Oh my GAWD. Where to start. SO this book was an emotional rollercoaster. This is an adult retelling of East of the Sun, West of the Moon, and I wasn't familiar with that fairytale before reading this book, which meant the entire thing was a surprise to me. It was darker than I expected, which was oddly refreshing, as I tend to read a lot of floofy books.
I was instantly connected—and I mean within the first few lines—to the MC, Roxana. She's tough and hardened, and she was crafted with a super voice-y narrative, which I love in my books. It's the kind of book where you feel like you're sitting on the narrator's shoulder through the entire thing, and she's got little thoughts scattered throughout the book to solidify her character. She's a firecracker, and there were many times I found myself chuckling over the things she said.
"Tell me, child, do you have secret powers lurking within you?"
"Does sarcasm count?"
The book is broken into four parts, and I'm going to try to write this review without completely spoiling them. I ADORED the first part. Because I wasn't familiar with the story this is based off, I got almost Beauty and the Beast vibes, which I loved, and who knew I could become emotionally attached to a polar bear?! But ugh, what a sweetheart!!!! This is a bit of a grumpy x sunshine romance, but with so, so much more to it. That first part had me confused in the best way and just dying to know what was going on as it got increasingly darker. The gore was very well done and had purpose, and the atmosphere was so effective that I felt like I was physically experiencing the cold and emptiness lit by a small flame that was the bear and Roxana in the middle of this big, lonely world.
Part two was so exhausting. Not in a bad way. Not like it was hard or tiresome to read, but in that I felt every ounce of Roxana's struggle. Everything she went through on her journey. Her pain and hardship, both physically and mentally. There were so many times I flipped back to see how many chapters were in this book because I feared for her!! I was gripping my Kindle, just trying to funnel power into her to keep her going.
Part three was super intense and fast-paced, and not how I expected it to go AT ALL. And this is where the whole emotional rollercoaster thing really began to amp up because I was so, so worried that things were not going to turn out how I wanted them to, and it was more than once. It was like watching an intense movie and covering your eyes and bracing yourself for what you think is going to happen. And the imagery in the aftermath of it all was super impactful—the outcome of all Roxana had been through over this long journey. It's so symbolic—the way this all started out as a small bubble of warmth in the middle of a big, lonely world and ended with a small fractured heart alone in the middle of a warm, beautiful place.
And then part four. Thank freaking GAWD for part four. That's all I'm going to say about that.
This was an INTENSE book. This was an INTRIGUING book. This was an EMOTIONAL book. Yes, for an MC so averse to emotional vulnerability, I felt so much emotion woven through the pages. There is magic and romance, and I enjoyed learning about the history of Jedria, but it was so much more than that. Roxana's connection to her family. The way a heart remembers when the mind cannot. The reason Eirik chose her in the first place. So many layers here to be uncovered.
I will never look at polar bears the same way again.