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432 pages, Paperback
First published September 29, 2020
“El perdón me asusta. Parece una especie de antídoto contra el arrepentimiento, y hay cosas de las que no me he arrepentido lo bastante.”Su aguda sensibilidad le hace experimentar la mirada ajena como una pesadilla y permanecer atento al más mínimo gesto de rechazo que, contradictoriamente, cree merecer y hasta provocar intencionadamente. De igual forma, soporta pacientemente frecuentes humillaciones y penalidades. Hay momentos en los que parece que es Dickens el autor de una novela sobre un nuevo Jesús que ofrece en todo momento la otra mejilla como si de un justo castigo se tratara. Por todo ello, y buscando una inocuidad que le salvara de su previsible destino, y a pesar de su educación e inteligencia, elige una vida solitaria de vagabundo que, aun siendo un ser profundamente moral, no puede evitar mentir, robar o emborrachase, como si quisiera provocar la ira de ese Dios de sus padres en el que no cree y al que parece reprochar esa inexistencia que solo él parece advertir.
“Un hombre destructivo en un mundo donde todo puede arruinarse o romperse”Así las cosas, aparece Della Miles, una maestra, hija también de un predicador y que comparte con Jack su amor por la poesía. Della es de raza negra.
“Ese pacto infernal que convertía en transgresión y delito algo que era inocente”Della es la persona que podría hacerle soportable la vida, pero el simple hecho de que los vieran paseando por la calle podría ser fatal para ella. Así, la novela se parte en dos, ambas con el paisaje de fondo del racismo más radical y miserable. Por un lado, la tierna y conmovedora relación que se establece entre ambos amantes, siempre alertas ante cualquier gesto que pudiera echar por tierra el ya de por sí inestable vínculo que les une.
“Si ahora le tocara la cara, por levemente que fuera, las cosas serían distintas después. Así es el mundo: tocas algo, cambias el mundo. Se necesita cautela.”Por otro lado, el más extenso y blanco de mi crítica inicial, el que trata sobre el conflicto que se desata en el interior de Jack entre aferrarse a lo que parece ser su único camino de redención o no seguir una relación abocada a causar un daño irreparable a la persona que más quiere. Una problemática sugerente e interesante que, como dije, con escasas variaciones se repite una y otra vez de forma innecesaria.
It is odd, what families do to their children—Faith, Hope, Grace, Glory, the names of his good, plain sisters like an ascending scale of spiritual attainment, a veritable anthem, culminating in, as they said sometimes, the least of these, Glory, who fretted at her own childishness, the hand-me-down, tag-along existence of the eighth of eight children. He himself, who aspired to harmlessness, was named for a man who was named for a man remembered, if he was, for antique passions and heroics involving gunfire. He was afraid that Delia or Della might mention a cousin named Dahlia, and he would laugh.
I’m a gifted thief. I lie fluently, often for no reason. I’m a bad but confirmed drunk. I have no talent for friendship. What talents I do have I make no use of. I am aware instantly and almost obsessively of anything fragile, with the thought that I must and will break it. This has been true of me my whole life. I isolate myself as a way of limiting the harm I can do. And here I am with a wife! Of whom I know more good than you have any hint of, to whom I could do a thousand kinds of harm, never meaning to, or meaning to.”
Jack said, “He’s forgiven me every day of my life from the day I was born. Breach birth.” He wished he could smoke. Where was all this candor coming from? He said, “Forgiveness scares me. It seems like a kind of antidote to regret, and there are things I haven’t regretted sufficiently. And never will. I know that for a fact.”
… The minister put his glasses on again and smiled as if he were just back from a brief absence. He said, “Mr. Ames, if the Lord thinks you need punishing, you can trust him to see to it. He knows where to find you. If he’s showing you a little grace in the meantime, he probably won’t mind if you enjoy it.”
Jack said, “I’m not sure that’s what’s happening. It’s not always clear to me how to tell grace from, you know, punishment. Granting your terms.” If the thought of someone sweetened your life to the point of making it tolerable, even while you knew that just to be seen walking down the street with her might do her harm, which one was that?
“We do. We know this, but just because it’s a habit to believe it, not because it is really visible to us most of the time. But once in a lifetime, maybe, you look at a stranger and you see a soul, a glorious presence out of place in the world. And if you love God, every choice is made for you. There is no turning away. You’ve seen the mystery—you’ve seen what life is about. What it’s for. And a soul has no earthly qualities, no history among the things of this world, no guilt or injury or failure. No more than a flame would have. There is nothing to be said about it except that it is a holy human soul. And it is a miracle when you recognize it.”
Love is holy because it is like grace--the worthiness of its object is never really what matters.And yet, despite this quote, I find that Jack as a book is much closer to Housekeeping than say, Gilead or especially Home. What does this mean in practice?
[Because] once in a lifetime, maybe, you look at a stranger and you see a soul, a glorious presence out of place in the world. And if you love God, everyone choice is made for you.
Dear friend, the loneliness might kill me.
I have been one acquainted with the night.
I have walked out in rain—and back in rain.
I’m a gifted thief. I lie fluently, often for no reason. I’m a bad but confirmed drunk. I have no talent for friendship. What talents I do have I make no use of. I am aware instantly and almost obsessively of anything fragile, with the thought that I must and will break it. This has been true of me my whole life. I isolate myself as a way of limiting the harm I can do. And here I am with a wife! Of whom I know more good than you have any hint of, to whom I could do a thousand kinds of harm, never meaning to, or meaning to.
Dear Jesus, what was he doing? This was not what he had promised himself. This was not harmlessness. He was sure he had no right to involve her in so much potential misery. How often had he thought this? But she had the right to involve herself, or had claimed the right, holding his hand the way she had. She was young, the daughter of a protective family. She might have no idea yet that embarrassment, relentless, punitive scorn, can wear away at a soul until it recedes into wordless loneliness. God in the silence. In the deep darkness. The highest privilege, his father said. He was usually speaking of death, of course. The congregant’s soul had entered the Holy of Holies. Jack sometimes called this life he had lived prevenient death. He had learned that for all its comforts and discomforts, its stark silence first of all, there was clearly no reprieve from doing harm.
He let her look, not even lowering his eyes. He was waiting to see what she would make of him. And then he would be what she made of him.