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Die Persönlichkeit Eiji Urashima ist verschwunden und die Persönlichkeit B1 ist erwacht. Nun tritt das wilde, von Rache geprägte Leben von B1 zutage. Und am Ende seiner Lebensgeschichte gesteht er, was an jenem blutigen Tag, an dem auf Kyoka Yukimura eingestochen wurde, wirklich geschah.

192 pages, Paperback

First published October 4, 2019

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Hajime Inoryū

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1,980 reviews102 followers
October 12, 2025
PT Neste volume, continuamos a aprofundar o passado de Eiji Urashima, agora completamente dominado por “B-ichi”.

Ficamos a saber como teve início a sua ligação à SKALL e quais eram, afinal, as suas verdadeiras motivações.

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EN In this volume, we continue to delve deeper into Eiji Urashima’s past, now completely overtaken by “B-ichi.”

We learn how his connection with SKALL began and what his true motives really were.
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580 reviews62 followers
June 19, 2022
The story got much more complex and some questions have been answered. I'm glad they added a record of all key characters in the end. Looking forward to how the story is going to progress from here.
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300 reviews
August 5, 2025
Wciąż jest to bardzo dobra historia, choć muszę przyznać, że niektóre rozwiązania fabularne były momentami dość absurdalne. W innym przypadku mogłabym uznać je za zbyt naciągane, ale biorąc pod uwagę, jak ta seria jest prowadzona od samego początku – przymykam na to oko. Nadal bawiłam się świetnie.
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Author 1 book316 followers
November 18, 2024
Eiji is your typical shy college student trying to find himself, get a pretty girlfriend and cruise through life with no issues. Unfortunately his father was a brutal serial killer that left a stain on his family that follows him around everywhere he goes, and the emergence of a split personality with dark and violent tendencies gets him wrapped up in a murderous conspiracy where his dangerous alter ego seems to be his own worst enemy. Is he doomed to involuntarily follow in his disgraced father’s footsteps?

I thought this series would be a bit predictable considering I’ve seen this type of horror thriller before, but it ended up throwing dozens of unexpected twists at me, none of them being what I predicted given the premise. The truth behind both of Eiji’s personalities ended up being more twisted and complex than I had originally imagined.

What really won me over with this series is how unexpectedly complex and multilayered the entire cast of side characters ended up being. At first, the side characters all seem very simplistic and forgettable with one dimensional character tropes, but almost every single side character ends up having dark secrets of their own that are even more insane than those of the protagonist. Hardly anyone in this story is completely innocent, everyone is involved in the mass murder conspiracy in some way or another and the puzzle keeps getting bigger and bigger until the very end where everything is finally pieced together.

Don’t be deceived by the predictable opening with familiar psychological horror cliches. The series gets more intense, unpredictable and challenging to figure out the longer it goes on and the payoff at the end hits really hard. Eiji is a tragic character that’s easy to hate at times but incredibly sympathetic, the side characters all have fascinating subplots of their own as well. It has a slow build up but gets significantly better with each volume.
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227 reviews5 followers
March 1, 2022
My Dearest Self with Malice Aforethought, apart from having a terribly translated title, is a very competent thriller. Meticulously drawn and paced, it's impossible to stop reading once you start.

This series reminded me a lot of two (!) books by Timothé Le Boucher: The Days That Disappear and Le Patient. But where Le Boucher takes enough time to develop the premises into an emotional narrative, Inoryu uses the same starting point to create a never-ending barrage of cliffhangers. And there are so many twists and cliffhangers. Every chapter ends in a twist. Every dialogue needs to have a twist. It's like a narrative horror vacui where every available character must either be ghastly murdered or have a secret dark past which turned them into a psychopath. It's both impressive and ridiculous. It also goes out of its way to be shockingly violent, an aspect I really do not care for.

So this is where I'm hopping off, halfway deep in the story. As tantalizing as it is, 50 more chapters is something I can't see myself weathering through.
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701 reviews
August 18, 2025
Eiji siedzi w pierdlu i snuje swoją historię zemsty – od dzieciaka, przez przeskok o kilkanaście lat, aż do narodzin B1. Część pytań dostaje odpowiedź, kolejne się mnożą. A finał? Hm, aż mnie korci spytać, kim jest ta gruba ryba, dla której warto aż tyle poświęcić.

Sporo mi się pozapominało od czasu, kiedy czytałam tom 5, ale od czego jest podsumowanie końcowe ;-) Tabelka z poczynaniami Eijiego i postronnych osób to super pomoc, bo łatwiej połapać się w datach. Czuć znaczny postęp fabuły, zapowiedź coraz większego skomplikowania i… no cóż, skoro zostało tylko kilka tomów, to chyba szykuje się konkretne mięcho.
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449 reviews6 followers
October 18, 2023
Honestly the thought of Eiji being the fake was interesting but the novelty wore of while reading it. I do wonder how it’ll continue as the story keeps up but it looks like we’re gonna be revisiting everything in B1’s POV which I did want to know
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113 reviews
July 17, 2024
5/5

- on nous a expliqué l'histoire de B1 depuis le début quand il était enfants, jusqu'à maintenant c'était très intéressant.

- il était toujours en prison, mais il a réussi à s'évader, donc B1 est en fuite.

- Aussi son autre personnalité n'a pas refait surface, Est-ce qu'elle existe plus ?
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234 reviews1 follower
October 20, 2025
A história tá ficando cada vez mais macabra, socorroo!!! Nesse volume vemos como foi a infância do B-ichi e como ele se tornou quem ele é, contando com um final explosivo e que deixa muitas pontas soltas.
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238 reviews1 follower
July 2, 2021
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J’ai adoré ! Comme le tome précédent, l’histoire avance et on ne s’ennuie pas. J’ai vraiment hâte de savoir la suite !
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635 reviews22 followers
January 14, 2023
The thing with the sister was so unnecessary. 1) She can't read! 2) By the time she learns that kanji, she has likely forgotten about that paper anyway. She's a little child after all.
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198 reviews
April 29, 2023
This one was a bit long but not boring. i am obssessed w/ this serie
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356 reviews3 followers
June 6, 2023
• une bonne lecture !
• hâte de lire la suite !
• les liens commencent à se faire
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261 reviews
July 9, 2023
Like Eiji, I'm struggling to tell apart what's real from what's not.
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108 reviews1 follower
December 23, 2023
Najmniej mi się podobał ze wszystkich, ale still młody kupuj kolejne tomy!
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129 reviews1 follower
October 17, 2024
woaaaaaaaaaah mannnnnn this is getting so interesting
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