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わたしは壁になりたい [Watashi wa Kabe ni Naritai] #2
わたしは壁になりたい 2 [Watashi wa Kabe ni Naritai 2]
これが、需要と供給婚!? Aセク腐女子×一途なゲイの新婚生活開幕――。
これが、需要と供給婚!? Aセク腐女子×一途なゲイの新婚生活開幕――。「ずっと一人で生きていくと思っていた」 そんな二人の需要と供給が合致した結婚生活。
これが、需要と供給婚!? Aセク腐女子×一途なゲイの新婚生活開幕――。「ずっと一人で生きていくと思っていた」 そんな二人の需要と供給が合致した結婚生活。
144 pages, Paperback
First published February 28, 2022
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February 5, 2023
Although not quite as good as the first volume, this book is still an important piece of ace representation as Yuriko's husband tries to understand his wife. He, like many allosexual people, can't quite wrap his head around how she can be asexual but still enjoy reading romances, and the metaphor presented by her friend, that people who can't taste sweetness can still enjoy eating desserts for other flavors, largely works. (I prefer "I love reading crime fiction, but I don't want anything to do with murder in real life, so how is that different from reading romance without wanting it for myself?") He wants to be an ally, he's just not sure how to go about it.
That's important, because other people in Yuriko's life aren't allies at all. Her mother's comment about wanting her to marry because she "shouldn't be alone" and because she needs to "think of her own happiness" cut deep, because she's unable to understand that just because marriage in the traditional sense worked for her doesn't mean it will give her daughter the same thing. When Yuriko doesn't want to marry, she is thinking of her own happiness. And yes, she is happy living with her husband in their platonic marriage (which is still a "real" marriage, thank you very much; sex is an option, not a requirement), but she also would have been happy single.
Life doesn't come with absolutes beyond eating and drinking. When more people understand that, we'll be in a better place.
That's important, because other people in Yuriko's life aren't allies at all. Her mother's comment about wanting her to marry because she "shouldn't be alone" and because she needs to "think of her own happiness" cut deep, because she's unable to understand that just because marriage in the traditional sense worked for her doesn't mean it will give her daughter the same thing. When Yuriko doesn't want to marry, she is thinking of her own happiness. And yes, she is happy living with her husband in their platonic marriage (which is still a "real" marriage, thank you very much; sex is an option, not a requirement), but she also would have been happy single.
Life doesn't come with absolutes beyond eating and drinking. When more people understand that, we'll be in a better place.
May 15, 2023
If there’s not a volume 3, I will riot!
January 26, 2023
Yurika and Gakurouta continue their haphazard existence as they work on building a life together, we learn their origin story, and some minor conflicts erupt. And the other shoe might start slooooowly easing off the old foot.
I find this series fascinating because on paper it sounds dull as hell - two people who have no romantic attraction to one another are married and this is the story of their existence. Are we about to hear the definitive treatise on the nature of mundanity?
But what we actually get is an exploration of what this marriage means, how it works, and the nature of attraction in such a way that, though not without its slow parts, the story is far more engaging than it would seem on first blush.
An arranged marriage is an arranged marriage, so, even as mere friends, there’s a lot for Yurika and Gakurouta to still figure out about their new lives together, no matter their circumstances. And I appreciate the way the mangaka plumbs the depths of the premise for all it’s worth.
While they are not a romantic pairing, that doesn’t mean that our leads don’t like one another and exploring that growing platonic bond in the context of a sexless marriage is pretty interesting. Even if he doesn’t want her in that way, Gakurouta still feels pangs of jealousy at the notion that Yurika could like somebody more than him (plus the overprotective nature of a sibling).
There’s also the question of how long this bond can last. If things stay the same, there’s no problem. But this isn’t a relationship in a vacuum and there are hints that, despite him being the worrier, Gakurouta is becoming very slowly more accepting of his sexuality.
It’ll be interesting to see how that goes. There are hints that his childhood friend, who turns over women in rapid succession, may not be quite as straight as he appears. That could prove very good for one part of Gakurouta’s life and very difficult for another.
So I rather respect the way this decided to branch off and look at the possibilities here and it was quite clever to bring up these problems with communication and the potential issues down the road. Not to mention, the more this bond deepens the harder this is going to be if anything does happen.
My concerns are mostly about longevity. I think this was pleasantly surprising, but I also think that it has a pretty finite point before it runs out of things to say. Even here we have lots of BL digression (and other digressions, digressions everywhere!) and a new character who take up a big chunk of running time.
