‣ we need more of this - more angsty & anxious neurodivergent gay stories populated by complicated they/them characters - stories about being weird and sad and deeply discontent, but living anyway.
‣ this weird queer graphic novel is so fucking good.
‣ the agony of longing, of putting all your hope and care and energy into that one person who doesn't seem to know that they're your entire world.
‣ the black and white art is dramatic and abstract - there are no grays, only contrast. the repetition of images is trippy and impactful.
‣ sydney's mindset is scary real - the invisible jury personifying one's own deep inner shame, human selfishness, autistic compulsions, sheer chronic loneliness.
‣ starman grants sydney's wish for their beloved, laurelie, to need them - but this wish is granted by laurelie contracting a horrible illness.
‣ deep-seated desire to become a prokaryote, a single celled organism, to be spared the discomfort of having thoughts, feelings, discomforts, desires, fears, actualizations.
‣ jarring absurdist humor is peppered into the dark existential pain and grief.
‣ also i love when starman makes a meta narrative nod to the author's own storytelling devices. badass.
‣ the remarkably high average gr rating of 4.64 tells me that the people who are reading this book are the ones who need it, and that makes me happy.