When She Weeps

by Jon Athan

Vanessa Ramirez, a 28-year-old employee at a beauty salon, wants to leave Mexico for greener pastures in the United States with her children, 10-year-old Lucía and 5-year-old Joaquín. With cartel violence spilling closer and closer to her doorstep every day, she seeks the help of the local coyotes—people smugglers—but is unable to afford the rising fees for their services. So, she reluctantly turns to Mexico’s criminal underworld to fund her escape and finds herself intertwined with the cartels she was so desperate to avoid.

A world of lust, greed, barbaric violence, and heartbreaking tragedy awaits her. Tragedy that will send her down the path to becoming a terrifying legend...

Jon Athan, the author of The Girl in the Attic and Am I Beautiful?, brings you a non-supernatural reimagining of the classic La Llorona urban legend in this brutal epic of extreme horror.

WARNING: This novel contains graphic content. Reader discretion is advised.

Genres: Horror, Thriller, Splatterpunk

307 pages, Kindle Edition

First published April 24, 2022

Reviews

[Mickey · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book is in split into three parts. In the first, Vanessa finds herself being pulled into the world of cartels, hoping to earn enough money for her and her children to leave Mexico and move to America. I found this part pretty slow and was a little unsure if I wanted to continue. But, given the author, I kept going. And I was not disappointed. In true Jon Athan fashion, parts two and three were filled with violence, and the kind of horror that made my heart sit firmly in my stomach.

[Samantha Hawkins · Rating 5 out of 5]

" When She Weeps" by Jon Athan

Vanessa wants a better life for herself and her kids. Her plan is to make enough money to leave Mexico and start over. But gaining money isn't easy especially when the price to freedom is constantly growing and changing. Hoping to speed up the process, Vanessa makes an incredible life changing decision to work for El Ken. It's a decision that will haunt her forever.

You guys, this is one hell of a ride! This story is by far the bloodiest and most extreme of Athan's work that I've read. Trigger warning, there are some scenes of child violence inside but please know these scenes are NOT for shock factor. They are very important to the plot of the story. If anything, these scenes enhanced every emotion that I felt while reading this amazing story. I loved that this story was a unique take on a very old urban legend as well. Solid 5 🌟

[John The Crippledgimp · Rating 5 out of 5]

Wow man Jon Athan never fails I think his books just keep getting better and better. When She Weeps was a awesome vigilante revenge story that is very loosely based the story of La Llorona This is not a supernatural horror though. It is brutal and full of triggers violence and revenge ..... This book reminded me a lot of that show Queen of the South but amped up to ten just fucking awesome.
This one is a instant but for me for my shelf and is now one of my favorites by Jon Athan. If you like drug cartels violence and revenge pick this one up 5 solid stars from me I dug this one a lot.

[Bailey Fox · Rating 5 out of 5]

Okay you guys, this just bumped it’s way up to be my favorite Athan read. He really outdid himself on this one! Wow. I absolutely love the way Athan incorporates urban legends into his novels and turns them into extreme horror stories. This particular one was based off of La Llorona. I loved the cover of this novel, and I couldn’t wait to figure out why she has bloody tears. The main storyline was all about drug cartels and people trying to survive/live a normal life in the dangerous areas of Mexico. It’s always great to see a horror author have a legitimate storyline, and Athan definitely brought that to the table. There was so much raw emotion in this story… he incorporated love, family, emotional turmoil, crime, and everyday life and somehow still managed to turn it into an extreme horror story- this book was truly terrifying because of how realistic it is! Oh, and obviously, since this is an Athan novel- there are a ton of trigger warnings. So please be aware that this book is definitely not for the faint of heart. Also, there is Spanish dialogue all throughout the book, and it really helped make this retelling of La Llorona feel truly authentic! But don’t worry if you don’t speak Spanish- each Spanish dialogue is followed with the translation in English, so it’s still very easy to follow.

[Mellisa · Rating 5 out of 5]

Vanessa wants a life for herself and her children away from the violence. She needs money, a lot of money. To get this money, she has to go deep in the life of the people she was trying to escape from. But a tragedy will lead her down a path of violence and pain, down the path of becoming a terrifying legend - the weeping woman.

Oh wow - this is @authorjonnyathan best book yet! This book had me cringing, gasping, shocked and unable to look away.

