Full of humor and heartbreak, this story about a nonbinary character navigating a binary world is perfect for fans of Alex Gino and Kyle Lukoff.
It’s exhausting trying to be the perfect daughter.
Still, getting good grades without making any waves may be the only way to distract from the fact that Sparrow Malone’s mother is on the verge of falling apart. Which means no getting upset. No being weird. No standing out for the wrong reasons.
But when Mom’s attempts to cope spiral out of control, Sparrow is sent to live with Aunt Mags on a sprawling estate full of interesting, colorful new neighbors. And for the first time, trying to fit in doesn’t feel right anymore. Even Sparrow’s shadow has stopped following the rules.
As Shadow nudges Sparrow to try all the scary, exciting things Mom has always forbidden, Sparrow begins to realize something life-changing: they don’t feel like a girl. Or a boy. And while this discovery is exciting, now Sparrow must decide whether to tell everyone—their new family and friends, not-so-secret crush, and most importantly, their mom—the truth, especially if it means things change forever.
"An endearing celebration of the value of queer community and family" –Alex Gino, Stonewall Award-winning author of MELISSA
“The writing sings and the characters soar. I cheered for Sparrow on every page.” –Natalie Lloyd, New York Times bestselling author of A Snicker of Magic
Ash Van Otterloo was born and raised in the Appalachian foothills, then made his home for seventeen years as an adult in Eastern Tennessee. Their personal pronouns are he/him or they/them; both work!
They currently reside in the PNW with four wild forest gremlins with a small menagerie of animals. Ash is the author of CATTYWAMPUS, A TOUCH OF RUCKUS, and most recently, a nonbinary coming-of-age story THE BEAUTIFUL SOMETHING ELSE (Scholastic, May '23).
Whether or not he is 5328 bats in a trenchcoat is a topic for gossip among his neighbors. The ones, at least, that the bats haven't carried away! You can learn more about him at ashvanotterloo.com.
I would give this book 25 stars if I could!! No notes. Literally, I have no notes at all. I genuinely think this book healed part of my Baby!Sam's soul. Not even in the gender way, because lord knows I didn't realize I was trans by 12, but in terms of parenting, Sparrow and Baby!Sam would have had a lot to talk about.
This book is something beautiful, and I look forward to be able to share this with kids I know, particularly for the gender stuff, but with my friends (adults) as well, because I think this book can really help heal those of us who dealt with parental neglect as a child. I thinking reading about Sparrow's experiences has been something special, in the way that they are torn in two: between being the 'normal girl' their mother needs them to being, and being the authentic, queer, neurodivergent child that they actually are.
All in all, this is a great book for kids exploring their gender identity, kids learning about gender issues (as this book asks and answers some great questions about queer/trans people), but also kids and adults who have dealt with parental neglect and parentification. I hope this soothes their soul, at least a little bit, because it soothed mine.
Special thanks to the author and publisher for an ARC in exchange for an honest review.
Middle grade books that feature queer kids messing up and fixing things and then finding people who will love them for them are my fucking kryptonite. They wreck me every time.
Sparrow is just a kid trying to fix everyone else's problems. They are trying to be the best daughter for their mom who has an addiction problem and wants her little "Maggie Grace" to be a perfect pretty girl. They are trying to be the best at school to show people that their mom is okay. That they are okay. Except they're not.
Sparrow ends up outside of their mom's care and finds the sweetest queerest found family. They learn that they can't fix others and that they aren't responsible for someone else's pain or struggles. All they can do is be responsible for their own actions and do their best to be kind.
This is a book EVERYONE should read. It teaches empathy, sympathy, and acceptance. Sparrow is a character you root for from the first page. Since it’s written for upper elementary/middle school audience, it’s a quick read for adults. And as an adult I loved it. This book is going in my classroom library and will be a book I recommend to everyone of every age. Thank you Ash Van Otterloo for being vulnerable and writing this book so people can feel seen and safe in libraries and allowing others to learn.
Great character creation, development, and storyline. Great job addressing addiction, trauma, coping, etc… EXCELLENT job using a wide variety of queerness without overdoing it. Every identity was incredibly intentional and well applied.
Storyline was really good. I loved watching the MC self destruct and dig herself into a deeper hole. I loved all of the adult support they were surrounded by and the amazing friends they made.
It’s both a really uplifting story and hard story, especially for queer youth. DEFF recommend to queer readers!!
“I’m learning to be gentle with myself. I reach inside my soul’s DNA for blueprints without copying answers from anyone else’s page. I melt. I rest. I wait. I become strong. I am light and darkness. I am neither, both, and something else entirely.” this story is an absolutely nockout, and not only because I share some pieces of sparrow. I highly recommend— I am speechless. the book speaks for itself!!
A great middle grade novel that tackles some heavy issues including having a parent with addiction problems and coming out as nonbinary. Told with a touch of magical realism and a great cast of secondary and found family. This was good on audio and perfect for fans of Alex Gino, AJ Sass and books like Jude saves the world by Ronnie Riley.
