I read this fully on Wattpad and I have conflicting emotions about it. It started off good! I liked Emily at that stage, but...it became more and more and more frustrating the further I read. What I liked about Emily became a reason for why I started to dislike her.
The paranoia and the trust issues could have worked. It COULD have. But the execution didn't allow for that. Emily's issues translated instead to her thinking she and her group are uplifted upon a moral high ground. I don't believe this was the intention, but this is always the risk when you're writing a character with these kinds of issues.
The group Emily is in throughout the book make some pretty questionable decisions. And yet we're still expected to look up to them like they're superheroes or something. I did not like how whenever a character Emily views as "evil" is eventually what everyone in the group comes to think as well, even when it'd be illogical for every single one of them to think or feel that way.
It's a small complaint, I know, and a bit petty...no, it's not genius or logical to force people (TWO) to give up their weapons and be tied up in a zombie apocalypse. The group was begging to be distrusted the second they ordered that. Obviously Sam and Jason were going to "consent" to that; the group had GUNS pointed in their face. What the hell were they supposed to do with these strangers demanding they give up their only sources of protection at gunpoint? They were being threatened by both the gun and the possibility of having their supplies stolen and them killed or chased off.
And the thing that pissed me off the most?
The group thinks they are the most trustworthy. No, they are not.
About the zombies...I liked them. I think they are developed well enough, but I do have one issue. The nosebleeds. It feels like it should have led to a massive mistake on Emily's part. Like she murdered a living human with a nosebleed only to realize they were never bitten. It felt way too easy that the people with nosebleeds were always bitten.
One of the major issues I have is with Emily as a survivor of rape. I'm a survivor of SA, to preface this, and I didn't think most of it felt real at all. I seriously think I've read some of those lines coming from TV show scripts. It was just...very cliche and "muhahahaha, we never believe the victim" bullshit that's used to easily demonize everyone in Emily's past and then victimize her to excuse her behavior throughout the book. No, it does not excuse bad shitty behavior. I'm a survivor and I started hating Emily near the middle.
What happened to you does not mean you get a free card to be a bitch. Healing takes time, yes, but don't fucking take it out on everyone around you. I just wanted Emily to grow up because it felt like she didn't even WANT to heal.
Lastly, a complaint about the naming. They were all super similar to each other and I stopped keeping track because I had no idea who was who anymore. Nick, Mike, Kyle. Four lettered stereotypical white boy names.
If I have any recommendations for the author, and I'm sorry if this is super harsh, please come up with better names that don't make me think the person who raped Emily is Nick at first.
I genuinely think you as an author were being done a disadvantage on Wattpad. All you got was mindless praise from most readers who, frankly, wouldn't know reading comprehension if it bit them in the ass. No one, not even here apparently, are willing to tell you about some of the issues of your work so you can become an even better writer in your next work.