This is one of his longer books, which I am ecstatic about because I could ALWAYS read more from him. He has a way of keeping me hooked all the way through. He is my favourite extreme horror author, and when he sent me this arc I could have actually cried - I was SO happy.

This is an extreme horror, it's brutal and violent and has parts not for the faint hearted. But it's an absolutely incredible book that all horror lovers will love. A terrifying legend that will have you not wanting to put the book down.

An absolute must read - look at that cover ! How could you resist?

[Carrie Shields · Rating 3 out of 5]

I wanted so much to rate this book five stars, and if premise were enough, it would get that rating. It's the execution that fell a little flat for me.

I loved, loved the idea to re-tell the La Llorona legend in modern day Mexico with the focus on the cartels. That part worked well! Vanessa Ramirez is eager to cross the border with her two children to escape the brutal violence that is creeping ever closer to her front door. Because she can't afford the fees to pay the coyote, she finds herself working as an escort, knee deep in the criminal underground.

Then the unthinkable happens: Vanessa is beaten so badly that her tears flow as blood down her face, and the children she loved so much are murdered in front of her. What follows is a bloody quest for both retribution and redemption.

The execution is what bothered me, and I struggled with how to rate this. I would estimate that 35-40% of the book is written in Spanish, which I understand is necessary for realistic appeal; however, every time a Spanish word or phrase appeared, immediately after would be "which translates to..." I found that to slow down the story and give it a clunkiness that it really didn't need. In the author's notes, he said he struggled with that too.

Despite that flaw, it's a solid story that is definitely worth reading. I can't wait to see what he comes up with next.

[•mikaela• :) · Rating 5 out of 5]

Talk about slaying your enemies. 😬

[Makeila · Rating 4 out of 5]

WOW! The whole first half of this book gave me so much anxiety the first couple of chapters. I wasn't sure how this story was going to play out exactly but it is a story of revenge, but while wanting revenge Vanessa still has morals. such a great book!

[RoseDevoursBooks · Rating 4 out of 5]

I was ecstatic when the author sent me an eArc of this book because the lore of "La llorona" is one that has creeped me out since childhood! 😱 I've had friends in elementary school tell me La llorona roams the rivers and would drag children in to drown them if they got too close. So naturally, I had to request a copy of this book because I had a feeling it was going to keep me up at night 👀

Vanessa is a mom of two, living amongst violence in Mexico and desperate to make enough money to escape with her children to the states. Against her better judgment and with little options of making money, she gets involved with the cartel and what ensues is a tale of grief and revenge covered in gallons of blood and gore...

This was a cool splatterpunk reimagining of 'The Weeping Woman' without the supernatural element. Inspired by actual cartel snuff videos, the author is descriptive and thorough when it comes to the torture scenes. Now I love a good gory moment but after becoming a mom, scenes with murdered children have become unsettling to read. I had to detach myself from the story just to get through it. At the same time, this is also what added an emotional layer to the story and once I got past it, I really got to enjoy the revenge that followed. Vanessa felt like a real person who struggled in choosing right from wrong. Her desperation felt like shockwaves throughout the pages and I found myself rooting for her as she was getting her well deserved revenge in the most brutal of ways. Also, the fact that she cried bloody tears added a nice fearful touch!

Because this is set in Mexico, Athan added a layer of authenticity to the characters by including Spanish dialogue and then translating it to English for non-spanish speakers. I thought this was a nice touch that really enhanced the experience for me.

This is extreme horror in all of it's raw and bloody viciousness. If you're not use to reading books with over the top gore with vivid descriptions of bodies being torn apart, then this isn't for you. This book actually bleeds as you turn the page! Splatterpunk fans will absolutely eat up this unique take on the urban legend.

[M · Rating 5 out of 5]

Even though this was a non supernatural take on the legend of La Llorona, and don’t get me wrong it was that, it was very much its own. Resurrecting, and modernizing this old lore that’s probably been told and retold a million times Jon Athan gives it new life, putting his own spin on it. It was brutal at times so reader beware and check triggers before picking this one up. I will never be able to see, let alone eat, another Gansito again without thinking about this book. Facing horrible tragedy Vanessa manifests her grief as anger and revenge, and there is nothing I enjoy more then a story about an avenging woman. When She Weeps was written so well with the third person perspective that was a floating eye in the story, and would focus in on whoever the subject of the scene was telling the story almost through their perspective without losing that feeling of third person, made it feel like I was physically witnessing this story play out. I don’t often deem authors favorites because I don’t feel I’ve read enough of most author’s work to decide that, and this is my first Jon Athan book, but based on this book alone I’m now a huge fan of his and need to read more of his work ASAP.

