At forty-three, Christina Lennox thought her future was settled: marriage to Ed, children, a house of their own.
But this is not that future: her marriage has ended, fractured by the stress of five rounds of IVF and two miscarriages. Overwhelmed by grief and disappointment, Ed has relocated to San Francisco and Christina's dream of becoming a mother rests on persuading him to let her go ahead with one final round of IVF, using the last frozen embryo they have stored at the clinic.
But when Ed drops a bombshell that threatens to undo everything Christina has strived for, she is forced, once again, to realign her plans: is this the end of her dream, or an opportunity to consider a different - perhaps happier - version of her future?
Laura Barnett is a writer, journalist and theatre critic. She has been on staff at the Guardian and the Daily Telegraph, and is now a freelance arts journalist and features writer, working for the Guardian, the Observer and Time Out, as well as several other national newspapers and magazines.
Laura was born in 1982 in south London, where she now lives with her husband. She studied Spanish and Italian at Cambridge University, and newspaper journalism at City University, London. Her first non-fiction book, Advice from the Players - a compendium of advice for actors - is published by Nick Hern Books. Laura has previously published short stories, for which she has won several awards. The Versions of Us is her first novel.
I loved The Versions of Us by Laura Barnett so I was super excited to read This Beating Heart. It lived up to my expectations and is an absolutely beautiful read.
Christina is in her early 40s and has her life mapped out, She's married to Ed she's looking forward to having children and buying a house of their own. Unfortunately life can be cruel and that is not the future Christina imagined, after two miscarriages and several rounds of Ivf Christina and Ed separate, with him relocating to San Francisco. Christina has one final bit of hope left, one really hard decision to make that could mean the dream of being a mother becomes reality with one last attempt at Ivf using her last frozen embryo, but with Ed moving on, will he grant her that wish?
A delicate, tender beautifully written story that will resonate with so many women, this book is deeply personal. Even though baby loss and fertility issues affect so many women it's still not talked about enough and Laura opens this conversation in such a profound way. I loved following Christina's journey she excudes warmth and although my heart broke for her so many times it was beautiful to witness her friendships and how they helped her heal. I felt so many emotions reading this book, after going through a miscarriage recently I felt like this book spoke to me in so many ways. It gave a voice to my feelings that I often can't make sense of and it was cathartic in a way to see both Christina and even Ed move on step by step. I would say that I read this not knowing too much about it so I think it's important to be aware of trigger warnings but if you can read this book please do. It's exceptionally written and one of those stories that you just have to sit with after while you absorb it. I can't wait to see what Laura writes next.
A tender story of heartbreak and loss, but also hope. It is sensitively written without being mawkish. The story flowed so beautifully I didn’t want the book to end. I look forward to reading the author’s other novels.
This Beating Heart by Laura Barnett will be published August 18th with Weidenfeld & Nicolson (W&N) and is described as ‘a novel about motherhood, second chances and choosing your family’. This Beating Heart is a very personal novel for Laura Barnett as the book highlights the impact of IVF treatment. Laura and her husband were lucky to give birth to their son after just one round of IVF so she is very much aware of the emotional effect it can have on a relationship and on the individuals involved.
“I became preoccupied by how statistically unfavourable the odds were; by how very possible it seemed that our dream of becoming parents would never be realised” – Laura Barnett
Christina is now in her forties. Her marriage is over and Christina is bereft. All around her couples are in happy relationships, with children and living in homes of their own. This too was Christina’s dream but all hopes were dashed, following five unsuccessful rounds of IVF and a number of miscarriages. The trauma took its toll on her marriage with her husband Ed and their world came crashing down. With days that had become completely centred on her cycle, the romance had slowly slipped away and their love for each other faded into the background. An opportunity for a fresh start had arisen with a years contract in The States for Ed so he called time on their marriage and packed his bag.
Christina has two best friends, Emma and Jen. The three have been inseparable since they met in college. Now Emma is happily married with children and Jen is a single mother. Christina loves her friends but is jealous of their lives and the fact they are both mothers, something she is unable to achieve. But Christina does have one last chance of sharing parenting with Ed. There is one frozen embryo remaining in the clinic, which means the possibility of one final round of IVF. Christina must persuade Ed to give his permission for the treatment to go ahead but she is very very nervous to ask him. What if he refuses her request? Is that it? Is that her last chance of motherhood swept away?
Christina’s mother, now widowed, despairs for her daughter. Her beloved aunt, Dinah, despairs for her niece. Jen and Emma despair for their best friend. Christina is miserable. Unable to focus on her work, she wanders the area letting her mind imagine the possibilities, the what ifs. Her obsession takes over her every thought until finally she works herself up to ask Ed but what happens next changes everything…
This Beating Heart is a very emotive read due to its subject matter and with Laura Barnett’s own personal experience of IVF. Christina Lennox is a wonderful character. At forty-three, she is well aware that her options for motherhood are fading fast. Her desperation at times is truly heart-breaking yet her steeliness also shines through. Christina attempts to find a path that she can navigate, one that will offer her the life she craves. With her amazing support network she makes some astonishing discoveries about herself, about her future and what might just make her a happier version of herself if she is prepared to think more creatively. The love of family and friends is central to This Beating Heart demonstrating their importance in all our lives. Inspirational and uplifting are the words best used to describe This Beating Heart. Emotional and extremely affecting, Laura Barnett has written a beautiful tale about starting over again in midlife and being willing to take second chances.
