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342 pages, Paperback
First published January 12, 2022




It didn’t matter how many times I told Remy Archer that I saw her as a little sister. I swore to her that I considered her my closest friend, and I would never jeopardize the rock-solid relationship we’d had since we were kids by adding anything romantic or sexual to the mix.
Sure, I loved her. She was honestly the most loveable person I’d ever encountered in my short life. But I loved her like she was part of my family.
Cora squeezed my arm and gave me a serious look. “I’m not blaming what Remy did on you, Hyde. I’m asking you to help me save my daughter.”
It’s something else altogether now that you’re both older, and you’ve clearly told her you don’t share her feelings.”
And Remy wanted me to be her everything. She never made that a secret, but I couldn’t do that.
However, I should’ve known that when I told her I wanted the chance to meet someone else, it was a step too far in making my point. I didn’t really want a girlfriend or to meet someone else, but I knew telling Remy I did would be the one thing to finally get her to back off a bit.
She was so certain I’d come to love her the way she loved me, and it shattered her belief in herself, and in me, when I told her that any love I had to give, I wanted to share with someone else.
I pushed a curly piece of blonde hair off my forehead and muttered, “Don’t you remember that the last time he came home when he had leave, he brought a girl with him? It’s not the same as when we were young, Zowen. We’re different people now.”
I was over Hyde, and I was over being the girl who had loved him with everything I had while getting nothing in return.
“Remy, the reason Hyde’s not making those plans any longer is because the girl he was seeing died a couple months ago. She was killed in a car crash.”
“The girl was pregnant when the accident happened. Hyde’s coming home because he has a newborn baby girl he doesn’t know how to handle. The baby has been in a NICU unit on base in Georgia for the last couple of months.
And he’d made it pretty clear ages ago that there was no place in his life for me.
There was the night the girl I’d been seeing, the daughter of a commanding officer, informed me she was pregnant right when I was on the verge of breaking up with her. While I’d been away for training, she’d taken comfort in the arms of a friend while I was gone. She wasn’t sure if the baby was mine or his, and she was more worried about her family finding out about the pregnancy than about how I would react to being cheated on.
I lost a girl whom I no longer loved but still cared about deeply. I lost a friend and fellow soldier whom I thought I could trust until his betrayal. I nearly lost my baby. She was mine in my heart already, regardless of what any test would reveal.
When he first brought me home from foster care after my Aunt Echo went out of her way to track him down and let him know he had a child my mother never told him about, it took a bit for both of us to adjust to each other.
I’d wondered during the long, lonely hours sitting next to my baby in an incubator, silently praying that she’d be okay, if Remy knew I’d met a girl and became a father.
I couldn’t love Remy the way she wanted… no, needed me to when I was younger. I didn’t know how. And I couldn’t be there physically for Hollyn’s mother because of work and my commitments to the Army.
“Talking to you makes me feel terrible, Hyde. Your voice hurts me. Do me a favor and think about that next time you have a midnight crisis.”


I knew no-one in my life was ever going to treat me like I was the end-all and be-all of everything the way Remy Archer did. I honestly would’ve appreciated her devotion if it hadn’t scared the shit out of me. And if I had any clue what to do with any of it.
His vulnerability had always been my weakness, and I knew if he told me he needed me, I was toast. It was the one thing in life I always wanted more than anything: for him to rely on me the way I’d always had complete faith in him.
I wanted us to be equal. To be balanced. Because I’d always taken without being able to give back to him.
“You said I needed to find someone else to hold my hand while I figure out parenting, but the only hand I want to hold is yours. It’s always been that way.”
“I may not have known what I wanted or who I was when we were younger, but I do now. You don’t want me to define you by who you used to be. Give the guy standing in front of you a chance to show you who he is and what he has to offer.”
“I just want the chance to get to know you again. I’ve screwed up a lot of things in my life, and I’m doing my best to make them right. I won’t tell you who to be, Remy. I just want you.
I don’t know where this attraction and hunger came from since I’d known her most of my life, but whatever Remy awoke in my blood since I’d been back was insatiable, and I couldn’t get enough of her.
“I’m always going to be a little bit too much and never be easy to handle.”
I leaned toward her, hating the big piece of polished wood that separated us. “I never asked for easy. All I asked for you is you.”
Hyde and I were bound to have a beautiful but chaotic life together. It was going to be an imperfect masterpiece.

