Like? The first half of the book had me hooked and I was straight (not really) up sobbing with some of the passages about Ash and Poppy’s relationship. It was twee, adorable— and then the grim reaper plot just kind of. Happened. That’s the only way I can describe how it unfolded. It just happened.
All of a sudden, this quirky adorable romance becomes a rushed attempt at exploring our relationship with, well, life and it’s fragility. Here one minute, could be gone the next— all very They Both Die At The End but make it British Lesbians.
However, the story is just a bit blunt. In need of a big polish, more plot development— the holes in this one are big enough to drive a whole truck through, like seriously what is the system of grim reapers? Are they all girls? What is with the ‘oh we didn’t tell you at the start but after a year you can leave!’ shoehorned in to round up some hurried ending? I’ll talk about the ending more but if you’re going to play around with a semblance of a paranormal system in your book, I personally prefer it when it’s a bit more thought through with some solid concepts and a bit more— sadly, unique.
I mean, when I originally saw this I was like ‘oh dope a lesbian romance Dead Like Me! perfect!’ But I didn’t realise that most of the nuances of the reapers are just taken directly from my favourite Bryan Fuller series… Like, the ‘transition’ the reapers go through so people don’t recognise them in public? Literally almost exactly the same. Oh, the reapers get their deaths on a little post-it with the name? Yep. And all of the reapers are quirky (which I did love) and say the darnedest twee bits like ‘oh! I’m from the kiddie cancer department!’ with no holding back to drive home on just quirky they are? You guessed it. They even throw a party in a dead persons house, like how the reapers in dead like me sleep in dead people’s apartments, etc. It’s just frustrating especially when the show is such a little hidden gem. This could be a total coincidence but like, it annoys me so I have to mention it in case anyone else likes this show and is intrigued by this book for the same reason.
The actual characters themselves, too? Eh. I loved Ash, loved her family, and her relationship with Poppy. Loved Poppy, loved her relationship with the world and how they spoke with one another. It felt very real, all the dialogue was fun and reminds me of how I spoke at 16. Super tasty and validating for that reason. But, the reapers? Forgettable. I got most of them mixed up with one another. Also, in the second half of the book Poppy became an absolute manic pixie dream girl (they can exist in wlw books, and they DO), and all her dialogue became so insufferable. I really struggled with the mini golf scene so bad.
I think all my investment in these characters completely dissipated by the time the book winded down. When the actual ending happened I didn’t cry, despite the author’s best attempts to make that a thing. It was written like a tear jerker, but kept constantly backtracking it’s messages and metaphors to a point where I got exhausted reading it. Ash makes a point for two pages on how important it is to tell people we love them, enjoy our interests and take risks! But then refuses to go for a night swim with Poppy because she’s scared (I know she was scared FOR Poppy, but it didn’t read this way until the author literally wrote that in).
Representation is important, especially with the lesbophobic culture of booktok/booktube often reading white cis mlm books but actively refusing to read wlw, too. AND, not all representation has to be the greatest book on earth to earn its spot ✨ on the grand high council of lgbt+ books. I would actively recommend this to readers perhaps a little younger (and less jaded). It’s good representation, has a diverse cast of characters and explores messages and culture in a mostly appropriate manner (despite the crass kiddie cancer thing).
It’s not a /bad/ book. It’s not a great book, either. It sits on the middle. It either should have been another 500 pages, to properly invest us in the reapers, adequately show us their system-thing, and come up with an ending that doesn’t feel horribly cliche. Or, it should have been about 300, and axed that fucking golf scene as well as every time Ash has the exact same conversation over and over with the reapers AND every time Poppy drinks an oat milk latte. We get it, she’s vegan and gay— we all drink oat milk lattes but like drink some water for a change.
Overall, I think two stars for a personal vibe on the book is fair. It’s just not for me. It’s a tad repetitive. If you like to switch your brain off and have a nice, wholesome romance (which is nice to see for a wlw teen book!) yeah go for it, you’ll probably enjoy it. I definitely would appreciate this book more if I read it after something quite heavy. But, I am cynical and need my girl gang grim reapers with a bit of spice and grit instead of the industry plant disney original ‘punk’ aesthetic than they were sporting in here.
It deserves a lot of love and I’m sad I couldn’t give it more despite having had this book on pre-order since the start of May. Definitely, give it a try and support the author! We need more diverse wlw stories, where the homophobia isn’t the main aspect of the story— and this is how we make that happen.
So, if u don’t mind, I’m going to rewatch dead like me, swap out my milk alternatives and hastily pass on this book to someone who is going to appreciate it.