I don’t think I can rate this book. As universal as hope and violence are across humans of all races and backgrounds, this story is about the Black experience. I’m not Black, but I did read this book. So while I can’t give it a rating, I will give it the review it deserves.
I first heard about this book on Charity Alyse’s TikTok a few years ago. I don’t think it had come out yet, but I was trying to grow my tbr and I wanted to support a Black author. The premise also seemed interesting to me, and I marked the book down on my Goodreads and forgot about it. Mostly. It was always in the back of my mind as something I need to read soon.
But it was a daunting book. The subject matter was heavy, and it was a little over 500 pages. The sheer length and mass of the story was something I dreaded. Long books challenge my attention span and my ability to consistently sustain my effort of being engaged. I’m getting better at reading these lengthy books, but it’s an ongoing process that I hope never has to end as long as I am on this earth.
Okay, now to the book. I am going to divide the next two paragraphs of my review into the positives (para. 1) and negatives (para. 2). But before I do that, let it be known that I think Charity is a great author, although I have mixed feelings and opinions on the story. I wish her the best, hope she keeps writing and having success in life, and I will remember this book. Inevitably, whether I know it or not, this story will influence the way I write and see the world (as most books do). I am glad I read this book.
The positives of this book are mostly in story. The descriptions in the book are beautiful, and I progressively grew to love the characters. Initially, I couldn’t get into them. They felt flat, and they felt predictable (mainly Zach and Virgie). But I also found characters I loved from the start: Easy, Capri, and Perry. The characters I didn’t like grew on me as the story progressed and I got to see their depth and development. I can tell this story, in its plot and dialogue, comes from the heart. Nothing about this book is half-done or underdeveloped. I feel immersed in the world, able to see the Sunlight, hear Zach’s music, and be struck still by the violence. The themes of religion are strong throughout the novel, but it never becomes too much for me, and I am not religious.
The negatives of this book primarily revolve around grammar and style. To start off, there were many instances of I not being capitalized, names not being capitalized, sentences being confusing or missing connecting words; like the word “and. “ Beyond grammar and style, I just did not feel like all of the characters were real. So much of their dialogue and actions were expected, even the lead up to the eventual murder. I often felt annoyed or taken out of the story because I was just handed what I already expected. I lt also felt like there were a lot of stereotypes used in this book, and while stereotypes can certainly be used well or subverted to fit the story, I didn’t feel like there was enough development to do that. Maybe the point of using them in this book was to show how Bayside and Hamilton both felt so stuck in the past, but for me they just didn’t work.