The enthusiasm about geology & volcanoes: 5 stars
The personality on show: 1 star
Okay, let me clarify because I know this is a hard statement to make.
I started this book months ago and had to put it down at about 30% because I got so angry every time I read it. Then the eruption in La Palma happened and I craved a book about volcanoes and decided to pick it back up again. I read the remaining 70% in two days and enjoyed myself (for the most part).
So, what happened?
Jess Phoenix is an absolute badass. She is intelligent, adventurous, courageous and has been achieving things most of us don't even dare to dream of. She is unafraid and takes up space in a field that has been dominated by white old men. According to her Twitter bio she is non-binary (pronouns she/they) and there is a rainbow flag there too (not 100% sure if that is just for the NB or something else but she is def. a part of the queer community). She went to a very formal event in a suit and with a massive mohawk. AWESOME. And she tried to get into politics to protect the climate. Amaaaaziiiing!
So, why do I criticize her personality when she is clearly an all-around incredible person?
Because we do not get to see much of that in the book.
She spent the first 30% trying to make herself seem important. She goes on and on about her achievements and how she got invited to the "Explorers Club" (a big deal she can be proud of but if I don't know anything else about you first, I do not care) and repeats multiple times how her parents are both FBI agents and list names and more names of famous people she knows or met and.... damn, it was just EXHAUSTING and boring. She came across as super cocky, which is really sad because she is such a badass. But not because of her parents or some white dude that signed some paper for her. She is dancing with volcanoes, ffs. Why does she need all these people to validate herself? And why the heck should I, as the reader, care about this? She did not give any information about herself and her personality, she just threw her achievements at the reader. It made her seem equally arrogant and insecure.
There were also a bunch of statements that made me cringe. For example:
"My parents were FBI agents, and my sheltered mind firmly held that people with PhDs never, ever did drugs, and certainly would never condone drug use in any way."
That is such a problematic statement to make. Drugs are not only used by the "poor and uneducated". Especially because she just leaves that sentence like that. No reflection, nothing. Like... damn.
Her privilege showed in so many ways throughout the book. Like when she casually mentions at some point that she has a horse (while doing a PhD, after YEARS of studying and unpaid expedition jobs). There is no problem with someone being financially well of, but I would like to see that addressed at some point.
There were also multiple instances where she showed ignorance to native people and local issues. She only uses those things to make her own story more interesting without reflecting on the bigger picture.
Towards the end of the book, she is involved in a documentary and complains that the producers did not include the local researchers from Ecuador. But she does not mention them either. Beyond that complaint there was no example, no names, no praise.
As she is a queer femme person I would also have liked to see more support of women and queer folks in science. Besides herself, the only people she mentions in detail are men. This book could have been a great opportunity to talk about this topic, but it is not even mentioned. If I did not check out her Twitter, I would not even know that she identifies as queer herself, because it is mentioned NOWHERE. (To be fair: Maybe she only came out after publishing. But if not...)
When she got into politics a few years ago she did so in the name of climate change (yay!). But that topic is also completely ignored throughout the entire book except for a very brief mention on the last 3 pages (the opposite of yay!).
The book also drops off abruptly, like she got tired of writing and decided it was done.
Okay, but what about the volcanoes?
If you are like me you are probably asking yourself: Okay, but did she deliver on the volcano/geology part? I am happy to announce: yes! After the first 30% she finally gets into the science expeditions and dives deep. Her enthusiasm for volcanoes, lava, rocks and science is radiating through every sentence. Her writing style is also very different in these chapters, you get glued to the page and want to know more. You are there with the crew, on the edge of volcanoes. Her passion for her work is incredible and makes you happy inside.
If you do not know the slightest thing about volcanoes, however, you might not be too happy as she uses a few terms that are not explained. And if you are deep into geology it is probably to shallow and her side-trackings about her personal issues might bore you. But if you are like me, someone who is interested in the topic and almost went for a geology degree herself, you will enjoy this a lot.
Was it educational? In part, yes. I learned how scientists actually work and that many science documentaries are far off from reality. I did not learn a lot of new things about the mechanisms of volcanoes, etc. It is not very science-heavy unfortunately, it talks more about the "experience as a scientist" which is interesting, but I would have appreciated a balance between the two sides of it.
Summary
I really want to boost Jess Phoenix as she is a badass and is doing an incredible job. But I simply did not enjoy the book as much as I hoped I would.
I think Jess has a lot of potential. Parts of the book were really well written, but others were so boring and shallow that I wanted to DNF it immediately. She needs to address her privilege and dive deeper into the bigger issues surrounding her.
If she was to write another memoir I probably would not pick it up. But if she was to write a non-fiction book focussed on volcanoes/geology, hell yes, I would buy it in an instant.