I'm probably going to piss some people off with this one.
Oh well.
DNF At Page 31.
I saw this book and read it's synopsis and immediately preordered this. Then I noticed early ratings were pointing in the direction of this not living up to expectations. Still, that premise had me sold on deciding for myself. It actually still does. This book may have had every single thing I love about books of this nature and maybe even some things I didn't know I would love until I read them here.
But in 31 pages, I KNOW it had a lot of things I am not and will never be looking for in a book. I will discuss those things here but since it's in the first 31 pages, I believe I can explain what turned me off and it will not spoil anything critical to the overall plot.
First, what I thought I was getting: Horror/Thriller. Abandoned and creepy amusement park with an alleged nefarious history to it's name. An alluded to established final girl participating in a week long game of Hide And Seek inside said amusement park. Our very own, down-on-her-luck main character only signing up for the contest with a hefty prize money purse out of desperation and really no other choice. But things head down an entirely gruesome path that our main character has had some experience with in her past. So now, instead of playing for the money, these characters hope to win by just still being alive at the end of this.
Come on, that sounds just like something I would be giving 5 Stars to and wishing I could read it over and over again for the first time. I use to never read new releases when I first got my hands on them. But I couldn't wait for this book to be delivered to me. I was so freaking hyped for it.
Now, what I actually got (in the first 31 pages): Already there were references to woke feminism, stereotypes that shouldn't have been there if this book is doing what I believe it was aiming to do (because hypocrisy much), someone losing their common sense over gender assumptions/complaining because someone inquired about their gender. These same characters that complained, had also already been assuming and making commentary on another character’s sexuality out of earshot from that character. Basing their assumptions on the most minute and ridiculous things. Yet, they get to throw out “they don’t owe you their gender.” WhAt?! Pick a lane because I cannot with being a hypocrite. But the moment I closed this book was 1.5 seconds after reading about the obvious dig at Supreme Court Justice Brett Kavanaugh. I know, I know. It's fiction, you're a crazy right wing conservative, etc. Bite. Me. Because I wasn't paying as much attention to that facet of politics as I should have been when everything with his trial/confirmation was going on. Yet, I remember thinking and saying, if that man has done a fraction of what he's being accused of then he absolutely does not deserve to be appointed as Supreme Court Justice. I was still naively following along with "believe all women." It was just after this that I started paying more attention and forming my own opinions, instead of letting the media tell me what I believed.
If you're like me and have been around reading and taking part in various online book communities for a long period of time, then you've likely noticed several different shifts in the stories we're given in this day and age. The book community demanded more diverse books. Alright, cool. I have loved a many M/M romances. I got that people that aren't like me wanted to see characters that reminded them of themselves and their experiences. I was totally on board, as clearly the authors were as well. Because it suddenly became a super saturated market of queer books. Then readers/consumers decided to move the goal posts. No longer were they happy with seeing a more adequate representation of characters that they shared some of the same lived experiences with. Oh no, now.. NOW! Anyone that defines themselves as anything other than what these fictional characters are were not welcome. It had to be "own voices." Now, I honestly don't give two crackers if every character in a book is queer. But demanding something then getting your way, getting that said something, was no longer good enough. If you haven't lived the same experiences as those characters you're writing then you are cancelled. You are not welcome anymore. You’re the problem. How dare they, right?? The nerve of these authors for listening and delivering on these things that people were screaming for. So they lost me there. I'm fairly certain every science fiction writer with a book on the market hasn't actually been to outer space. I find it highly unlikely that horror writers have all been through messed up and terrifying ordeals you find on the pages between their covers. I seriously doubt all of these fantasy romance writers have been to the Seelie Court. Yet, they are still allowed to bring those stories to you with no one wagging their fingers at them and saying, "shame on you." So, someone please make it, make sense. Actually, scratch that. I said what I said and it makes perfect sense to me and I don't need anyone to validate my thoughts on the matter or think there is any chance that you could make me see it any differently than I already do. (For me, this also includes authors writing POC rep when they are not POC.) It’s expression. I know there’s some counter arguments that some would make and I’d probably even agree with you to a certain degree. But overwhelmingly for me, authors should get to write what they want, whether we agree with what they’re putting in our hands or not. It’s 100% their story to tell. And it’s 100% a reader’s choice if it’s a story they want to engage with. That’s how that’s supposed to work.
I know, this has been a lot for only having read 31 pages of the book but I think it's all worth noting when, something can be said/done in such few pages/paragraphs that alienates and turns a reader off so quickly. ESPECIALLY when it's a reader that couldn't wait to read your story.
Don't get me wrong, as I said, this story is this author's to tell. She has every right to her personal opinions and she damn sure has the right to put whatever she'd like in her story. But for me personally, when I can spot an author's personal biases or recognize their personal political agendas in their works of fictions, I feel preached to, talked at, and it's a complete turn off every single time. There are too many books I want to read for me to waste my time on something that rubs me the wrong way or authors that are trying to push their believed narratives and opinions onto their readers and dressing it up as fiction. I'm just not here for it.
In closing, I want to make it perfectly clear. I do not care if every single character is queer. Do it. If the synopsis sounds promising then I am going to pick it up and read it and if it's good then I'm going to love it and give it all the stars. This isn't about anti queerness. I'd just prefer if it wasn't something that writers use as plot points. I feel much the same way about romance books with female main characters that are anything bigger than skinny. It bothers me that one of their characteristic traits then becomes her size and weight when they're not a slim person. What is so hard about just having a bigger sized female love interest whose weight is only mentioned the once when a writer is giving you things to visualize. And I find it absolutely disgusting that in almost all of those instances, the male love interest falls for her because of her size, or is "in to" thicker/bigger women. Like, why can't he just fall for her because she's wickedly funny or so smart and confident that he can't help but think to himself, I HAVE TO KNOW MORE ABOUT THIS WOMAN because she seems so fascinating.?
So that's it. That's my rant. I need authors to stop trying to make their points by preaching to readers that just picked up your book because they wanted to be entertained. Instead, we just get whatever hot button topic is currently trending shoved down our throats.