The back-cover synopsis introduces the dilemma that faces Christina. Her life has been fractured by the stress of five rounds of IVF and two miscarriages. Overwhelmed by disappointment, her husband Ed has relocated to San Francisco.
It goes on to say: "But then Ed drops a bombshell that threatens to undo everything Christina has strived for."
Like .. he's found a new girlfriend. Christina surely must have foreseen that this might happen, and it can hardly be regarded as a bombshell.
Christina seeks solace with girlfriends from her single days and meets a couple of single guys. In the end she gets over it and realizes that she's free to make choices. It's left to the poor reader to figure what those choices might be.
This is my second Laura Barnett book of 2023 and she is fast becoming one of those authors that I would read every book they write. Fredrik Backman, Kate Atkinson and Taylor Jenkins Reid are also in the same camp for different reasons . While I’m lucky enough not to have ever experienced the main themes in this book, miscarriage, IVF and yearning for the child you never have, I feel this is a beautiful representation of what it must be like to live with these losses and how you find a life outside of them . Beautiful writing as with the other books I have read from Laura Barnett. Complete shiny eye at the end 🥺
Christina is 43 and feels as though her life has come to an end. At this stage she expected to be happily married to Ed, living in their own home and surrounded by children. Unfortunately it transpired that they could not have their own children and they embarked on several rounds of IVF which resulted in two miscarriages and no children. The stress and trauma of it all becomes too much for Ed and he takes a job in the US, leaving Christina alone and devastated but determined to persuade Ed to agree to her having one last try on her own. But when Ed drops a bombshell, Christina is forced into the realisation that her dream has come to an end and she must rethink her life plans. Slowly, very slowly, she starts to let people in and there is a glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel of depression in which she has become immersed.
This book is a tender look at a difficult subject. I guess it is the forty-something equivalent of a coming-of-age story. Christina is a very well developed character who comes across as plausible and real. She feels as though she has lost everything including all of her dreams but eventually finds an inner strength from somewhere and gradually starts to take control of her own life, realign her plans and begin living again. Ultimately it is a heart-warming tale that manages not to be twee.
There is only one slight downside to the book from my point of view, Although this is probably a very realistic portrayal of the feelings and emotions which come with Christina’s situation, I found that at times it was all a bit too much for me as a reader. For a large portion of the book there is a depressive cloud hanging over the narrative and it became a little oppressive and a little repetitive. Whilst I appreciate that the author wants to inject realism into the story, this is not supposed to be a psychological assessment of Christina’s mental health. Rather it is supposed to be a novel which I assume we are supposed to enjoy, and to be fair I really did. However I felt that a little lightening of the mood would have been beneficial and would have broken up tedium which descended at times.
Overall I really enjoyed this book and would recommend it to a fairly wide readership. I would also happily read any other books by this author that came my way.
THIS BEATING HEART starts where many stories end: Christina and her husband have been trying for years for a baby, it doesn't work, their marriage falls apart, and her husband walks out. Christina is now in her early forties without a husband, child, or house. The only thing she has got are a lovely mother, a fiery aunt, a few good friends, and a new walking group (complete with new male friend with faithful dog).
It's a recipe for a twee novel, all "downtrodden woman makes new friends and rebuilds her broken life with lots of sunshine and flowers along the way." Thankfully, THIS BEATING HEART is not that book. It's not nearly as hard-hitting as it could be-- I didn't find the novel a particularly difficult or distressing read, though I might have if I was in Christina's situation-- but it's also not all happily-ever-after. Genuinely difficult things happen throughout the novel, and, while the situation has improved by the end, things are definitely not perfect.
Overall, the novel is a solid 3.5 stars, rounded up, as any issues are more that it lacks depth, rather than that it is actively frustrating. Christina is a likeable and relatable main characters, but doesn't have much by way of a unique personality. Mal, the dog-owner, is your typical rom-com sweetheart who falls in love with the heroine immediately for no apparent reason. The plot was touching and emotional, but a little slow moving, even for a short novel. All in all, I enjoyed this book far more than I expected, but I doubt it'll linger too long in my mind,
I think This Beating Heart is my favourite of all of Laura Barnett's books. It's a slim volume yet packs in so much emotion and heart-rending depth. It's also beautifully observed and based around the author's own experiences.
'What if the family you want…..isn't the family you need?' Christina is 43 and has longed for a child with her husband, Ed. Several rounds of IVF have either failed or have resulted in a miscarriage and Christina and Ed are broken. They're going their separate ways, the toll of the treatment and losses too heavy for them to bear.