Said character was not bad; he helps Gakurouta out and we get a bit of a dumping of gender and sexuality talk that was okay, but nothing new. I am, however, way past done with authors using the pronoun game to try and make a big reveal that was incredibly obvious from the start (decent omake at the end though).
It’s also not terribly funny. Which wouldn’t be a huge deal if it wasn’t trying to be. The part of Yurika trying to share interests with Gakurouta and learning something of his passions as a result is good enough without the goofing around. Overall, a step up from the first volume, it has to be said.
4 stars - what I like, I really, really like. It’s the consideration for what is not only happening but what could happen that I appreciated this time out. It remains to be seen if it can hold my interest until said things happen, however.
I find this series fascinating because on paper it sounds dull as hell - two people who have no romantic attraction to one another are married and this is the story of their existence. Are we about to hear the definitive treatise on the nature of mundanity?
But what we actually get is an exploration of what this marriage means, how it works, and the nature of attraction in such a way that, though not without its slow parts, the story is far more engaging than it would seem on first blush.
An arranged marriage is an arranged marriage, so, even as mere friends, there’s a lot for Yurika and Gakurouta to still figure out about their new lives together, no matter their circumstances. And I appreciate the way the mangaka plumbs the depths of the premise for all it’s worth.
While they are not a romantic pairing, that doesn’t mean that our leads don’t like one another and exploring that growing platonic bond in the context of a sexless marriage is pretty interesting. Even if he doesn’t want her in that way, Gakurouta still feels pangs of jealousy at the notion that Yurika could like somebody more than him (plus the overprotective nature of a sibling).
There’s also the question of how long this bond can last. If things stay the same, there’s no problem. But this isn’t a relationship in a vacuum and there are hints that, despite him being the worrier, Gakurouta is becoming very slowly more accepting of his sexuality.
It’ll be interesting to see how that goes. There are hints that his childhood friend, who turns over women in rapid succession, may not be quite as straight as he appears. That could prove very good for one part of Gakurouta’s life and very difficult for another.
So I rather respect the way this decided to branch off and look at the possibilities here and it was quite clever to bring up these problems with communication and the potential issues down the road. Not to mention, the more this bond deepens the harder this is going to be if anything does happen.
My concerns are mostly about longevity. I think this was pleasantly surprising, but I also think that it has a pretty finite point before it runs out of things to say. Even here we have lots of BL digression (and other digressions, digressions everywhere!) and a new character who take up a big chunk of running time.
Said character was not bad; he helps Gakurouta out and we get a bit of a dumping of gender and sexuality talk that was okay, but nothing new. I am, however, way past done with authors using the pronoun game to try and make a big reveal that was incredibly obvious from the start (decent omake at the end though).
It’s also not terribly funny. Which wouldn’t be a huge deal if it wasn’t trying to be. The part of Yurika trying to share interests with Gakurouta and learning something of his passions as a result is good enough without the goofing around. Overall, a step up from the first volume, it has to be said.
4 stars - what I like, I really, really like. It’s the consideration for what is not only happening but what could happen that I appreciated this time out. It remains to be seen if it can hold my interest until said things happen, however.
December 7, 2025
the second volume of this queer manga gives us some more backstory on our protagonists' lavender marriage, sees their bond growing, and introduces a new gay bestie! i LOVED the deeper discussion of asexual vs aromantic identities, and many of the different ways these can manifest. rtc!!
November 9, 2023
"But how can you know that marriage will bring someone happiness? That's not guaranteed for anyone."
Shut up, shut up, I love this volume even more than the first!!!! 😭💕
The second volume of I Want to Be a Wall takes a look at how Yuriko and Gakurouta came to their arrangement and what it means to them to call the other "husband" or "wife" as they work to determine their roles in each others' lives and what they have the right to ask for from each other since their marriage isn't "real" by traditional standards.
My absolute favorite part about this volume is that it made it repeatedly, explicitly clear that neither Yuriko nor Gakurouta views their marriage as a sacrifice or a compromise with their own desires. They've hung out with one another as friends for months before deciding to get married, and they both make it really clear that while part of the marriage is for their families, the larger part is that they just miss each other when they're not hanging out. They both want the other to be a larger presence in their life, often counting down the days until they can see each other again and coveting every new thing they learn about the other.