[Diane · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book was totally awesome...it put me through so many emotions that I didn't know which way to turn....all the characters were mind-blowing....if you want pure extreme torture,gore and the gag reflex from the first page until the last then read this.There is an overload of sheer torture throughout the whole book,NOTE!!!there are child killings within this story...but this adds to the story for a reason and wasn't written in to shock. Jon Athan does it again....I loved this book and it didn't disappoint...but be warned you most certainly need a very strong stomach to digest this book.

[Sharon Leung · Rating 5 out of 5]

Amazing read

I held off reading this book as I knew on e I started it I would be engrossed in the story as I have with every one of Jon Athans books. And I have to say I wasn't disappointed. This story line was one that could be straight from the mouths of victims etc. It felt so true to life and the characters where amazing. I loved Vanessa and Raphael.. Both amazing characters in their own ways. I also liked the reference to laluara the weeping woman. The reference doing justice for Vanessa. So many twists I. The story kept it captivating, having you submerged into the words drinking in the story. The harsh and violent ways of the cartel that caused so much pain, only to give birth a new brutal grieving foe, that won't rest until she has finished. Only her conscience is playing with her head, so she struggles with rights and wrongs, and if she can become one of the cartel hitmen, and seek justice for all she has endured. A thoroughly fascinating, extreme read. Definitely recommend but not for the easily offended.

[Nelli Lakatos · Rating 3 out of 5]

DNF’d at 35%

“Being cautious means staying one step ahead of everyone else. Being scared means cowering behind and letting the monsters get ya.”

I’m so sad I can’t finish this book.
I couldn’t get into the story, I was bored the whole time and my mind just kept wondering somewhere else. Also there wasn’t any gore or brutal thing in it like in other books by the author I read so far. I gave the book three stars but I think it just mostly because I love Jon Athan other books and I mean I didn’t have a really specific problem with the book. Ah also there was so many translations in it from Spanish which was annoying for me.

[Jacob B · Rating 5 out of 5]

The first book I've ever pre ordered.

I'm very into the idea of la Llarona, and very scared of the idea of older women ghosts out for revenge. While this book was not supernatural, it scratched the itch somehow.

Athan is a very talented storyteller. I've read a good amount of his books this year. The extreme violence doesn't necessarily stack up to the violence in The Groomer or Do Not Disturb, but maybe I'm burnt out on extreme horror. The violence is extreme however. I don't want to say what happens but it was all satisfying.

[Ricky Solis · Rating 5 out of 5]

morbid, macabre, and sick. awesome!

This has to be my new favorite from Jon Athan. The graphic, and I mean graphic, details are meticulous and disgusting which is done often but not to this level of writing and story telling. It’s not a punch you in the face just for the sake of punching you in the face type of book. This book goes so deep into the psyche of the main character that you can’t help but sympathize with her and I grew up scared poopless of the fairy tale this is based off of. Just so much gory awesomeness. You won’t regret it unless you have triggers

[Richard Longmore · Rating 4 out of 5]

Poor Vani. Living in a part of Mexico where cartel killings are an everyday thing, her and her two children are put in a no-win situation. She wants to be smuggled with her children into the US, but the coyotes are demanding more money than she could possibly get with a "normal" job. She feels like there's a ticking time bomb - if she doesn't get out before her children grow just a bit, they'll get pulled into the cartels almost certainly. With this in mind, she decides to start working in a whorehouse as a prostitute.

While there, she meets an American who treats her with more respect than her "average" clients. He gives her an opportunity to make even more money, where she'll likely be able to get to America in just a few months. She's already compromised herself to the point of prostitution...will she go even further?

Well, it'd be a short book if she didn't. But you can imagine that it's not going to end well.

Jon Athan mentions in his notes that the story was his attempt to follow the La Llorona ghost story without moving into the supernatural realm. A ghost story with no ghost. Tough stuff to pull off.

