The angst ya'll 😩 I was crying. The pain this fic has caused me is unbelievable, and it's not even over yet. I'm looking forward to it tbh. Give me all the pain.
Besides the obvious pain, James and Regulus have me in a choke hold I don't wanna get out of. I love them so much.
This part of the fic was harder to get through because it revolves a lot around sa, self blame and just a bunch of other things but I did like this part of the fic better than the first.
“That isn’t your fault either. But that kid,” she points after Sirius, “looks at you like the world starts and stops with you. Looks at you like he’s never seen anything so beautiful. Looks at you like he can’t believe you’re real.”
This fic isn't focused on wolfstar, but any crumbs I get of them I love it. Remus and Sirius are adorable and will always hold first place for my favorite ship.
REGULUS IM COMING FOR YOU NO THIS WASNT WHAT WAS SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN NO FUCK NO TAKE IT BACK PLEASE PLEASE WHY WHY WHY NO STOP PLEASE JUST GO CANOODLE SOMEWHERE SAFE NO GOD PLEASE MY BABIESSS MY MARY AND JAMES NOOOOOO MY LITTLE LILY MY BABY REG AND REMUS AND SIRIUS ITS NOT FAIR !!! ITS NOT FAIRRR MY BABIESSSSSS STOP THIS MADNESS I WONT LET YOU DO IT TO THEM THATS ALL I ASK PLEASE HAVE MERCY REGULUS PLEASE !!!! REGULUS !!! THERES STILL A WAY NO NO NO NO DENIAL REGULUS MY GOODNESS MAN THERES ONLY SO MUCH A GIRL CAN TAKE
Tbh I’ve never been a jegulus shipper and I still don’t think I am but my heart is still broken anyway because the writing was so good that I did actually want them to be together.
Also GODRIC AND SALAZAR??!???!!!!?!!? was such an excellent touch and I would never have expected it.
Favorite quotes:
“I wanted you.” “Have me then.”
“I feel like I’m drowning.”
“It’s always been you really. For me.”
“I’m sorry I did this to you. I’m sorry I’m not strong enough to protect you. I think you might hate me for it someday. But I hope not. My god, I really hope not.”
“No one will ever look at us the way they look at you and her.” “I will. I’ll look at us that way.”
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imagine if voldemort was worried about other important things such as his non existent nose instead of ruining relationships of sixteen year olds because of all the wizards in the world he wants a child to serve him😍😍
“Just a little more time. Just a little more time with him. Please, please please. He’s not even sure who he’s asking anymore. Himself? The universe? The rest of the Wizarding World? Please don’t start your war yet. I’m not done being loved by him.”
“James pushes further into Sirius’s side wondering when it’ll stop. The crying. The pain. He isn’t at all certain that it will. This heartbreak feels endless. This heartbreak eats him whole.”
re-read: in my mind there is nothing that can compare to jegulus. I genuinely love these characters so much even though they are both incredibly flawed, especially in this fic. These chapters are where the story definitely takes a turn and gets darker, so it does get a bit more difficult to read large portions of the story at a time. But at the same time I do love angst. With that being said, I am looking forward to reading the last part while also dreading it for that exact reason.
original review:
okay, i enjoyed this a lot more than i enjoyed the first part.
i love the angst, and these chapters were full of it. the plot revolves around a lot of SA, so it was a bit difficult to read too much at a time because of how emotionally-heavy it felt. not ready for the end...
originally read from: may 19th 2023-may 27th 2023 reread from: november 28th 2025-december 16th 2025
I am utterly heart broken. It took me forever to read this because i was actually SCARED to read more and just have my heart ripped from my own chest. This book broke me, it was killing me. But like in a…..good way? I mean yeah i wanted to kms because of the pain, but hey, i love messermoons writing and i love this story. I love the realism, the book is poetry in large form. It brings me life and despair and i’m so down for it. Anyways might just be the regulus kinny in me but yeah this book made me feel as if i was drowning….see what i did there.
