TLDR: 0.5⭐️, ableist language, autism mom behaviour, bad vibes.
Listen this was gonna be rated as a mid book until I finished it.
My credentials? I’m actually autistic.
I could excuse the person first language instances on account of maybe that’s what the FMC prefers, but when the MMC used it without knowing her preferences, or anytime someone said “on the spectrum” or “condition” to avoid saying autistic I didn’t love it.
Despite the line where Sue says “I don’t have to mask with him” she quite literally does. He comments on how he loves when she makes eye contact. She counts the seconds, says she hates it, and has to make herself do it. I could pass that off as maybe an intentional character thing about socialization as an allistic person and desire to mask and understand and follow social rules. How very meta!
And then I read the disclaimer on the FMC and realized no, it’s not intentional storytelling, it’s the authors lack of education - and citing Autism speaks - an autistic hate group with the goal of eradicating us - and saw that she’s an autism mom. Love that you’re trying to do right by your son, Jackie, but autism speaks and applied behavioural analysis is not the way to go.
Why was there not a sensitivity reader who was autistic? Nothing about us without us. This character arc reads straight out of disability inspiration porn of “but it makes me SPECIAL and BETTER at a niche skill!” Bro we’re not superheroes we’re literally just autistic.
Author also tried to be woke while explaining autistics don’t use functioning labels anymore, while using functioning labels. People who were “high functioning” weren’t labelled as high functioning. People who internalized their pain, meltdowns, and triggers, while masking so that they weren’t perceived as a burden to others were labelled “high functioning”, regardless of their actual functioning, and only based on their ability to conform.
0.5⭐️, could’ve been half the length with double the plot and zero of the ableism.