He's mostly successful though. We know she's compromising her morals continually but she's doing it for all the right reasons and we want the best for her and her family. When things go wrong, it turns full "Death Wish"/"I Spit on Your Grave"-ish, with Vani becoming an angel of death, getting revenge against those who wronged her and/or those she loved.

Jon Athan weaves a good tale and brings the horror where it's needed. The biggest annoyance I found was that a fair bit of the dialogue in the book is written in Spanish, then immediately re-written in English. In the afterward notes, he mentions that he felt it was important to have the correct language in the book, but it had to be English friendly and this was the best compromise. I totally get the idea behind it. There is something eye-rolling about stories set in Italy or Germany or Japan and everyone is speaking English. A Mexican Cartel story should have some Spanish. That said, it's a somewhat clumsy solution, at least for this reader. It becomes less common in the latter half of the book, where characters seem to be okay with talking in English most of the time, but that serves to show that even the author got tired of it.

I want to be clear though - this is a good book for anyone who is interested in revenge/vengeance stories or cartel tales. It's graphic for the horror fans but it's also heartbreaking at times. A very solid read, only slightly hampered by a good-faith attempt to write a story that takes place in Mexico, despite having an audience that generally is English only. Recommended.

[Rachel M · Rating 4 out of 5]

I did like this one, it’s the 2nd one of Jon’s I’ve read with Urban Legends. I do prefer Am I Beautiful. This one I listened to on audible, I’m glad I did as there is a lot of Spanish in the book and while it is an important part of the story I felt this wasted a lot of the book and if I was reading this rather than listening I would have skipped the Spanish parts and gone straight to the translation as in effect the book was repeating itself as it was in 2 different languages. Other than that it’s a great, gory story.

[Ronita · Rating 3 out of 5]

This book is about Vanessa, a young widow with 2 children living in Mexico. Times are rough, she’s poor and it’s hard to make ends meet. It’s also very unsafe with all the street violence and the Cartel running the show. Her goal is to make enough money to flee Mexico with her kids and move to the US. Well, desperate times call for desperate measures and she ends up working for the Cartel and starts making big money fast but not without a price.

This book is basically one of those vengeance books (which is right up my alley) although it is EXTREMELY gory.

For anyone who’s not familiar with Jon Athan’s writing, his writing is very vulgar (nasty, blood, guts and terror). I used to love reading this kind of stuff but I’m not able to stomach it much anymore. I really enjoy his story lines but I skim through the torture parts (which do take up probably 60% of the book). Also, a lot of this book was in Spanish which he would then translate into English (which also took up a lot of the book).

I’ve read many Jon Athan novels and I’d have to say this wasn’t one of his best. The story line was good but I’ve read much better female vengeance books (he’s got a couple of great ones too, just not this one!)

[❤ArtfullySinful❤ · Rating 3 out of 5]

“I always knew it was going to end like this, mija. Murder and torture… It’s part of the job. Part of our lives. We do it for money and we do it for fun. You’ve heard the saying, no? ‘Live by the sword, die by the sword.’ We take lives until it’s our turn to be taken. That’s the way it works.” He chuckled, then said, “In México, if you’re not dying from a heart disease, you’re dying from a bullet to the heart or a ripped-out heart or… or a broken heart. Isn’t that right, mija?”

To escape the violence and addictions laced through Mexico is a dream for Vanessa Ramirez and her tow children; Joaqúin (5) and Lucia (11). Raising as a single mother since the father of her children was gunned down two years prior, simply making ends meet is a crippling endeavor. Working at a local hair salon, she's saving every peso she makes to pay the coyotes to get her family over the border into the safety of the United States. Unfortunately, the price previously agreed upon has rose three times the value and is leaving Vanessa very few options to acquire it. When her closest friend Alicia recommended she takes a job working at a bar and brothel, she swallows her pride and self respect and accepts the position. Trading her morals for sexual favors, she's sleeping with countless men a night while lying to her children and claiming late nights at a diner is what's keeping her from being home with them. When one of her nights presented El Ken (Caleb Carter) into her life, he tried to smooth talk her into joining the cartel and helping him traffic meth, cocaine and heroin into the states and at first she refused straight out. Night in and night out she's wearing herself thinner, and Caleb would finally break her resolve a few weeks later and set her right into a dangerous and fatal life path.

