well, here we are! i finished this series after all! before we get into this once again reminder that this series is +18. also as far as tws go: mainly sexual assault discussion and rape discussion for the review. for the book just... violence, kidnaping, i'd say. it's heavy, really, the sex scenes are also heavy to read i'd say. also spoilers ahead, because i need to talk about it without worrying about spoilers, so while i'm not going out of my way to spoil the entire book, there's gonna be spoilers ahead.
what are those two starts for? well, mainly:
* somehow i kept reading this series, and that's... well, that's certainly something by itself. despite all the very many issues i have with it (i'll get to them eventually), i very much wanted to finish and know what happened.
* the ending did kind of make sense. it was still underwhelming and i'll complain later, but i do think it made sense in the context of the story.
* uhm, valroy was consistent at least? at least during the ending part he did go very hard. not a compliment though, i very much did not like valroy as a character but hey, he was indeed potrayed as evil. he was bad, no argument there.
well, with that out of the way!
* puck: while i liked him overall, i didn't love the inclussion of modern mannerisms. i get why it was done (his mind being 'everywhere' at once), but it kinda broke me out of the immersion a few times. yes i was immersed, that's my business.
* anfar & perin: were they cute? yes. was the romance believable? not really, my god, did it happen fast. it felt like i blinked and they were together. but at least they were nicer to read about than uh, other people.
* abigail: listen almost four books of her being unsure is too much for me. by this point she's spent three books torn between being in love with valroy and the fact that he wants to destroy at least two worlds and it's just... honestly annoying. i was begging for her to just choose a side, and she does by the very end, but that's just it: she does it by the very end. when valroy gets abducted, she also struggles on what to do. and again, i do not like valroy. i was 100% supportive of her letting him lay in that lake and taking the throne for herself. but i knew that wasn't going to happen, so the in between was just not fun to read.
* abigail & valroy: to this day i don't get why they are in love. i do not see what they in one another to fall in love when they are complete opposites. maybe that one's on me, but the fact is that i was not into the relationship. even leaving aside how it started (which i can't do, in any case, but hypothetically) i still don't buy why they are in love. also, the whole relationship is tinted with this thing of her 'surrendering' to him and him 'conquering' her, which is kind of very much not my thing. not only that but honestly, valroy has issues with consent. i'm not saying anything earth-shattering here, obviously, this is the guy who kidnapped abigail in the first place. but this is also the one who ignored several 'wait' from abigail when they first slept together. and then, just because, we get him threatening to rape perin. and for what, exactly? what was gained there?
* valroy: i don't have much to say about him. he's bad, at least he's consistent. you know what, i feel like this is karma for every time i complained that the bad guy turning good all of a sudden was unbelievable. and yes, i liked in terms of characterization that he didn't change. i just have trouble working that with the romantic relationship.
because here's the thing, at the end of the day, the author went for abigail and valroy being life and death, two sides of a same coin, one having no sense without the other. except that... this was also very much a 'damsel at the mercy of the villain' story, so i have trouble working those two together. i don't have a trouble with reading about toxic relationships, despite what one might believe for everything i have ever said, i just need them to be equal. abigail and valroy were not equals here. maybe they grow to be, in the future. but for most of this abigail was weaker than him, and he could do what he wanted to her.
and again, abigail just spends so long not knowing how to do. she's somehow in love with valroy despite their morals not aligning and spends so long worrying about it and it's just... it happens for too long for my taste. realistically, i don't get how they got past so quickly abigail doubting to help valroy when he was captured (even though, again, to be clear, i was 100% supportive of her taking the throne for herself. not what i got! because it wasn't the point the author was getting to! but that's another thing). i also very much don't get how abigail got over so quickly the fact that he chained her with iron and wanted to keep her as his 'seelie pet' - and honestly i wasn't that surprised that he had eventually done that. at that point valroy had fantasied like three different times already of how he wanted to do that, i'm not surprised he jumped at the first opportunity to do it. it just feels like they were able to look past these things a bit quickly. but hey, maybe that's a me thing, maybe i'm the not forgiving one.
i just... overall, the abigail thing made me nearly lose my mind because i just wanted her to either become evil (i also would have taken it. if i'm already reading about this, might as well) or go against valroy. but no, the whole point was that she was life and she was the other side of him and like... i mean yeah sure. i'm not saying there's not a point there. but you know.
* anyways can you tell i didn't really like it? yeah. i didn't really enjoy it. i read them as a not physical copy, i'm probably gonna buy the physical versions of these books if they have them where i get my books. listen, i don't wanna talk about it or examine it any further.
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rtc probably this afternoon