I’m giving this book 5 stars simply because I can relate to this story. I met the love of my life in high school and we broke up after because of life. Both of us always regretted it, always missed the other, always had love for the other through that time apart. And we reconnected a little over a decade later. I was married and although my husband did not pass away like Mackenzie’s, when we reconnected I was dealing with some heavy stuff and my love was able to help me heal through some difficult things. Much like Mackenzie I also had always loved my person, despite being married to someone else. Not that Mackenzie didn’t love Gavin, but he just wasn’t her forever love and she knew that deep down, as did I. She moved on from her life with jake and had accepted that he would always be in her heart although she moved on with Gavin. I did that as well, so I just really related to those things, and many more in this book. It gave me all the feels and memories for my own situation, and because of that, I will for sure give it 5 stars.
But there are things that I didn’t LOVE…
I know, or from what I think I know, this is a newer author. And that somewhat shows in the writing. The sex scenes were pretty repetitive until her and Jake got back together and there was finally sex somewhere other than a bed. But the way she described her feelings of arousal, the things done to her, etc, all pretty much the same in every scene. I found myself skipping over the sex scenes or skimming them really quickly because they were in fact mostly all the same. So I think those need some more work. Maybe some more descriptions on different positions, trying new things in the sex scenes, bringing in some toys, something other than them being the same every time. In life, lots of the time sex is the same. I’m not knocking that, you like what you like… but in stories a reader needs more than everyday life sex. Hopefully that makes sense.
I also thought the writing wasn’t as developed. It just seemed like I could feel the inexperience in it.
I wish it would have explored Shannon and Mackenzie mending their relationship a little more. The little snippet we got during the two weeks Shannon was there after Gavin’s death was great, and I loved that. I just wish that it would have carried on, as part of her healing. To see their relationship heal a little more too.
And I can’t believe I’m going to say this, because I have always been team Jake… but I didn’t like how after Gavin’s death, it mainly focused on a little bit of grief in the two years she grieved. Two years is a lot of time, I just mean the amount dedicated to it that was written was somewhat quick. But there was no mention of her visiting Gavin’s grave site after the time her mom took her, no mention of what happened with her relationship with his parents.. she didn’t go visit his grave site before she went to North Carolina before she connected with Jake, and I’m assuming he was buried in the town they lived in? There was no mention of her visiting his grave site when she took Jake to her town to see her and Gavin’s old house. That was a little off putting to me, she was married to him. She didn’t get divorced because he was terrible to her (like my ex husband was), he died. And she mentions that had he not died, she would have stayed married to him. That’s a big deal! To just never visit his grave, no mention of going back annually to leave flowers or anything? It was like after he died and she had her grieving period that was it..that was good and it was forever behind her. The only mention of Gavin after that was when she was reflecting on her marriage when she and Jake talked about some things here and there. She even left her box of memories of him and their marriage at her parents house, that was weird to me. There needed to be more, in my opinion.
I also would have really liked to of had some duel POV going on here. It would have been awesome to know a little more about how Gavin was feeling or thinking, and how Jake was feeling or thinking from their POV. It would have given the story some more depth for me.
Overall it was a good book. I want to continue to read books from this author to watch her writing develop. I hope my review is helpful for her, as I feel like advice from readers to make her writing better in a nice way can only help her improve in the future :)