CW: poverty, abuse, trauma, PTSD, mentions of the foster care system, parental neglect and abandonment, drug use, animal death (major catalyst for the overall plot), violence, death and murder, gun violence, toxic relationships, gaslighting
I'll admit that this was a hard book to read. When I initially picked this up I expected a wholly supernatural read filled with zombies, saving the world and some fun. The zombies were absolutely delivered, but they were served with a side of family trauma, abuse, and an introspective look at what happens when you're forced to confront the ugly parts of yourself and the toxic relationships around you.
Do not get me wrong, the story was amazing. It pulled several emotions out of me (most of the time anger) and I think that often times that's what a good book does. It elicits and taps into your strong emotions so that you can feel the story more deeply. And while this may not have been the fun action packed story I initially set out to read, it was definitely a moving one and one that I won't forget any time soon.
Katrell is literally forced to make hard decisions every day. She has a best friend who is dealing with her own trauma inflicted on her by previous foster parents, a mother who refuses to work and defends her horrible boyfriend til the end, and a man living her in her house that is not only worthless, but emotionally, verbally and physically abusive towards her. So of course, with everything falling on her to provide for herself and her mother (and that boyfriend) she turns to the only thing she can: her gift to communicate with the dead. And while that helps her make ends meat for awhile, she finds herself overwhelmed and having to tap into a new and dangerous power.
Katrell is a character you're constantly rooting for, but also one you want to beat over the head because SHE JUST DOESN'T LISTEN AND IS SO STUBBORN!! She's so determined to do things her way and believe that she can come through on the other side even when all the evidence points to the contrary. And while it was absolutely frustrating, it's incredibly realistic, especially the way she defends her mother and is in denial about just how toxic the woman is.
I think one of the biggest takeaways is that this is a heavy heavy book so be prepared going in, but if you're prepared for that then I think you'll enjoy it.