Just how much suffering can one person take before doubting God? Michael has suffered loss after loss…. not money, that can be earned again, but death is final.
Michael’s past isn’t easy either. His enjoyed his mother’s attention when vacationing as a child, but she wasn’t a good mother. She was abusive to the father, physical and emotional, and young Michael witnessed it all.
When his dad died, he had it even harder. As young 16 year old he had to quit high school to support his mother. She had taken to the bottle.
So, as you can see he’s had a hard life but the suffering doesn’t stop there. No, he has a lot more grief to live though, none of which he could have prevented.
Oh yes, Michael still believed in God, he just didn’t like him anymore. He suffered too much to believe in a loving God. But he finds himself in a position of being needed …. needed by his mother who was ill but selfish and self-righteous. And he was needed by his six year old nephew who had just lost his mother, Michael’s sister. As the book says: “Michael knew what it felt like to be abandoned and to have nobody”. He knew the heartache of loss and didn’t want them to experience that. But was he ready … to forgive, to let go and move on?
It’s not an easy journey for him or for those in his care. There will be ups and downs, new people will enter Michael’s life. Yes, it’s an emotional journey but one worth taking.
👁^👁 QUOTES and OBSERVATIONS:
➦ Michael took way too much blame for things that was out of his control. What happened to the guy that beat him, almost ki11ed him? Anything?
➦ AMANDA SAID: “The way I see it that is pain is a part of life. It’s up to us to let that pain draw us closer to God or further from Him.”
✔︎ My ANSWER: that may be true but it’s not something you say to someone who just suffered tragic loss. At the Fall, we gave the reigns to the enemy who brings about as much pain and suffering possible to get us to blame God.
God’s ways are not ours…. He knows how to outwit the enemy. He used the enemy’s weakness against him, knowing the enemy’s pride wouldn’t allow him to fathom that God Himself would go to and through the torture of the cross. What the enemy thought was victory and salvation from his future destination of Hell, was his eternal destruction. That cross actually cemented in the enemy’s future.
God’s ways are not our ways…. He knew at the Fall exactly what it would take to allow us, His creation, to come back to Him. And He willingly made that sacrifice. He doesn’t cause our pain but He knows how to use it for our benefit.
➦Amanda, who always tells Michael to have faith, seems to lack it herself when things get rough. When she needed to be supportive, she failed. What she claims is truth is only her opinion, big difference. She is pushy and controlling, probably out of self preservation, but she needed an attitude adjustment when she left for California.
➦ LUCILLE ASKED: “When will my payment be over, Michael? When will I be done paying for my sins of the past?”
✔︎ My ANSWER: maybe when you confess to him your wrongs? Maybe ask him for forgiveness and try to explain your behavior …. your outbursts started way before the dad died. And your stubborn self-righteousness remained.
Abuse comes in many forms…. physical, verbal, emotional. Lucille was an abusive mother. Later, she betrayed Michael when he needed her most. I have a hard time with people who call bad choices, mistakes. A choice is NOT a mistake. She needs to take a long, hard look in the mirror and hope it doesn’t crack into pieces.
➦ And Tony????? He wants his son now? He abandoned him when he was a baby and never looked back. How do you explain to a six year old you love him when you are a total stranger? How was Tony allotted custody?
I received an advance copy of this book and am leaving my personal thoughts and opinions.