It would have been so easy to have them enter marriage with it being "the best of bad options," but at the end of the day, it's shown that neither would have agreed to it if they didn't wholly and truly want the other as a more permanent fixture in their life. And that's honestly really beautiful how the story emphasizes how genuinely happy they both are to know and be with one another. It definitely makes their relationship feel closer to a caring queerplatonic relationship rather than just a marriage of convenience between two people who happen to like each other. You really get the sense that getting their families off their backs is something between a convenient excuse and an incidental benefit. They truly want to be together, just not in the way most husbands and wives do.
I also enjoyed this volume's focus on Yuriko and Gakurouta trying to figure out what they have the right to ask of each other. A few things happen that lean into this, but the biggest one is that Yuriko starts hanging out with a college friend who's temporarily in town, and Gakurouta fears that she wants a relationship with him or that he is gunning for a relationship with her against her wishes. They might not be romantically involved, but a part of him is jealous that someone else is monopolizing Yuriko's time, and he starts wondering what will happen is she finds someone she wants to marry.
My favorite part of this storyline is that it is the alloromantic allosexual character experiencing this jealousy and insecurity at the thought of being left behind. A common question aspec folks get is how they deal with close relationships with allo people knowing that someone else might come along and give them something they can't. It's kind of a gross question, but the notion wiggles its way into narratives surrounding aspec/allo relationships sometimes. It was really refreshing that Gakurouta was the one who was navigating this fear instead, worrying that Yuriko will one day wake up and find someone she's attracted to and not have time for him anymore. These insecurities culminate in an honest, touching conversation about their relationship, where they both promise each other to share if/when they develop feelings for another person and promise that even if that happens, they'll always have a place in one other's lives. They also basically each give the other protective sibling rights on evaluating each others' potential partners, which was cute.
In addition to these storylines, Gakurouta gets the chance to sit down with Yuriko's friend to discuss a little more in depth what Yuriko's relationship with BL and romance in general is, essentially reiterating a chapter from the first volume with more explicit acknowledgement of attraction vs action principles and different experiences across the aro/ace spectrums. Yuriko and Gakurouta also go to a BL convention together where they are both first very insecure about knowing less about the other than they thought, before realizing that they're excited that they don't know everything because it means they can learn together.
Really this series makes me so damn happy, and I can't wait for the third (and I believe final?) installment. 💕
Shut up, shut up, I love this volume even more than the first!!!! 😭💕
The second volume of I Want to Be a Wall takes a look at how Yuriko and Gakurouta came to their arrangement and what it means to them to call the other "husband" or "wife" as they work to determine their roles in each others' lives and what they have the right to ask for from each other since their marriage isn't "real" by traditional standards.
My absolute favorite part about this volume is that it made it repeatedly, explicitly clear that neither Yuriko nor Gakurouta views their marriage as a sacrifice or a compromise with their own desires. They've hung out with one another as friends for months before deciding to get married, and they both make it really clear that while part of the marriage is for their families, the larger part is that they just miss each other when they're not hanging out. They both want the other to be a larger presence in their life, often counting down the days until they can see each other again and coveting every new thing they learn about the other.
It would have been so easy to have them enter marriage with it being "the best of bad options," but at the end of the day, it's shown that neither would have agreed to it if they didn't wholly and truly want the other as a more permanent fixture in their life. And that's honestly really beautiful how the story emphasizes how genuinely happy they both are to know and be with one another. It definitely makes their relationship feel closer to a caring queerplatonic relationship rather than just a marriage of convenience between two people who happen to like each other. You really get the sense that getting their families off their backs is something between a convenient excuse and an incidental benefit. They truly want to be together, just not in the way most husbands and wives do.
I also enjoyed this volume's focus on Yuriko and Gakurouta trying to figure out what they have the right to ask of each other. A few things happen that lean into this, but the biggest one is that Yuriko starts hanging out with a college friend who's temporarily in town, and Gakurouta fears that she wants a relationship with him or that he is gunning for a relationship with her against her wishes. They might not be romantically involved, but a part of him is jealous that someone else is monopolizing Yuriko's time, and he starts wondering what will happen is she finds someone she wants to marry.
My favorite part of this storyline is that it is the alloromantic allosexual character experiencing this jealousy and insecurity at the thought of being left behind. A common question aspec folks get is how they deal with close relationships with allo people knowing that someone else might come along and give them something they can't. It's kind of a gross question, but the notion wiggles its way into narratives surrounding aspec/allo relationships sometimes. It was really refreshing that Gakurouta was the one who was navigating this fear instead, worrying that Yuriko will one day wake up and find someone she's attracted to and not have time for him anymore. These insecurities culminate in an honest, touching conversation about their relationship, where they both promise each other to share if/when they develop feelings for another person and promise that even if that happens, they'll always have a place in one other's lives. They also basically each give the other protective sibling rights on evaluating each others' potential partners, which was cute.
