I tried to give you the story you needed, Gran-Gran said. I told you to imagine yourself flying among the stars.
I remembered Gran-Gran's story, about how disobeying orders could be the right thing to do. Wait until you hear what I've done, I said.
I can see it, she said. I tried to give you the story you needed, but perhaps you've found your own story after all.
Evershore is the third installment to the novellas belonging to the Skyward series by Brandon Sanderson. All three show the story of the Skyward Flight happening between book two (Starsight) and book three (Cytonic). But in comparison to the previous two novellas, Evershore is a little bit different. Sunreach and ReDawn are both told from a perspective different than Spensa's, but aren't heavily focused on their MC's. Evershore is full of action, humour, amazing characters and great worldbuilding like the previous books, but the focus is heavily put on its MC's - Jorgen's - struggles with his inner problems and issues regarding the situation of humanity and their allies in the war against the Superiority.
I didn't have anything inspiring to say. I wasn't even sure how I was staying on my feet.
I had to, though. They were all looking to me. Or at me. I couldn't really tell.
I wasn't going to fall apart. Not here, not where my entire flight could see.
Jorgen Weight, the flightleader of Skyward Flight, is in trouble. His inner world, never really being in the greatest shape, had grumbled to ashes after the events of ReDawn. When the greatest tragedy hit, you either fall down or get up and move on. Jorgen decided to lock his feelings in a tight box and to focus everything that he had on the situation of DDF and Detritus. And that situation is sticky. With half of Nation Assembly's being mercilessly killed and with Admiral Cobb missing, it's up to Jorgen to take control over DDF and, well, the ongoing war. Jorgen is now the only still available cytonic - and he isn't either trained nor looking promising with his abilities, like Spensa or Alanik are. The Superiority had escaped, but they can come back at any moment. DDF needs new alliances or they will be crushed like ants. There is plenty things to do, and there are plenty people who might help, but Jorgen feels like the heavy amount on responsibility is put only on him. He tries his best, but still feels like a failure. Does everything in his power to protect his friends, his allies and his people, and blames himself every time something goes wrong, no matter if it's his fault or not. Goes on full power from the very start, ignoring his inner struggles to focus on bigger problems, but how long can one man run without losing his strength or his mind, or worse, not just fall down, but to crush and burn?
"I didn't want to leave them," I said. "If Alanik hadn't pulled me out, I would have died there."
FM closed her eyes. "Thank the stars for Alanik then."
I couldn't say the next part. I couldn't bring myself to form the words, especially not to FM. Maybe it could have been easier if I had died there.
Jorgen's mind is a truly dark place in Evershore. He's trying his best to put his feelings aside - his grief aside - to focus on the ongoing war, but it's obvious to everyone that he's struggling immensely. Jorgen's mindset isn't just the 'everything is more important than me' type. There is also a big inner demon in him that questions everything he's doing. He is not good enough. Not strong enough. Not smart enough. He feels foolish and painfully incompetent for the job he took upon himself. He thinks he doesn't have the stomach to do what needs to be done. He feels unworthy of the position he is in and downgrades himself in every possible situation. He thinks that he acts brave, that he knows what he is doing, but that's actually is just an act and he's afraid of failure. He's convinced that he's all alone with the responsibility. There is no Spensa to help. There is no Cobb, no Gran-Gran, no mother and no father. Just Jorgen Weight and his struggles.
Jorgen, Alanik said again, are you okay?
I'm fine, I said and I cringed, glad FM couldn't hear me.
You aren't fine, she said. You can't be fine.
For me, who's an introvert with anxiety that constantly overthinks everything and is constantly struggling with himself, Jorgen is very relatable. I'm also acting brave in every situation, trying my best every day, but I'm always questioning my decisions and constantly overthink if I did the right thing and if I should apologize for my actions. Do I deserve to be where I am? Am I doing things right? Even if something happens that I'm clearly not to blame, I feel guilty and putting myself through hell for the smallest of things. Everyone else and everything else feels more important than me and my struggles. It's a painfully wrong mindset, because there are always people to turn to, but it feels like you're alone with your struggles. This is what Jorgen needed to learn in Evershore - to open himself to his feelings, to his friends, and to share his burdens and his responsibility with them.
"we know that on the end of the day Jorgen Weight will do the right thing. Sometimes you lose sight of that. Sometimes you get so bogged down in the rules that you lose track of what's right for a minute. But when it comes down to the decisions you make with our lives, you do the right thing every time."
I scudding love Jorgen's and FM's relationship in this book. It's not like I haven't appreciated it before, I did, it was always important to me, but their relationship is a highlight of the book for me. It wasn't a big part of the story, but their scenes were extremely meaningful to Jorgen's character development. It was even more important now after the conflict between them that happened in ReDawn. The atmosphere between them was already extremely heavy and became even heavier after the tragedy that struck Detritus. FM, despite Jorgen ignoring her most of the time, never stopped trying to talk to him and to bring him to stop for a minute, to take a breath and, most importantly, to talk about his feelings that he had buried deep inside himself (bless FM, truly). When their talk scene finally happened, it was such a big relief for me (and for them as well). I needed for them to reconcile, to open up and to become the powerful duo that their team, and their planet, needed. Now, with the events of the end of the book, they are even more important to their planet and I'm super excited to see them in action!
Spensa flies among the stars, Gran-Gran said. But you build things up from the ground. She is a warrior, and you are a defender.
I like the way Gran-Gran described Jorgen and Spensa. I think it's the best description not only of their characters, but their relationship as well. We don't see much of them together in Evershore since Spensa spends time being stuck in nowhere, but there are a couple of scenes with them that warms my heart. They love each other SO MUCH, missing one another SO MUCH, and I'm so sad that they couldn't be there for one another when they needed each other the most. I need them together in Defiant otherwise I will throw hands!
Anyways, there is a final book to read (if you don't count the last novella). I'm both upset and excited about it. I'm upset, because it's the last book, and I'm excited, because I want to see how things will play out. With Defiant Spensa is coming back as an MC. After reading three novellas with the POV's of different people, I missed her presence deeply. Now everyone will be reunited and the final battle will happen. Will we get a happy ending? Will I give another five stars? I surely hope so, but we will see! ;)
Skyward
series - my rating:
1. Skyward: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ (5/5)
2. Starsight: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ (5/5)
2.1 Sunreach: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ (5/5)
2.2. ReDawn: ⭐⭐⭐⭐ (4/5)
2.3 Evershore: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ (5/5)
3. Cytonic: ⭐⭐⭐ (3/5)
4. Defiant: ⭐⭐⭐⭐ (4/5)