This book was disappointing on so many levels, I'm not even sure where to start.
1. This was a SLUG of a read. I really had to work at this one, and I read every word up until about the 60% mark, and then I started to skim just to make sure I understood what happened in case I read the next one. Billie Rose just didn't do it for me.
2. I was on a HIGH after Watercolor Skulls. I absolutely loved that book, so much so, that I bought the paperback, and I don't buy actual books because I live in an RV, and I don't have room, but I had to have that book. I assumed the next book would be JD's story. Instead I ended up reading about a bratty teenager with a chip on her shoulder who stayed nineteen throughout the story. I was hoping that it would be a bit like Jesse's story where she would age. (A caveat, I'm older so reading about a teenager's sex life isn't exactly my cup of tea.) There were times when she breaks the fourth wall, which made it even ickier because she can't even tell us that he's grabbing his dick, she just says, "you know," or whatever it was, I can't remember exactly because I had to skip over it. I felt like a pervert for knowing that about her. And the lollypop thing? Girl you're gonna need to be prepared to see a doctor.....
3. Billie Rose wasn't an interesting character to me. After taking the journey with Jesse and Dirk, and Lily and Dan, it was hard to sympathize with her when she was so rude and awful to them. I can understand a lot of it, but the whole thing with blaming her dad and being a dick to her mom, and always running away from everyone (a pet peeve I had with Lily as well, LM Terry likes to send the men on the hunt after runaway women...), and refusing to speak, came across as a pouty, sullen obnoxious child pretending to be an adult. Then we get this shift where she decides that she is going to actually be an adult, and I just couldn't get behind it. Whenever she was referred to as the "MC Princess" I had to roll my eyes, it was super gaggy. (Again, my opinion.)
4. Elijah was absolutely the most boring character so far. In some ways, he's like the stereotypical female personality that is just part of the story to propel the MMC to be able to progress. His entire role in the story was to be a crux for BR. In the beginning of the book, Dirk says he wants a mole at the bar, so my impression was that Elijah would be secretly working there for the Skulls, but then there's this big show about how he's her bf and they both want to work there with Draven. Obviously, once you realize (like it's hard) Draven's motivations, there's no way that Draven would want Elijah there, but I guess maybe Draven figured out that Elijah had about as much spirit as wet cardboard box and he didn't have anything to worry about. It's so strange to me bc I've seen so many reviews with readers gushing over Elijah, but after Dirk and Dan I just found him to be as appealing as an unsalted saltine.
5. I get that we write romance novels because this is how we wish men were, but there are times when these men are so over the top that it's almost impossible not to groan out loud. Example: When Elijah tells her to straighten her crown I had to put my Kindle down and walk away. Vomit. Also, we have Jesse, Lily, and Rachel in this story, but it's always the men who are coming to comfort or demand answers. The amount of times that Raffe or Dan pulls her onto their laps is odd. It's almost like RH but with family members, and I noticed it in the other books, but at least Jesse and Lily in their stories weren't being treated as children, and there was a lot of touching and hugging, but they weren't sitting in laps. The unending patience, and the big declarations of love, as much as I want those traits in my MMCs, started to kind of fall flat after BR just cannot seem to get her shit together.
6. I was so close to DNFing during the scene at the bar or wherever they were when the girl hits on Elijah in front of BR and so she punches her?? Eww. There was another book by one of my very favorite authors who had a similar scene in one of her books, and it was an instant DNF. That trope for me is such a turnoff. In Watercolor Skulls, when a couple of cute girls are making eyes at Dan, Lily kisses him and makes plans with him. She doesn't turn around and deliver a beatdown while the rest of the club watches their "princess" show that girl who Elijah belongs to. It just made my skin crawl.
7. I HATE pregnancy tropes. (Totally a personal opinion.) I'd say it ruined the book for me, but I have to be honest, I knew in the first few chapters I was going to struggle.
Why did I give it 3 stars?
1. I love Dan. Is he a bit unrealistic? Yes. But I want that. I want a Dan in my life, and I loved that he tried so hard to help her.
2. The wind chime thing was so beautiful. Sometimes the way LM Terry writes can be a bit of a turnoff, but the visual and metaphorical choices she makes are stunning. I love the tattoos and the art, and the dragonfly, and here it's the whispers of Heaven. Losing Bill was so hard, but I love the idea that he's still watching out for everyone in some way.
3. This story would have made a hugely different impact on me had either Billie Rose been older and less of an obnoxious brat teenager, or had a different FMC altogether. There was a lot of potential here. I understand the cutting and the trauma, partly because I've been through some of that myself, and partly because I understand that being a teenager / young adult is a really scary time and LM Terry probably got most of it right. That doesn't mean it was fun to read.
I just looked at the next two books in the series and I think I'll probably take a break for now. I like Jackson, but I'm not dying to know what happens to him. And the book after that has an MMC named Petey. So yeah, I think I might be too old...
It's ok, because (yeah I'm going to say it again) Watercolor Skulls gave me the most incredible book boyfriend, some of the most beautiful imagery I've ever read, and it opened my eyes in so many ways to the life that I'm living verses the one I want. So thank you LM Terry for that.