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272 pages, Paperback
First published October 1, 2010
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This is the shutter, this is the lens, this is the viewfinder, horizontal or vertical. If you want to load more film, pull this lever to open it up. It's black inside, and if you don't click the shutter it remains black always, black as night, you know, like the expression "endless night." Like your tomb after you're dead. The shutter lets in an instant of light—ka-tscha!—and an image blossoms on the film, a person or a tree. Photographs are shadows left behind by grave robbers.
For me, life was the only thing, all I had to cling to, and I worried it would snap off someday, like the dictionary definition of death: the loss of life. I was responsible to life alone, and time outside of this didn't exist. For a while, I lost the word "eternity," because everything was now, today was today, but tomorrow hadn't agreed it would definitely come, and the tomorrow of my imagination wasn't real anyway. I was afraid of death, and never considered I had a responsibility towards it too. Not the way religious people mean, thinking death is when our lives get inspected. What I feared was death itself, believing it to be the end of everything, so the life I l'd experienced would be insignificant when weighed against death [...] A person has a right to death because he's lived. If you can prove you've lived, then you've earned the right to die.
The grown-ups called these things "mosaics" but it felt a bit pretentious when I did that. Instead, we called them "magnets," using our own language to protect ourselves. For instance, we called our school bags "shit shovels," Old Sun the doorman was "Old Pipe," and banknotes were "leaves." Police officers were "landmines." When these nouns popped out of our mouths, our world felt different to the one the grown-ups lived in, and this sensation was the pillar that propped up our universe, enabling us to live sincerely and passionately.Many of the stories explore language at least as much as they explore experience--almost exclusively painful experiences that also contain an element of aesthetic redemption. As I read, Primo Levi's memoir Moments of Reprieve: A Memoir of Auschwitz came to mind. However, the repetitive nature of many of the stories coupled with the detatched tone of the narration detracted from this book's overall impact. Ninth Building was oblique but also quite lovely.
The hourglass has been turned over, and yesterday's sand comes rushing back, the same sand, every last grain. One's passing days are like an hourglass, not "like a flowing river," as the sage says, slipping by never to return. Time repeats itself. Today and yesterday, this year and last year, not one grain of sand that goes by is unfamiliar to you.....Everyone has a vast book in their heart, its beginning very far away. The wise do not read it out. You, mundane and hollow, spend your savings. You see light seeping from the tangible sand, and the empty space grows larger and larger.
Just before I left, we caught a wild chicken in the snow. It had a broken wing and we kept it in a bamboo basket. Remember that? Feathers like satin, cool to the touch. We hugged it and tried to feed it steamed buns, but it refused, like a hero going on hunger strike. After I'd left, the rest of you ate the chicken. Such a beautiful bird, devoured by you. When I came back for my luggage, I saw a chunk of ice with brilliantly-colored chicken feathers frozen in it, suspended amidst filth, a vision of fallen splendor. I like images like this, whether of people or objects, that convey the reality of cruelty. Seeing a good thing ruined is forceful, carving it into your existence like a knife blade.
"A scarred wall has life to it, and an unmarked one, a bright white wall, has none."