THE HERO DESERVED BETTER. I did not want these two together. I like Kylie Gilmore’s writing and when she’s on the ball, she can create three-dimensional characters who feel both familiar and unique without resorting to quirks. Unfortunately the heroine Rachel is simply an asshole. She’s not “strong, sarcastic Rachel” as Shane sees her—she’s a narcissistic toddler incapable of self-reflection.
I always love a prickly heroine but Rachel is beyond thorny: she’s selfish, wholly self-centered, manipulative, childish, and immature. She’s a bad friend, an incompetent businesswoman and completely out of touch with reality. Rachel refuses to take responsibility for ANYTHING. I have no idea why sweetheart Shane would have any romantic interest in a woman with such a sense of entitlement and who constantly positions herself as a victim. Actually I don’t know why he’d be friends with her or go into business with her (a completely insane decision on his part!). Rachel doesn’t want a real friendship with Shane—all relationships require reciprocity and she doesn’t want to give anything. Rachel doesn’t want a business partner—she wants a blank check. She doesn’t even want to be a true business owner—she wants a fantasy job where she‘s the boss, where she assumes none of the risk yet reaps all the rewards. What an entitled asshole. Also I hate reading about stupid women who insist they “know how to run a business” but clearly do not possess a lick of business acumen. Rachel clearly cannot run a business and she refuses to listen to Shane, who has successfully run a business for YEARS.
Rachel is seriously lacking in self-awareness — which is fine if that’s part of her growth arc, but her fear of entering into a relationship with another jerk, coupled with her ugly personality, had me wishing Shane would find his HEA with anyone else. She knows she tends to date jerks (for whatever reason—low self-esteem?), and knows Shane is nothing like those other men, yet she has this unfounded paranoid fear that he’ll turn out to be just like them—based on what evidence?? Rachel is thirty-one but has the emotional maturity and worldview of…I can’t even say a toddler, because I think ultimately her profound immaturity is down to her narcissism.
I anticipated becoming angry with Shane for withholding his friendship once he couldn’t get his way, but actually he honours her boundaries and enforces his own because, despite Rachel’s head games and hurtful behaviour, he still cares for and respects her. Rachel feels so entitled to Shane’s attention, when he pulls back of course that’s when she pursues him. She expects Shane to give her anything she wants and reciprocates nothing in return. Again, I have no idea what her appeal was. If Rachel communicated with Shane the fears that we (unfortunately) see from her internal monologue, I bet Shane would be hear and receive her relationship anxieties with safety and kindness.
Two stars entirely for generous, patient, willing-to-be-vulnerable, gentle-yet-takes-charge-in-bed Shane. I love his gentle persistence and his sensitivity to Rachel’s needs, but I became exhausted watching Shane invest all his goodness in someone so undeserving. The toxic cycle they were caught in towards the end of the book was painful to read. I wish Shane had just pulled out of the damn cafe partnership and allowed Rachel to flounder on her own. Watching Rachel continuously take advantage of Shane, even at the risk of his professional reputation, had me becoming annoyed with Shane—this is a story where I wanted the hero to abandon his persistence in the face of the heroine’s stubborn resistance. I’m angry Rachel got everything she wanted at the end and sad Shane will be saddled with her.
It’s a failure of a romance when I wish the HEA with the two MCs hadn’t happened.