Oh my heart! I loved this book. Because I saw myself at times. Though Sparrow and I had very different childhoods, so many feelings of inadequacy, putting on a false front, trying to be strong when it was the last thing we felt are the same. There are alot of Sparrows out there...I wish them peace & love & people who see them.
Wow! This is a coming of age and finding yourself book that so many of us need and not just kids! Need some more time to think and process this one, but get your hands on it!!
CWs: Experiences of misgendering, deadnaming, and dysphoria; allusions to drug abuse, child abuse, and past alcoholism; instances of bullying and homophobia; and a brief mention of vomit
Notes on representation:Sparrow is nonbinary and queer, Sparrow’s aunt is trans, their best friends are queer and one is dyslexic, and Sparrow is also coded as neurodivergent.
By the time I finished this book, I was a weeping mess.
By the time I turned the final page in The Beautiful Something Else, I just felt a cathartic release of emotion, because reading this story felt incredibly healing for inner nonbinary child. There were things in this book that I still needed to hear as a nonbinary adult, and I'm just so glad that it exists for queer readers of any age at any point in their journey.
This is a story that really tackles those connotations of shame, wrongness, and stigma that get attached to queerness. It explores how "morality/moral value" is all too often falsely equated with queerness, which is something keeps Sparrow deeply closeted, even to themself. Because Sparrow's mom struggles with mental health and drug abuse, they've had to grow up pretty quickly, and they've taught themself not to "draw attention" to their family or their situation, and because queerness is seen as a "moral failure," that keeps them from their identity out of fear.
So when Sparrow gets this second chance at life and childhood after moving in with their estranged aunt, they're opening themself up to all the beautiful—and possibly uncomfortable—possibilities that life holds.
To me, that's where the story excels, in showing how fear often operates in two ways: it can protect us from danger and harm, but it can also hold us back from exploring the unknown. And the story explores how tangled those two modes of fear become within someone who's deeply traumatized and programmed to always be in survival mode. At the same time, it's not attempting to demonize the concept of survival, but in fact honors how survival is a natural part of life, and something that is at times necessary in order to ensure that we have a future worth living.
As I said in a feature for BooksFowardPR: "Yes, [The Beautiful Something Else] is about Sparrow coming into their nonbinary identity, but it’s also about working through trauma and learning to move towards the kinds of beauty and safety that prevail beyond its confines. This is very much a story about the transition between surviving and living, and how growing into exactly who you are will always be a journey worth taking."
For every instance of grief, sadness, and fear present in this story, there is an even greater instance of healing, discovery, and joy to be unearthed throughout Sparrow's journey. So while it runs the emotional gamut, the story is still firmly seated in love and hopefulness. In the end, The Beautiful Something Else is about the courage it takes to lower our defenses, embrace the unknown, and step into ourselves, and to me there is no better story worth telling.
Oh man, middle school me would have loved this. Hell adult me needed it in a way that I didn’t know I needed. It’s a lot less Magical than this author’s other books but just as engaging and absolutely beautiful. I’m so glad kids are gonna have this one
If tween me had a book like this, I would have felt so much less alone. As it stands, I'm a 50 year old who feels seen. I cannot recommend this book enough!
As usual, with books that touch a long-buried feeling , or that I really liked, it's taken me several days to be ready to write a review. The book is about a middle -schooler.who is discovering they might be different and want different things than what they've always been. In this story, Sparrow discovers they like clothing , hairstyles, and people that their mother would not approve of. And not just because Sparrow is beginning to feel they are "something else" besides girl or boy, but because Sparrow's whole life has been geared toward making their mom look good by being a good normal kid with good grades so they can stay together. Because Sparrow's mom likes pills a little too much and has a hard time maintaining a stable life. And Sparrow is ever watchful and ready to plug emotional or other gaps so they can have any life together at all. When Sparrow encounters a safe breathing space for a time, there is a bit of internal conflict: who am I when I'm not impressing, pleasing, or being hypervigilant? The gaps in navigating ones internal world independently get Sparrow into (what seems to the adult reader to be logical and expected) trouble until safe and kind teachers and friends lend a hand. For anyone with a neglectful childhood (even a "loving", "benign" neglect); for anyone who didn't realize there was another way to be besides the way your grown-up needed you to be; for anyone who's felt their shoulders loosen and diaphragm open when they discover what THEY really like, what feels like home in their bodies ; for anyone trying to unpeel layers of generational abuse and trauma; for anyone who is around young people, this book will explore these themes in a gentle, safe way. Written for "middle grades", this book has appeal for people of all ages. I could say more, and I've tried to provide little detail, because I want people to EXPERIENCE this book without bias.
i think in hindsight i had a shadow as a kid too. it would come out when i put my race car bike helmet on, or when i played with worms in the dirt, or when i wore my blue backpack to school. growing up with femininity so deeply engrained in me meant that i buried my discomfort for the sake of fitting in. my race car helmet collected dust in the garage, i left the worms alone, and my mom bought me a different backpack to tune out the teasing. there’s comfort in fitting in, but it’s fleeting. by the time these feelings i had stowed away caught up to me in my twenties i, just like sparrow, had no idea who i was.
that’s why books like these are essential. my gender queerness has always been on my shelf, waiting to be tried on. but until very recently, i didn’t have all the words i needed to break it in. learning about shared experiences and the terminology that accompanies them has saved my life, just as it will for other kids.
this book serves as a poignant reminder that living outside your comfort zone is the most comfortable you will ever be.
and, as for me, i never miss an opportunity to play with worms anymore. my younger self knew exactly who they were, and doing the work to find that out has been the most rewarding journey of my life.
this book healed parts of me i didn’t even know needed healing. so, with that being said, READ QUEER BOOKS! WRITE QUEER BOOKS! we have always been here and will continue to be FOREVER!