In addition to these storylines, Gakurouta gets the chance to sit down with Yuriko's friend to discuss a little more in depth what Yuriko's relationship with BL and romance in general is, essentially reiterating a chapter from the first volume with more explicit acknowledgement of attraction vs action principles and different experiences across the aro/ace spectrums. Yuriko and Gakurouta also go to a BL convention together where they are both first very insecure about knowing less about the other than they thought, before realizing that they're excited that they don't know everything because it means they can learn together.
Really this series makes me so damn happy, and I can't wait for the third (and I believe final?) installment. 💕
October 17, 2023
Concluso con un cliffhanger spaventoso e l'ancor più terrificante scritta "continua" senza mese di pubblicazione come nel primo volume. Il terzo a quanto pare è ancora disponibile solo in lingua originale per cui speriamo bene, Yuriko e Gakurota sembravano la coppia più mal assortita del mondo e invece potrebbe rivelarsi vincente. Voglio saperne di più!
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January 2, 2024acho q esse mangá tem a melhor explicação de arromanticismo/assexualidade q já li na ficção, sem brincadeira nenhuma
January 27, 2025
4.5 This was a solid follow up story. I loved how vulnerable both main characters were. I know this series ends on vol 3 and I'm so curious to see how it wraps up!
April 10, 2024
Aah I’m so in love with their relationship!
I love the aro-ace and platonic love rep!
As well as the platonic crush and that one platonic “jealousy” storyline.
I love how sweet and comfortable they are with each other.
I love seeing them growing closer and learning new things about their views of life. Especially the last chapter with Gabriel and on their trip/pilgrimage!
I’m a bit envious of Yuriko tbh. Her platonic love life is everything I’ve always wished for my younger self too. I mean, I still kinda do, but especially my teenage self would’ve needed these type of friends. That type of platonic intimacy.
As much as I’d want for Gakurouta to get his feelings reciprocated and be happy with his one and only crush, I feel like Sosuke doesn’t deserve him.
That cliffhanger at the end tho...
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I liked that one panel that (unintentionally?) explained the Manga's title. I've been wondering why it's called like that, when they aren't awkward with each other at all. Hence why I also imagined the story differently. But I guess it makes sense. xD
-09.04.24
I love the aro-ace and platonic love rep!
As well as the platonic crush and that one platonic “jealousy” storyline.
I love how sweet and comfortable they are with each other.
I love seeing them growing closer and learning new things about their views of life. Especially the last chapter with Gabriel and on their trip/pilgrimage!
I’m a bit envious of Yuriko tbh. Her platonic love life is everything I’ve always wished for my younger self too. I mean, I still kinda do, but especially my teenage self would’ve needed these type of friends. That type of platonic intimacy.
As much as I’d want for Gakurouta to get his feelings reciprocated and be happy with his one and only crush, I feel like Sosuke doesn’t deserve him.
That cliffhanger at the end tho...
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I liked that one panel that (unintentionally?) explained the Manga's title. I've been wondering why it's called like that, when they aren't awkward with each other at all. Hence why I also imagined the story differently. But I guess it makes sense. xD
-09.04.24
January 16, 2023
I finished! It was so good and I enjoyed it so much!
In this volume, we got a glimpse on how Yuriko and Gakurouta met and how they immediatly clicked, though they didn't "get together" until much later.
I love the relationship these two characters have, they're so genuine and kind; they really try to be the best versions of themselves for the other, always supporting each other. They always try to stay on equal footing, never asking the other to do something they themselves are not willing to do.
I also adored the talks about sexualities, how we also perceice romance and sex, and even how BL is perceive, not something as simply "gay stories that only girls like" but how it can have many layers, the different types of people that consume them and stuff.
I really, really liked this volume and I can't wait for the second one.
In this volume, we got a glimpse on how Yuriko and Gakurouta met and how they immediatly clicked, though they didn't "get together" until much later.
I love the relationship these two characters have, they're so genuine and kind; they really try to be the best versions of themselves for the other, always supporting each other. They always try to stay on equal footing, never asking the other to do something they themselves are not willing to do.
I also adored the talks about sexualities, how we also perceice romance and sex, and even how BL is perceive, not something as simply "gay stories that only girls like" but how it can have many layers, the different types of people that consume them and stuff.
I really, really liked this volume and I can't wait for the second one.
