"At the time of have-not, I look at myself in this mirror"--Sharon Olds
Sharon Olds turned 8o November, 2022. I, also aging, find myself in recent years reading the "later" poems of favorite poets, like Donald Hall, Charles Simic and so on. Often these are not their best poems, but I like visiting old friends and appreciate how they are navigating their lives and art. What seems remarkable t0 me about Olds is that she still has a very familiar energy and drive. Maybe she's softening a little, good for her, but the poetry is strong--blunt, as always, honest, and still powerful. And she is at this point exploring forms--ballads, elegies. Balladz is the title of this book (2022). Other books written in her seventies include Odes (2016) and Arias (2019). I have not yet read these though have read most of Olds's earlier work, a big fan.
This collection seems to honor one of her muses, Emily Dickinson. She also looks more directly than ever at her white privilege. She's maybe a bit more caring than I recall? Oh, still writes boldly about sex! There are pandemic/quarantine poems, as she thinks of this time we are living in "at the eleventh hour of the end of the world." She celebrates life, though, even her aging body. The strongest poems here are in the last section, elegies about the death of her partner, Carl Wallman, a former cattle breeder. She never looks away! I really admire so much of that aspect of her work.
When They Say You Have Three Months Left
In my sleep, I dreamed that I came to your grave –
and what lay between us? The beautiful uncut
hair of the grass, and topsoil like the rich
dirt in which you buried our sheets
after I left you – our DNA – near where
you later buried your golden dog.
Also between us the new ceiling
of plain pine, and the linen garment
your fresh-washed unbreathing body had been clothed in,
and the earthen chamber music of wild,
underworld, spiral creatures,
and your tissue I have loved, and within it the ancient
primordial man of your skeleton.
Narwhal tusk, elephant ivory,
icon of your narrow-hipped male power
I rode, rowing in eden. But
it was no dream, I lay broad waking,
and you have not died yet. I can read this to you
in a week, in front of the woodstove,
the flames curving up to points and disappearing,
or beside the pond, the water rippling,
ovals of hemlock and beech changing places in it.
Sometimes you fall asleep as I’m talking to you.
And you’ve said: I want you to be reading me a poem when I die.
And, Let’s not stop writing to each other when I’m dead.
And when I’m dead too! I said. When we met,
though we fell in love immediate and permanent,
we could not make a two-soul union,
nor when I left – each of us had to
work, on ourselves, for years, to get there.
And now we are there! Maybe this has been
death all along! Maybe life is a
kind of dying. Maybe this has been heaven.