I think I found this book on a sale listing, and it took me a while to get around to reading it. I have not read the other books in the series, as I didn't know they existed until I read one of the reviews here. All I can say about this book is that the characters, especially Pip, are nestled away in a cozy corner of my heart.
From the outside, Pip is a quick-witted, extremely charming, over-confident aristocratic lesbian. Pip responds to criticism with humor, to uncomfortable situations with ease, and conquers rejection through perseverance.
At first glance, Claire is the opposite of Pip. She's unsure of her social and professional standing, having no faith in herself or her art when life is rocky, yet she is self-aware enough to build walls to protect herself from experiencing heart-break again.
One would think Claire wouldn't be able to handle someone like Pip and should steer clear, but Claire matches Pip punch for punch and refuses to stay down for the count.
To Pip, Claire is a challenge. Nobody has ever demanded anything from Pip other than luxury and pomp, seeing Pip as a means to a luxurious end. Claire demands the opposite-- refusing to allow any piece of aristocratic privilege to touch their tenuous relationship. Claire's foresight in knowing that if she allowed herself to let go, she'd step off the ledge-- into the chasm-- and fly freely until she hit the bottom. She knows she wouldn't survive the fall, so establishes some ground rules with Pip before she agrees to date. First- be honest that this will end, and be honest throughout. Second- don't try to charm her with money and prestige, because it amplifies her own insecurities about staying above water by maintaining a frugal lifestyle, and also because even though she knows money doesn't determine worth, her actions show that society's worship of monetary wealth have left a dent in her beliefs. Third- give each other an honest, proper goodbye when their time comes to an end-- which it definitely will-- but respect each other enough to be truthful.
In setting the rules, she strips Pip's camouflage, and is the first person to see Pip vulnerable. We learn that Pip really doesn't have it all. Pip merely has perfected wearing a costume, one that works with family and society. Without the disguise, Pip must start searching for their true form, which will be as uncomfortable to watch as an gangly teenager weaving through the crowded hallway the first day of high-school.
For the first time, Pip's given the space and license to try out whatever labels feel right, allowed to freely discard the ones that don't fit, and take the time to see what sticks.
When Pip finally admits to themself that though they hate being addressed with the title "Lady", they certainly aren't a Duke or Earl or any of the other titles given to men. Pip tries out they/them and find the pronouns fits like a favorite pair of jeans. Clair gives Pip the space to grow into their newly discovered self, while Pip also finds out, through helping Claire at her gallery, that they do have the skills to make their own way. Spinning things, twisting the truth, quick wit and charm, all of those combine into an amazing skill-set, used from selling art to making deals. It's something 100% theirs, not attached to their wealth and title at all-- the skills were acquired by being made to fit in a world that never allowed for self-discovery . Pip's been so good at playing their part that their family bought the lie long ago, and now expect nothing more of Pip than for them to continue playing the field and never amounting to anything. But, with Claire's support, Pip is able to show their family the new them, the one that was discounted years ago.
So, what will happen when the two parts of Pip's life start tugging them in different directions? If given the chance to lose their safety net--reliant on titles and familial obligations-- Will Pip chose themself and in doing so, also land their dream woman for good?
I won't tell you what Pip does, because in order to come to a conclusion, one must dissect the equation. Read this story of self-exploration, of finding your worth and making hard decisions-- while falling in love with two characters destined to be together... if they could get out of their own way.