I'm never going to recover from this, I'm never going to be happy while reading the rest of this story, I know this now.
what a fucking and amazing rollercoaster, I hated it and loved it every single page, I swear I'm not gonna finish this fic, but this fic is gonna finishing me.
im truly speechless and fascinated by every turn and every character, couldn't stop reading.
“Please don’t start your war yet. I’m not done being loved by him.”
I actually might just throw up. This is so totally not okay. Anytime something soft happens the next chapter makes me wanna rip my heart out. Important parts to touch on: Regulus’ patronus, Reg’s backstory, Reg’s christmas present & James’ letters, James in this in general, Mary Macdonald!!!!!, & Sirius and Reg’s relationship. I highlighted so much in this book - it’s acc insane.
This is my perfect depictions of all the characters, like my favourite of each of them yet (except barty and evan obvs). I obvs adore every depiction of Regulus tho, I will defend his every action in any book forever.
Also can I just: “You’re not bad Regulus.” & “Maybe, but I don’t think I’m good either.” 😭😭😭😭😭😭
This part was much better than the last part in terms of pacing and plot. THE PLOTLINES ARE INSANE. I WAS GAGGED THE WHOLE TIME. Knocked a star because I can’t in good conscience give anything with this many typos a full five star rating. Also…pretty sure there’s a crazy time jump after this so I’m nervous for what’s coming next.
"we must be the gayest year at Hogwarts" - Remus love-of-my-life Lupin. Emotionally numb after this roller costar. The love between James & Reg was beautifully written in a way that doesn't excuses Reg, & him being a death eater, but does add so much depth to his character & his trauma, explaining decisions he makes, & how he doesn't let himself be saved by James; because it's not that black & white. But bloody Hell it hurt. Padfoot & Moony - I want them as my Dads. Lily is the MVP in my eyes. Honesty, LOVED when the girls would come into the story, adding sub plots & fun. Need to find a fic just about Marlene and Dorcas ( I just love women loving women). Also, PETER - the literal RAT - arrgghh. Loved & hated his one liners about Muggles & politics, when you know what he does years later. How the HELL did he get sorted into Gryffindor? (Ps, Mary's plot was so very needed & healing for me in ways I didn't know I needed. SA is so tricky to write about, but the author did the plot & Mary's character justice) Nervous & Scared for Vol 3 now they're out of Hogwarts. Not prepared for the death toll & tears to come.
Favorite quotes <3 "God, we must be the gayest year in Hogwarts history." "You are my happy.” "I love you. Even when you hurt." "I feel like I'm drowning." “It’s always been you really. For me." 😭 "I want to give you everything James, everything.” "He doesn't want to love in secret. It's not who he is. He's too- too honourable for that." “He never knew the difference between a house and a home before this.” “Sometimes his glasses hurt Regulus's nose when they kiss. But for some reason he likes it. It reminds him that he's kissing James Potter every time they press into his skin.” "I’ll never look like that, standing next to you." “You will always belong with me Reg, always.”
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ik this is mainly a jegulus fic not wolfstar but omg:
“I think it was inevitable, me loving you […] Even if I never knew you existed you would still be the person I loved and I would spend my whole life wondering where you were. I don’t just love you because you’re here. I don’t just love you by accident. I love you because I was always going to love you. In this life and the next life and the one after that. The universe could have placed us on different planets and it would still be you.”
r u kidding?!
also tho i’m heartbroken with jegulus i don’t think ill ever recover from what’s happened or what ik is about to happen 👀*canon compliment*
oh lord. OH LORD. i loved every page — even the heartbreaking ones. but, the niceties are over. now, everything will change. totally ready to cry my heart out.
tbr review am i reading this knowing it will destroy my mental health? yes. i hate myself
oh my fucking god why am i even reading this im literally in constant PAIN and im so scared of what's gonna happen next 😭 like ik that everything will be sad and depressing and terrible but will i stop reading it? no.