The story is told from Christina's point of view and I really felt for her. At one point the unthinkable happens and I didn't know how she would cope with it but she found an inner strength from somewhere and what's so wonderful about this book is the hope for the future, the sense that if Christina can move on she can come out the other side stronger and happier, like a flower that has closed its petals to weather a storm, only to blossom in the burgeoning sunshine.
The writing is sublime, so real and compelling, the everyday life of Christina drawing me in completely. I was enthralled by the way her relationships with her family and friends helped her deal with what happened to her, enriched by new friendships and new experiences.
This Beating Heart is entrancing in every way and I highly recommend it for its perfectly descriptive prose and its moving but ultimately uplifting story.
This Beating Heart is a deeply personal novel from Laura Barnett, as it deals with the aftermath of IVF, which she has gone through many times. Christina and Ed have invested their life savings in trying to have a child, 5 rounds of IVF and 2 miscarriages later their marriage is over and Christina is left alone. Ed has moved to the States, despite there being one frozen embryo left. Should Christina try and persuade him to let her carry on, or is it time for her to try and move on? This is such a thought provoking, involving and beautifully written novel. Christina is a fully realised character and you really feel for her as her life crumbles around her. The supporting characters are well drawn and give heft to the novel; her 2 best friends, her aunt and her new male friend, Mal, are genuinely interesting with their own back stories and lives. The journey that Christina slowly embarks upon is life affirming and you root for her she finds her way, step by step. It is one of those novels that when you finish it you need to close your eyes and just let the story wash over you. Thank you so much to @orionbooks and@gigicroft for my advance copy.
I’m giving this three stars because of how it compares to Laura Barnett’s first two novels - which were frankly masterpieces.
For one thing, the characters seemed a little one-dimensional and the tropes have already been explored so much in contemporary fiction. I struggled to get invested in Christina’s perspective.
There was just something about this book that made it an incredibly heavy read. The romance sub-plot with Mal sparked a little joy in my heart, but I wish more had been made of it.
There was an opportunity here to explore the real issues around fertility and IVF but I feel Barnett just skirted around the issues.
It failed to evoke the same emotional response in me that The Versions of Us and Greatest Hits did. There were also some really glaring copy editing issues sprinkled throughout that I found a little frustrating.
All in all, this was a cosy autumnal read but fans of Laura Barnett’s previous work deserved far better.
A really beautiful story about how to reimagine life after infertility - to take the sadness, grief and anger and refuse to let it consume everything. This book's strength is in its refusal to hit the obvious plot points, to dial up the drama for the sake of it. While Christina can seem a bit saintly at points, I love the way the book shows us someone dealing with such an unfair hand with grace and dignity, healing through small kindnesses and subtle life changes
This was heavy, heavier than I expected, I wasn’t as attached to some of the characters as I was hoping but the sub plot was cute even if it was predictable and I feel like the ending was a little rushed with the sub plot! The ending was a bit random and bittersweet, like a cliff hanger but not, I don’t know?
Really enjoyed this one. I found Christina's situation affecting though I have never been in such a situation. I felt the book dealt with things in a realistic way with no easy answers and 'happy' endings. I liked and sympathised with all of the characters. I have read some of this author's previous books but this one is actually my favourite.
Grab this book and read it, as soon as you can! So delicate, respectful and non-predictable. I loved it and could not out it down, it’s been some time since I had late nights reading as I couldn’t stop. I just loved it.
A beautiful exploration of loss and friendship, marriage and heartbreak. It’s also a quietly joyful book about finding your own version of happiness and ways to move through life, and about change. A compelling read by a gifted author.
I did enjoy this and there are some really moving movements; the explorations of womanhood/motherhood have a poignancy. It’s a relatively easy read but Christina isn’t necessarily the most engaging protagonist. Overall a solid, pleasing but not overwhelming 3 stars.
Liked: the descriptions of the inner thoughts of people who’ve suffered infertility and the triggers they face daily. Disliked: I didn’t really get drawn in by any of the characters and a lot of the prose seemed to be there unnecessarily. Very little “action”
A really lovely book with nothing dramatic happening. It was much the better for that. The characters were nice and it was much more of a book with friendship and making the most of what life throws at you at the core. Would recommend to others.
Everyone reacts differently to loss, grief, heartbreak. It's so personal, and so this must be a hard story to write.
But I thought it was beautifully done.
We see hope blossoming again for Christina as she explores a future that's different to the one she dreamt of.
I liked the ending. The possibility of becoming a mother is still present. Yet Christina has started to slowly heal from her losses and build a new future. The book doesn't leave her life tied neatly in a bow, which felt real.
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A tad light on plot, at times losing forward momentum, but was a realistic interpretation of this kind of journey, hope, and loss. Gently and tenderly handled. A good read.
A flippant and distracted story. Whilst yes other influences are at play, there was an opportunity missed to really delve into the psychological and emotional side of failed IVF.
I didn’t really see the point of this book. It dipped in and out of a myriad of issues without dealing with any very well. Very one dimensional characters who you didn’t care for in either way. Really disappointing as I adored her other two books.