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i can't give you a zero so i'll settle for a 1.
(There's a reason wattpad books should stay in wattpad. Only the rarest of books deserve to be printed. Most of the wattpad users are there for smut and don't really give af about emotions or depth of the books. And that is why they thoroughly enjoy such bland and shallow books.)
*DEAR AUTHORS, IF YOU CHOOSE TO WRITE ABOUT TOPICS AS SENSITIVE AS SUICIDE PLEASE ATLEAST DO NOT FEED LIES OR MISGUIDE THE YOUNG GENERATION INTO BELIEVING THINGS WHICH AREN'T TRUE. CAN A PERSON FROM SEVERE PTSD AND MDD BE SAVED JUST BY A KISS IN 27 DAYS?? NO.*
The book started well, the blurb had me hooked. But it ended up being a fucked up mess and seriously I shouldn't have expected anything more.
Firstly and lastly, IT WAS HIGHLY UNREALISTIC. Hadley went back in time, chatted two words and helped their family a little AND THE ENTIRE FAMILY WAS OBSESSED WITH HER. A 16 y/o girl came into their life, threw some motivational lines here and there and cured their years of SEVERE PTSD AND MDD (MAJOR DEPRESSION DISORDER). She uttered some sweet melodies and the entire family clinged to her as if she is the last hope that can save them from this mess. They were so obsessed that every now and them some or the other would be like "Only you can save them Hadley" "Don't leave Archer, Hadley. Only you can save him." "Archer needs to be saved and only you can be her saviour Hadley, do not give up on him." Like BE FUCKING FOR REAL. And yes, this is how she saved the entirety of the mess of a family.
The whole book is fucked up. Messed up. This book SCREAMS plot holes. Like why did Death choose Archer to be saved?? I mean there are so many people who kill themselves, why choose Archer only?? And this whole scenario of bringing back from dead was so random without any foundation to support it? Like there was no explanation, nothing but just the plot being forcefully shoved down our throats. Hadley is such a bland character that it's as if her actions and emotions were only for the sake of the story rather than them being her own. Her motivations aren't fleshed upon which i noticed in the beginning when she was described to be extremely mournful over archer's death despite not even knowing him personally. Sure she can be upset but my question is *why* does she feel remorseful over his death? What compels her to attend his funeral? w
What is the driving factor to her actions besides doing them just for the sake of the story progressing!?
I do think archer has potential to be a truly interesting character but he wasn't a character that i could care about despite the whole story basically revolving around him. We do see a softer side to archer closer to the end of the book which was cute! Although i did find the pacing of their relationship to be off and lacking in chemistry???
At the starting I really thought that the author will dive in deep in the mind of a suicidal person, make us go through their feelings and help us understand what compelled them to take such an action. The author failed terribly at this.
Wasn't the main purpose of the story to explore Archer's suicidal thoughts?? Weren't we supposed to go deep into Archer's mind and stop what was troubling him?? The author said fuck that we're gonna explore a teensy cheesy grumpy x sunshine romance. The author failed terribly at diving us in the mind of a suicidal person. Why Archer wanted to expire so bad and how it took him only 27 days to figure it out; the murder had happened years ago so why was he triggered now more than ever. Especially since he had a lot of people depending on him. From how his character is described suicide seemed like the last thing on his mind. Maybe some POVs of Archer might have helped but the author was busy writing a love story.
Towards the end this book felt like another teensy romance. We were totally deviated from the actual plot of a suicidal person. It was HIGHLY unrealistic. Archer and his mother Regina were suffering from severe case of PTSD and MDD (MAJOR DEPRESSIVE DISORDER). The fact that Hadley just went back in time, blended with the family, made them feel that they were not alone (which was a weird concept since they already had each other and I seriously do not know how the inclusivity of a 16 year old effected them so much) was enough to stop them from suicide is highly stupid and unrealistic especially taking into consideration how severe their depression was.
The whole concept of Death, Havoc and Edith was utter bullshit. The author didn't really think much about them and they were present just to add a little plot twists here and there (which weren't at all necessary). I didn't like how they were represented. I didn't like the ideas and morals the book wanted to present through Death and Havoc. It made no sense.
The whole idea of going back in time and meddling with people was so messed up. You CANNOT bring someone back from dead. The idea of Death sending people back to revive their loved ones from dead was...??? Just because he suffers from trauma of his wife like hello sir you are supposed to be a god??? What the fuck is this?
What in the world was the purpose of Hadley dying in the end? Nothing. It was thrown randomly for the sake of emotional drama. She went to heaven, met Chris, chit-chatted with him and then Death offered her with the two most difficult earth shattering options- to either remain dead or go back. WHAT THE FUCK WAS THE SIGNIFICANCE OF THIS BULLSHIT.
The love of Hadley and Archer was clearly one sided. Even while she was in heaven it was made clear that Archer did not imagine a future with Hadley. Hadley sold her life for Archer while Archer...smh. When Hadley came back to life he was like "um...hi" like boy what the fuck?? Hadley crossed limits, devoted her life to help him and his family but Archer always was a asshole to her. Knowing his depression, I accepted him for the way he is, but Archer outrightly treated her like a piece of shit. He would use her, then throw her away. He would shame her constantly for being rich and judge her for having no problems in life because she was provided with everything. Right before she died he asked her to leave his family alone and shamed her for not having a family herself like what the fuck is wrong with this dude? When she woke up from death he didn't even apologize for everything he did, he wasn't even relieved or excited to meet her, he was straight up like "um...hi i guess" Hadley definitely deserved better.
Their relationship consisted only Archer. There was no Hadley. Whenever they talked, Archer this Archer that. Archer you are loved, Archer you are strong for taking so much, Archer blah blah blah. Archer did not give a single fuck about Hadley or her life or her emotions. Even when she woke up from the dead, Archer was like "fuck the shit I said to you about not having the family and fuck that you are back from death, you know my mom is cool now, my grandma is cool now, I'm cool now and not depressed at all I'm so happy so yay". The only time Archer mentioned Hadley's life was when he wanted to shame her for being rich. But then again boy if you hate her rich family so much then why did you take the favour of her father?? And that too free of cost?? Ungrateful bitch.
And lastly the plot. It was a stupid mess. As previously discussed the author failed at the topic of romance, depression, suicide, and bringing someone back from suicide. But the fact that there was no consequences of anyone's actions? It's obvious that meddling with time and bringing back someone from dead should have been followed by someone's sacrifice. Throughout the book I was thinking that all this pressure and trauma is destroying Hadley, and at last it would save Archer but kill Hadley. But nothing happened. Absolutely nothing. Our miss 16 y/o teenage girl went back to time save her prince charming from killing himself by throwing some motivation lines, she died (not because of an emotional toll but because a man called havoc couldn't control his adrenaline) but she came back easily, her prince charming wasn't so thrilled about this but who cares they lived happily ever after hurayyyyy 👏👏👏
STUPID, IGNORANT, BLAND, UNREALISTIC, JUST ANOTHER TEENSY LOVE STORY, FAR FROM TRUTH, NOTHING TO LEARN FROM THIS BOOK, NOT GAINED A SINGLE INFO ABOUT THE ACTUAL TOPIC: SUICIDE.
what a waste of my damn time.