May 9, 2023
I really like the addition of Yuriko’s friend: Momo-san, since he was an ally for Yuriko and I like his dynamic with both her and Gakurouta. I like that this volume gives some more insight into Yuriko’s asexual through various explanations and Gakurouta’s overall curiosity about his wife.
I’m very curious and a bit nervous going into this 3rd and final volume due to the unexpected way that this volume ended.
I’m very curious and a bit nervous going into this 3rd and final volume due to the unexpected way that this volume ended.
March 30, 2023
The way this book describes asexuality warms my heart! 🥰 I love how it somehow perfectly captures how some of us experience romance and relationships. — I really liked how this book also showcased their growth as friends and mock couple.
July 2, 2025
⭐️4½
Mi è sembrato più un volume di passaggio, anche se pian piano si approfondisce la storia dei protagonisti.
La parte finale dell'amico di Yuriko che dà il suo parere a Gakurota di come lei si senta da persona aroace è stata la mia preferita🩷
Mi è sembrato più un volume di passaggio, anche se pian piano si approfondisce la storia dei protagonisti.
La parte finale dell'amico di Yuriko che dà il suo parere a Gakurota di come lei si senta da persona aroace è stata la mia preferita🩷
December 16, 2024
That was cute. I really liked the origin story of how the couple met. The stuff about Gakurouta being jealous was a little weird, but I did like the conversation where they try to dissect why Yuriko likes BL
November 26, 2024
Vol. 1 ★★★☆☆
I like this a lot! It's even better than the first volume. It delves into the circumstances behind how they met and ended up getting married. On top of that, it's just a very thoughtful and progressive exploration of what a marriage can be like.
I like this a lot! It's even better than the first volume. It delves into the circumstances behind how they met and ended up getting married. On top of that, it's just a very thoughtful and progressive exploration of what a marriage can be like.
July 3, 2024
"So aren't people also free...not to fall in love?"
I BAWLED I FEEL SO VALIDATED 😭😭😭
I BAWLED I FEEL SO VALIDATED 😭😭😭
January 17, 2023
rep - all japanese, gay mc, aromantic asexual mc, bi sc
a gay man and an aromantic-asexual woman get married (lavender marriage) to avoid more questioning and worrying from their respective families.
there was a discussion about being asexual aromantic, and i felt perceived. there was another one (same panel almost) about being a bl fangirl/boy, and i found it extremely interesting.
a gay man and an aromantic-asexual woman get married (lavender marriage) to avoid more questioning and worrying from their respective families.
there was a discussion about being asexual aromantic, and i felt perceived. there was another one (same panel almost) about being a bl fangirl/boy, and i found it extremely interesting.
February 14, 2023
Ugh I wish these English translations weren’t so new!! I’ll have to wait ages for volume 3 and this one ended on SUCH A CLIFF HANGER!!! But I love them anyway. This is such a cute story of a platonic marriage with plenty of missteps and awkwardness, but ultimately shows beautiful growth between two people navigating a tense situation. It’s very wholesome and lovely! Glad to finally understand how Yuriko and Gaku met and got married 💜
December 31, 2024
Zacząłem kilka miesięcy temu, ale skończyłem dopiero wczoraj. Podobał mi się rozwój tej dziwnej współzależnej relacji między bohaterami a wprowadzenie postaci przyjaciela Yuriko było miłym dodatkiem.
January 29, 2023
so soft so lovely so comforting :((((<3
April 7, 2023
I really like how they distribute informations. This is so lovely. ♡
March 11, 2024
This manga series has ruined me, where am I going to get my good platonic partnership content now.
Also I love you Momo
Also I love you Momo
June 17, 2024
"Ci sono persone che non provano amore, ma nutrono desiderio sessuale o altre che riescono ad innamorarsi, ma rifuggono da ogni tipo di contatto fisico." 🏳️🌈
February 6, 2025
That long discussion about yearning and why the female lead reads yaoi is just top tier
May 15, 2024
4.5 stars!
Was reading this because of a friend’s recommendation and it was so wholesome 🥹 the main characters have a great friendship
Was reading this because of a friend’s recommendation and it was so wholesome 🥹 the main characters have a great friendship
February 27, 2024
I cannot express how necessary this manga was for me. It just gets me.
March 13, 2023
Still quite cute :) we understand better how our heroes came to get married. I really liked Momo-san's speech about diversity, how we all perceive the world in a different way.... I also finally understood that in Japan 'asexual' means also aromantic. I appreciate a lot all the little explanation and the glossary at the end, I wish French mangas also had them !
November 21, 2023
i love qprs 😫😫😫😫😫
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