They know you’ll pay anything to get out of here, so they’ll keep asking for more and more.”

Agreeing to play the part of his fiance as they smuggled drug across the border, Vanessa couldn't deny the money earned was far higher than anything she ever would've seen at the brothel. Keeping her kids at Alicia's for weeks at a time, she truly believed she could keep the cartel work and her family far away from one another. Meeting Rafael Vàsquez, the Decapitator was a starting school as she was accepted deeper into one rival cartel and her work shifted from being a druh mule to assisting Yolanda with assassinations of rivals. When their hit fell through and Vanessa stayed back to help Yolanda, both would be captured and she would witness first hand how ruthless these rivalries ran. Watching person after person trusted and slain, it was finally her turn to confess but she unfortunately knew so very little they believed she was lying and covering up. When Gustavo Rivera finally set his sights on Vanessa, he was ready to drag her children into it and forced the battered woman to watch both her children be drowned. Heartbroken and shutting down, she remained mute for weeks as she recovered from her severed throat and countless bruises in the hospital. When her boss learned of the deaths, he offered her an olive branch and the opportunity to prove her place and get the revenge she sought. Gifting her the chance to kill those responsible for the massacre, she reluctantly agreed. Teamed up with Diego, the second hand man, they begin taking vengeance back and the deaths were stacking up. With only Caleb and Gustavo left to suffer, Yolanda has the latter caught and Diego and Vanessa head across the border and into California to finally get hands on Caleb.

Although she couldn’t hear them, she knew a song of tragedy always followed the music of violence—gunfire replaced by emergency sirens, battle cries by pained cries, insults by prayers, life by death.

When Vanessa first saw Caleb two months after the death of her children, all the hatred and pain she felt inside nearly imploded as she watched him with his own wife; Leah and ten years old son; Nathan. Turning from the man she thought she could fall for into a cold and calculated con artist, she was ready to kill him yet Diego held her back. Wanting to use the family as a prime example of why not to switch against the cartel, she didn't agree with the incoming deaths of the wife and child. As they tortured Caleb to death, she begged to spare Leah and Nathan and unfortunately would have to kill Diego to get him to stop. Destroying the camera footage of the torture she returned to Mexico with the lie of an ambush and it was somehow beloved to be true. Finally able to slaughter Gustavo, she buried all the agony she felt into every slice and stabbed. Knowing she will never see her children again, she's determined to keep her place within the cartel as she keeps avenging her slain babies

Violence had a ripple effect. It touched the lives of everyone close to the epicenter. It could burden loved ones with grief and infect witnesses with survivor’s guilt

[Bradley · Rating 4 out of 5]

The switching between English and Spanish is terrible.

I really enjoyed this book. I love revenge story and that is what this is. The one thing that really stopped this from being a four star read is the writing

This story takes place mostly in Mexico. Dealing with the cartel. And of course you would expect the author to work
Some Spanish into the writing but he would write sentences only to translate them in the next paragraph. Which puts a halt in the story. It really disrupts the flow. Or he will write a word and then write, ‘that translate to…”. Example he’ll write ‘ dinero that translates to money’ yeah that really grated my nerves and it’s throughout the entire book.

But basic plot. Vanessa wants to cross over into America she gets scammed and has to make more money to cross. Chaos ensues

The ending: Vanessa gets revenge on the people involved in the killing of her children and ruining her life. She then continues on in her life of crime.

[Elle Sie · Rating 5 out of 5]

Okay, so I'm guilty of judging a book by its cover, and in this case it paid off. Excellent, creepy cover art and a gory, enthralling read. I was not familiar with the legend of La Llorona, though I did look it up after I finished this book. I should mention that this novel is not all graphic violence, or else I might not have stuck with it. In this story, Vanessa, as a struggling former beauty salon worker turned cartel hitwoman, the character arc was so well written that her gradual transformation from grieving mother to ruthless killer was so believable. I really felt for Vani, even when she seemed to have lost her humanity, only to regain it. In fact, this story seemed to highlight how sometimes going over to the darkest reaches of the human psyche is what is needed in order to find the meaning of goodness, or forgiveness, or redemption - and when to exercise revenge. A great book. I'll be checking out more by this author most definitely.

