I've read a number of biographies and memoirs over the years and always walk away feeling more educated about the person in question. Sometimes my respect for them grows, occasionally it lessens. Some memoirs, like one I read last year that I won't name here, can be a little TMI, while others find a good balance of sharing, but not over-sharing.
In the case of Jodi Benson, I was vaguely aware of her for years as the voice of Ariel in the original "The Little Mermaid", and also the cameo appearance she made in the movie "Enchanted" as Robert's secretary, but I knew little more than that about her and didn't really care to find out more. I started caring last year when she became the voice of the character Nia in the TV adaptation of author/singer/songwriter Andrew Peterson's book series "The Wingfeather Saga." (I highly recommend both the books and the TV series, btw.) Mainly, I was excited that the Wingfeather Saga had signed a big-name Disney voice actor for their show, but then as I saw interviews that they did with Jodi about her reasons for wanting to do this indie animated show, I began to like and respect her as a person. When I realized she'd published a memoir last year, I decided I wanted to know more about her.
Like I said above, there are some memoirs where I walk away with more respect for the subject. In this case, I finished this memoir liking and respecting Jodi so much that I wish I could sit down with her for lunch and chat for a while. She'll be the first to admit that she's not a perfect human, and no one is, but her beautiful heart shines through on every page of this memoir even as she's honest about mistakes she's made. And she's not afraid to declare from the rooftops that any beauty inside her comes straight from Jesus, and that it's only because of His forgiveness and grace that she's able to overcome her mistakes.
She wrote this memoir at a great time in her life, when she's able to look back at events objectively and even with a sense of humor. (She also wisely knows what details are appropriate to share and which ones aren't, even as she balances this with being honest.) I listened to the audiobook, which she narrated, and it was sweet to hear her giggling about things that, in her youth, seemed so big and stressful, but now she sees that they were all just steppingstones on the path that led her to where she is today. In simply sharing what she's learned about herself and life over the years, the joys and the pains, she bestows the reader with gold nuggets of wisdom that many of us could apply to our own lives in some way. Truly, she's someone that would be a wonderful mentor for people old and young, and kind of already is sometimes. God has clearly gifted her with a heart that loves people and wants to encourage and bless everyone, even strangers, at every possible opportunity. Having read this, I would be utterly shocked if she ever said she didn't have even one single charitable thought for any individual.
Overall, I really enjoyed this. I'm one of those people who loves knowing the behind-the-scenes facts about the movies and TV shows that I love, and there's plenty of that here. But I'm also so glad to have learned about, and learned FROM the life of this lovely lady whose heart is on fire for God. I can't wait to see how God continues to use her to bring beauty and love to the world and glory to Him.
Content Advisory:
Language:
None
Violence:
None.
Sexual:
Jodi talks about falling in love with her eventual husband. She mentions her first kiss with him, describing it only in as much as how and when it happened. She also mentions one time when another theater guy kissed her in a way that made her uncomfortable and she pushed him away and said, "No thank you."
Spiritual/Religious:
Jodi talks boldly about her Christian faith throughout and it's clear that she's passionate about following God with all her heart and sharing Him with others.
She mentions growing up in a Catholic school taught by nuns and mentions going to confessions and finding comfort and beauty in the routines and the sacraments, but even at that young age, she openly questioned why she had to confess to a priest instead of talking straight to Jesus. The answers the nuns and priests gave were never satisfying to her.
She mentions realizing there were other denominations besides Catholicism when in high school and living in a neighborhood with believers from several different Christian denominations. She said she didn't grasp the differences between them at the time and didn't really care because all that mattered to her was her personal relationship with God, which she clung to when her parents divorced. It's clear that she eventually left Catholicism, but I don't recall her ever specifying which denomination (if any) she eventually ended up with. This reviewer suspects she chose not to specify it because, as she said when talking about denominations, all that matters in the end is the individual's personal relationship with Jesus. Jodi clearly just wants people to know and love God, not elevate one denomination over another.