Sparrow has always tried to be the perfect daughter to keep her mom stable, but after her mom goes to rehab, Sparrow is sent to live with her estranged Aunt Mags on a commune. There, Sparrow's shadow comes to life, pushing her to explore her identity and realize she doesn't feel like a girl or a boy. Faced with the fear of judgement from others, Sparrow must decide whether to conform or embrace their true self.
A beautiful story about self acceptance and self discovery. I loved this short novel. At under 300 pages the author still managed to create a beautiful and crucial piece of literature for young people who are questioning their gender or looking for representation and validation. This is a middle grade novel and that is so important because so many Queer books, while amazing, are either picture books for little kids/families or YA books for older teens. The author does a great job of keeping the themes appropriate for younger adolescents while also creating a meaningful and emotional journey. The dynamic between Sparrow and their parent is also extremely relatable for so many Queer people. If you are Queer, or an ally to Queer people, especially Queer kids, you cannot miss this one.
And I can't end this post without stating that this is very clearly in the running for most beautiful cover of the year! Breathtaking! 💙💜🩷💛🧡
First of all, I read the first 112 pages in a single sitting, and the rest of the book the next morning AGAIN IN A SINGLE SITTING (well, I had to stop sitting, the final twenty pages I was pacing back and forth manically while trying to read through tears).
This book is a beautiful, messy, confusing and painful coming of age story of becoming your fullest and realest self, despite all the pain that can come from 'letting down' the people who make you believe you need to be the things people 'expect' to see, filled with beautifully patient and available adults, showing what a childhood can and should be. The ending monologue/play, tying Sparrows' developement to real life creatures from the natural world - wow. Just wow.
Great book for tweens who are trying to either figure out their gender identity and sexuality or for tweens with friends are doing the same. It grapples with tough subjects in a sensitive way, and it also has a community filled with other tweens, college aged people, and middle aged (or older) adults who have it figured out and how are supportive of Sparrow’s gender expression and identify. So important when Sparrow also has a mom who deadnames Sparrow constantly and is hyper focused on the gender expression of her child. Highly recommended!
I read this in a very quick two sittings (albeit in audiobook format), which is a huge compliment to how engrossing and wonderful this story is. The only aspect holding me back from a full 5 stars is that the message was delivered in a pretty heavy handed way, with the author directly explaining what the reader should take away from the plot and main character's actions. I think this is a disservice to the critical thinking skills of young adults - that said! The messages are nuanced, deep and full of love. That's rare to find in any book about a trans kid or a kid experiencing their parent's declining mental health. I really appreciated what this author had to say on those topics!!
I did not expect this to hit this deep! This book tackles many heavy topics, including substance abuse and generational trauma, but these topics are balanced out with Sparrow's moments of gender euphoria as they figure out who they are throughout the novel. This is heavier than most queer middle grade that I've read, but such an incredible book and one I know will be important to a lot of teens and tweens.
It almost feels harder to deal with someone who's homophobic/transphobic in a "nice" way than someone who's blatantly hateful, and I was surprised by how much Sparrow's mom's well-intended bigotry got to me. I've definitely had a lot of the same fears that Sparrow has, and I'm happy that they were able to reject all of the rules imposed on them.
Perfect as I get into Pride Month. I wish more people understand the gender umbrella and educate themselves rather than ridicule the non binary inclusion. Lovely read!
A beautiful journey toward discovering yourself and your own place in the world. Sparrow is an entirely believable middle schooler who makes entirely believable tweenage blunders as they learn what it means to truly have friends, a family, and a community, all while carefully unfolding the beautiful something else they’ve kept hidden inside. Sparrow’s mother’s struggle with addiction is handled gracefully, and it was refreshing to not see it wrapped up in a tidy bow by the end. I was left wanting to know so much more about Aunt Mags and the history of Rainbow House; I hope we haven’t heard the last from her. Ash Van Otterloo has created another beautiful world - this one with its feet firmly planted in reality - that immediately makes you want to be a part of it. Especially for readers not lucky enough to have a supportive community of their own, this book gives the most wonderful gift: hope.
I received an ARC of this book and immediately pre-ordered a copy for my library.
A wonderful book that deals with heavy, realistic topics in a graceful way that will mean the world for kids in similar situations, but just as much as it is emotional and touches on those darker subjects, it is a beautiful celebration of queerness, self-identity, and life.
I don't know if I've ever come across a book where the author has put in this much love and care for their readers. It's going to help a lot of people for a lot of different reasons. Having read their previous books, this one feels more intimate and more powerful for it. I can't wait to introduce readers to Sparrow.