’s heart warming and just shows the affection Moran has towards Chu Wanning. Their love is delicate and enormous. It painted another picture of love and sex in my perspective. Some can separate them from each other, but I feel like they still have strong connection.
Every character has their own reasons, it depends on readers if we think that they are good enough. They did it for the loved ones, family, survival, revenge. Was it really unreasonable? Was it really a bad reason? Who can we really blame on? These questions still got me thinking.
The story also portray love and hate relationship in a very detailed and complicated way. How confused and lost the characters in the relationship felt. It was pretty hard even for me as a reader…It was hard to not even know your true feeling and then get furious, get hurt, and eventually destroy everything with your own hand. And so, I like to analyze my feelings to try to understand myself better. He loves one person but thinks it’s another, before he realizes he has already hurt himself and the one he loves.
Another topic is do we love a person for their actions or just the person no matter how they are. I feel like the logic answer is their actions. I answered for their actions too, but what if the actions you fell in love with were fake, if it was not that person who did it, would you still love that person? When you’ve fallen in love, will you be able to change? Will you be able to give your love to the right person who really cares for you? What is it we actually love? Still a lifelong question…to simply put it for myself, I let other define it how they want while I also let myself define it when the time comes.
An hour long review…😭 okay but the sacrifices all the characters have to make…we are just gonna talk about MC here for it to not be 2 hours long…Chu Wanning…A cold, arrogant, yet kind and lonely person. He protects the world, has his morals, but he abandoned all that for Moran. His pure and untouchable aura filled with pride was like the fundamental of his life. He’s willing to stain his hands with blood for Moran. Moran also endured a lot of pain for Wanning. For 2 lifetimes, that little student was pure, innocent, and cherished his shizun more than anything. He chose the path of agony and no return for Shizun. “Can you please pay attention to me?” Every life, every time, the one wish was just that.
So the story is fast paced in my opinion. This happened one sec then another “shit what is this new information?!” So yes it keep me up at night, at whatever AM. And even now the reviews keep me writing for 2 hours. The scale is pretty big I would say. Really need to pay attention. I want to reread it someday in this year. Really have much more to write but I forgot because it’s too much…
I really got attached to the feeling of reading this and listening to the playlist. I put my all in doing song research…the problem is all the best songs is in this playlist. What will I use for my next novel? The songs are already connected to this story so it doesn’t feel right to reuse them😭.
I remember another thing. I love this book extra much because I like painful stories. I like to hurt, suffer and cry. Maybe it’s because I’m introvert, maybe it’s because my past experiences, maybe it’s something I’m not aware of, but I like it and see it as a way to experience things. I also like the feeling when my heart squeezes in my chest during painful scenes, and this story delivers that pretty well.
The review is actually unfinished cause I didn’t get to write everything I wanted to, it was really overwhelming. And now it’s 3 hours. Tomorrow the feelings will fade…will not be able to write more. I just wanna come back after rereading it one day.
“It doesn’t matter if it’s Mo-zongshi or Taxian-Jun. It's all you.” A happy end I did not expect! One of the best stories I've ever read! I'll be sad for months after this, but it was worth it. Love conquers all, even death, even time or space.