Despite being raised in a faith environment, it wasn't until college, when her future husband introduced her to a couple working in ministry who let her ask as many questions as she needed, that she made a decision to live out her faith in a more personal and committed way; putting God first in all aspects of her life instead of just thinking of Him in church or a confessional box. She also states that her new friends in the ministry stressed that her choice to follow Christ more deeply couldn't be based on worries about her boyfriend staying with her or not. It needed to be her choice that she made for herself alone.
When she reached the point of making the decision and sitting down with the couple to pray, she reports suddenly shaking and feeling extremely nauseous and having many "dark thoughts" pass through her mind. When she asked "what's wrong with me?" Her friends stated, and I quote, "It's okay, honey. You've got a spiritual battle going on. Clearly the enemy does not want you to make this decision." They continued to pray with her and Jodi states that when she spoke aloud that she "rejected the enemy and accepted Jesus into her heart" she felt a great sense of release and the physical symptoms and dark thoughts stopped.
Other:
Jodi touches on some difficult events that have happened during her life and while she shares them with grace and sensitivity, I will still give a TRIGGER WARNING for those who may be sensitive to the topics of MISCARRIAGE, the DEATH OF FRIENDS, and the DEATH OF CHILDREN FROM CANCER.
When going to Catholic school as a young child, Jodi mentions how she was once disciplined by a nun who locked her in a dark closet and left her there for probably 15 minutes even though she was terrified, crying, and banging on the door to be let out. Her parents were horrified and had a stern discussion with the school so it never happened again. (She also shares positive memories she has of the school.)
Jodi mentions that around the time The Little Mermaid came out, there was a rough patch in her marriage during which she and her husband separated for a brief time. Jodi struggled deeply during this time and hints that during her darkest moment, she briefly had thought of suicide. She talks frankly and honestly about the root of their relationship problems and how they were both able to receive wise, biblically-based counsel from other Christian couples during the separation, and eventually reconcile and seek marriage counseling together that helped their marriage move forward in a much healthier way.
Jodi touches on grief a few times. Once when talking about a friend who lost her daughter to cancer and another time when discussing the loss of her own niece to cancer. She's raw and honest about the pain, confusion, and lasting emotional scars that these events cause, but always brings it back to trusting God and His goodness even when we realize that we may never understand the reason why certain bad things happen during our lives, at least not until the reason is revealed to us when we get to heaven.
Jodi was friends with the famous Disney lyricist Howard Ashman and mentions visiting him in the hospital when he was dying of HIV/AIDs at age 40 in 1991. They'd worked together on various projects over the years, including Broadway shows and The Little Mermaid. She credits him with opening the door to start her career with Disney, and she describes the pain and grief she felt when she realized he was sick and witnessed his health decline. She talks about sobbing outside his hospital room after visiting him when he was so weak he could barely stay awake, and praying for him and the people who cared about him.
Jodi talks about miscarrying at least two pregnancies. She mentions realizing she'd lost the first one when she started bleeding early in the pregnancy, but gives no further detail other than that it was early enough that it "resolved itself." The second time she miscarried, the pregnancy was further along. She describes the painful moment when she learned the baby had no heartbeat and that she needed medical intervention. Because she was still nursing her young son, she had to stay awake during the procedure and makes it clear that the experience was traumatizing even as she avoids sharing any graphic description of the procedure itself. This experience led her to finding out the medical reason why the miscarriages were happening and she also shares how she and her doctors combatted it in order to allow her to successfully give birth to her second child.
During her successful pregnancies, she talks about working on Broadway with severe morning sickness, including some mention of it becoming "fragrant" backstage because the crew had to keep trashcans and barf bags around so she could throw up immediately after getting off stage. She also mentions a scare when she started bleeding and was afraid she'd lost the baby, but she hadn't.
Jodi scares about a health scare where her husband learned many of the arteries in his heart were clogged, to the point that it was a miracle he was alive and asymptomatic. She describes the fear, but also shares how he was able to receive treatment and fully recover.