[Speciesamused · Rating 5 out of 5]

Lucia is a widowed young woman with two children. Trying to make it
on her own has been harrowing in Mexico. Life is extremely hard. She is trying
to save money to pay the coyotes to take her and her children across the boarder into America
where she can provide a better life for her two loving children. She takes a second job,
prostitution as she cannot
earn enough at her regular job to pay the coyotes. There she meets a man who works
for the drug cartel and tells her if she does a few jobs for him she could have enough money in
six months to go legally across the boarder with her beautiful children. This is her story, things do
not go according to plan. A brilliantly thought out and investigated story that will make your blood
run cold. You will never take your life for granted again.

[Kirsty Mills · Rating 5 out of 5]

A woman desperate for a better life for herself and her two children. In Mexico she lives on a knife edge as violence surrounds, she fears the worse for her family if she is unable to break free and make a new life in the USA. With few options available she swiftly becomes embroiled in the seedy underworld working for one of the cartels transporting drugs after meeting a man promising a quick way to earn the money she needs for a new life. But easy money comes at a price as Vanessa becomes a person she vowed not to in the name of her children.
The passion and drive really comes through as we follow Vanessa's journey and struggles with her changing self. Excellent writing with extreme violence woven into the story, as is some Spanish for authenticity.

[Andrew Jarvis · Rating 3 out of 5]

Not What I Was Expecting

A tense crime thriller rather than a horror story, this one wasn’t bad by any stretch but I didn’t love it. It had some solid moments, but the writing got on my nerves here and there; Athan occasionally will write entire paragraphs in Spanish then immediately translate it into English, and it makes for tedious reading. The La Llorna theme was a little underused as well; this wasn’t as tightly tied to its urban legend as Athan’s “Am I Beautiful?”.

Still, it’s hardly bad overall, and I read the whole thing over two days. The tension is high, the violence is intense, and outside of the Spanish/translation bits the writing is good.

[Thomas Hobbs · Rating 5 out of 5]

For fans of La llorona.
La llorona is a Mexican story about a woman ghost who as I was told, was always on a bridge crying, because she can't find her children.
I live on Texas border and was raised with this story. When She Weeps is almost the same story, except the main character Vanessa or Vani, is still very much alive. And her thirst for vengeance is very strong. She basically had everything taken from her and this is her story. Side note, author left the story open for a sequel but since the story was written over 3 years ago, I'm not sure there will be one.

[Jade · Rating 5 out of 5]

Thrilling gripping

Was a bit slow to get into but at one point (you'll know when) the book picks up pace and gets fantastic the retribution aspect the gore and brutality and the vengeance just fantastic one of jon athans best books and I've read quite a lot of his so far fantastic writer

Highly recommend
Not for the faint of heart
Would also recommend to women into disturbing horror who like a woman with a batman like vengeance and saw like thrills
I will definitely be getting this on audible

[Bea · Rating 4 out of 5]

This modern retelling of La Llorona was *chefs kiss*. If you’re not a fan of gore I would suggest that you steer clear of this read because there are some VERY graphic scenes. Vanessa would do anything for her children and I truly believed she would right through til the end. I wasn’t even finished with this book and I was already telling everyone about it. I liked the ending. I liked the book. I liked the characters (even the a-holes cause they made me hate them).

[notcomfortablehere · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book is... devastating. Devastatingly good and devastatingly painful. A lot of the extreme horror novels I read, I can detach myself from due to the improbable subject matter or the writing itself, but this? My soul hurts, everything hurts. Jon Athan's writing skill takes you in and gives you no breaks for air. There are no highs in this book, no moments of relief. Only deep, harrowing lows. I can still practically taste the dirt in my mouth.

[Denella Marie · Rating 5 out of 5]

Enjoy your books.

I have read almost all of your books and, Ive yet to be disappointed. This story really was one of my favorites besides the Ashley Collins book. (The first book of your i read). I connected with all the characters (i have lived in mexico). I cant wait to see what kind of gore you come up.with in the Presidents Son.

[Adam Wilson · Rating 4 out of 5]

Yet again, Athan’s writing continues to improve drastically. Some may be annoyed by the constant use of foreign language followed up by English translations, but I felt it gave the book a lot of realism. He obviously watched a couple cartel videos, especially the one titled Funky Town Gore AKA Boxcutter Boy, and crafted a novel just as disturbing as that snuff film. Athan is finally putting quality over quality and I am so thankful.